Another Day (procrastination)

Worked in the yard all day yesterday (mow, clearing the west beds). Still so much to do. I got a bit of a burn, but not too bad. I find my "gardener's tan" kind of funny- t-shirt tan lines; glove lines on hands; color below the knee; tan line on top of feet from my garden shoes.

Today, I slept a bit late (9am), and I've been contemplating/ procrastinating (it is now almost 11). I will go to the gym and then begin work. The weather is suppose to be nice for the next few days, although heat and humidity will rise with anticipation of a storm Friday. I will see how the ground is- if it gets too dry, the soil is a pain to work in.

Internal tug-of-war began again last night.

I was looking at financial resources for teachers and came across the HUD home assistance program (specific to teachers). The system seems pretty good, but the homes definitely need lots and lots of work (not something one can move right into). A handful in Freeport, a couple close to the school. One of the qualifications is consistent employment in the same district for two years.
David was all gung-ho. Interesting. I think this house is just costing too much. He said he would sell the house as-is.

I really have to think about what I want to do- professionally.

Point 1
To me, Freeport is a stepping stone. There are things that I like: advanced students, certain freedoms, school administration, some of the teachers. But there are things that I do not like: salary is lower than desirable and the scale is not good, benefits are bad, the "diversity plan" is bias (if not ignorant), and the drive (gas cost).

Point 2
(Positive) Some of the financial issues could be resolved if we lived in Freeport. Downsize into a smaller house. If I lived near the school, I could walk. If I purchased a duplex, the rent could subsidize the mortgage. Also, by living in Freeport, I would be able to be more involved in school activities.
(Negative) I find the city of Freeport very limiting. I do not see opportunities to continue my education, expand horizons, or have much to do. In addition, it is nearly an hour west from Rockford; adding more time to jaunts to Chicago and 'burbs.

Point 3
I believe the best thing to do is to work this school year and look for something else, preferably in the 'burbs where I can make more money. I could stay with Mom during the week; home on the weekends.
Frankly, I like our house and the yard. There is much to do, but financial limitations hinder any real work.

Nothing I guess I can do now.