Again

Inner-conflicts today. Just can not get things done.
Typical.

I just do not understand myself sometimes.
Conflict- conflict- conflict.

Ignorance; defiance, perhaps.
Anger- quite a bit of that.

What is important v. what is not.
How to decide?
How to fight the procrastination and last-minute response (in panic)?

I am 37 years old now,
and life, well, it is life.
It is suffering? Or sustaining the status quo?
Too afraid to make a determined change.

Not quite sure of direction,
promotes hesitation and lazy days.

Tired. Very tired.