How long until summer?

Wishful thinking.... it is only November.

Not that things are bad, rather they are unsettling.

I believe that I must put myself in the mindset of the "boring teacher," teaching the material with not much personality. I find that my personality, although conducive to the learning environment, opens the door to undesirable student behavior. Behavior is not necessarily an issue, but can be. The flip is that when I attempt this mindset, I am an angry teacher. I must find a happy medium.

Quiz 5 was a bomb (Spanish I). I pushed the material too fast to fit into the schedule (my schedule). I will reteach next week.

Parent from last week filed a formal complaint. Nick told me not to worry about it- he had already spoken to students in the class and the complaint does not have merit. Still, I find it very bothersome.

Question about my "highly qualified" status. It depends upon how they, the IL board, look at the classes. Either way, I am riding the line, either over or under, of the 36 classes required for status without exam. We shall see.

The "honeymoon" is long past; it will be a very long year.

Sometimes I question my ability:

"Just because I dance around in my underwear, it does not make me Madonna."

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Three-day weekend (Veteran's Day). A bit of a jump-start on my TTDs on Thursday and Friday, completing just a few things. Still, the list is long.

I MUST get my ass to the gym. Very pathetic state, really. Pants are tighter than ever. Thank god it is sweater weather. I have not idea how I would wear a belt. There is the question of desire though and time.

I have to get review packets done for class. I am a bit ahead in Spanish II, so the time will not really matter. I am about even with the other Spanish I classes. Review for them will eat up some time. Two new students in Spanish I need the instruction anyway.

I promised Spanish Club that I would get the t-shirts done this weekend.

Short-list of things to do around the house. In reality, the list is very,very long.

Holiday decisions. Again, I do not want to do anything and I may just put my foot down this year. So much of a hassle.

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Kind of melancholy state:
questioning things,
unsettling feelings,
passion is missing from various parts of life.

Could be that this is just the way life is.
Could be that I am ignoring the signs in front of me.
Could be the early signs of a manic or depression to come.

Who knows.