I Have Myself to Blame

Stress is bad this week, particularly with work..... No job on the horizon. One would think that with Zachary's job open, my principal would have come to me personally if he wanted me in the position. Alas, no. When I filled out the in-house transfer, he put a note in my mailbox telling me that I needed to wait until the next district communicator..... Advice from a number of people, but mixed messages. I have to assume (as well as how I feel) that he is just not happy with me, so I will have to wait and see.
If no in-district job offers, I will have to look elsewhere, which means that this summer will be shot- updating resumes, intro letters, and portfolio (was I not suppose to do this during winter break?- procrastination bites me in the ass once again).

Feet are heavily planted in this mood. Will take some time to adjust. Lots of anger.

Otherwise, things are the same: No change. Static.

Things to try to be happy about..... and what my reactions are:
Irises and poppies blooming (peonies starting)....... but lots of work to do in the garden.
End of school year (06/05)...... but no job, behavior issues on the rise, and lots of cleanup to do.
Return to the gym..... seems to be a lost cause (physical aesthetics).

There is an inner conflict brewing.....

I've tried different ways

But it's all the same
At the end of the day
I have myself to blame