Hands

On the one hand:
I like teaching Spanish in the district and at the level I am at.

I am planning student trip to Spain (Summer 2009): selected tour & company, promotional materials and meetings, and inviting other schools to join us.

I am accepting responsibility to align new textbook into one plan for Spanish I.

I am telling everyone (at school) I want to keep my position.

Keeping the position for another year would look good on resume.

I like having freedoms I know I will not have in other districts-
and not having the behavior issues of more-local schools.

I could easily take over the department (eventually).

I do not want to spend the summer looking for a job.

but.........................

On the other hand:

I will have to keep job at TBG or find other second job.

I will have to reinvent my personal schedule- and get used to it.
It MUST work (issues now).

Salary is a bit low- right above the line of "not enough, but livable."
There is nothing extra after bills, food, and other essentials.
Can I really afford to do this for another year?
Money is better local; even better in Chicago 'burbs.

Foreign Language department is chaotic with back-stabbing and hidden agendas.

The district insurance less-than desirable.
No dental; Goldstein does not accept.
I am paying full-price for Chantix.

I am not moving to Freeport.
Rockford is "country" enough for me.
Plus, I do not know if I could deal with small-town mentalities.
And then the area demographics (split) and the resulting district politics.

I have posted resume & applied for positions for next year-
areas near Mom, so can stay with her during the week.
40K +/- for early teaching positions would help out a lot.


Spoken with David about our relationship- "the" conversation, rather statements about how things have changed; separate lives, but will not leave him; what should be done with the house.
But this is also another conflict.
(I want to go to Spain this summer.)

If offered position next year- Do I accept it when presented, state that I will consider, or ask for accommodation?

• I would like first hour free (later arrival- so I can go to gym).
• I would like credit for 1/2 year at Rockford.
  
• Room adjustments: another board, with a few other things, and limiting class size to fit room comfortably.
• OR a bigger room.
  
• Pay for Spanish Club (which may become International Club).
• More say in who stays in my class (students who carry a D or F at end of first semester might not be ready for foreign language; and those with continual behavior issues) and who can continue to the next level or repeat level (should be policy in all subjects).

Really, who knows.
Some of these things could be adjustable- but it is more the gesture I am looking for.

Otherwise:

Back to not smoking- day 6 now.
Still no gym- Today, 03/01 was to be another 'start' day, but window passed. Will go tomorrow.
Long list of things to do- some done already, but still some left to do.
Some things to do cost money, which I do not have right now. (Nothing put into savings this check neither.)

ISATs next week, so I will have some free time (really 1/2 days, if they do not need me as an alternative). Class schedule is a bit strange, but OK- I am not planning anything more than review.

Observation went well- just waiting to meet to see results.