Did not do much, rather we did not do anything "Thanksgiving." Chicken and stuffing (Swiss chicken) and I spent the day working on
work (grades).It is just not the same anymore.
I remember Grandma and Grandpa coming up from Louisiana for a couple of weeks, Mom and Grandma cooking in the kitchen for a couple of days, and sitting at the dining room table (Bloomingdale).
Going to Dunkin' Donuts with Grandpa.
Going home for lunch- mini-pizza.
A day shopping for clothes, maybe a coat.
But that is a long time ago.
People move, relationships change, and we get older.
As an adult (without children) it can become just another day.
It could be my 'holiday blues,' which seemed to hit early this year; a couple of weeks ago, I began to feel it.
Perhaps the stress of other things brought it on, with feeling that there not very much to look forward to and too much expectation.
Interesting holiday blues.... (symptoms)
Nothing to do on Thanksgiving (memories past)
Dad's birthday (reflection on own age).
Hanukkah (desire for tradition).
Christmas at Mom's this year (always a headache wherever it is; never as it should be).
Birthday (reflection; age issues; desire for change).
New Year (reflection; desire for change).
Interesting dream the other night; I guess I was somewhat vocal during my sleep, calling out David's name.It starts in a small bedroom with a cot and mattress. David is there and I ask him why he is there. He tells me that he is sleeping there because I keep him up.
It is a Goodwill/ Salvation Army place. I see a woman dropping off a pair of shoes- blue straps, looks new. She is talking to someone, saying why she is dropping off new shoes- I do not remember the reason.
So I leave, night, in the car. Pyewacket (old cat) is sitting in the passenger seat. I think he was talking/ communicating with me. The car is flipped (European), so my seat is on the right.
It begins to snow or rain- either way I can not see. Then still images, b&w, pop up on the windshield- nothing specific, cropped images. Then a bright white light.... maybe a crash.
And I wake up.
So what does it mean?
1. Argument: conflict/ unsettled business in waking like. Could reflect how I feel that I do not get enough sleep or it could be that I believe David sleeps at the wrong time.
2. Shoes: represents approach to life. New shoes leans to being overconfident- I think this has to do with work. The color blue means a lot of things, in this dream it could mean loyalty (to David or to my job), or wisdom, optimism, or a clear mind. On the other hand, blue can be a metaphor for 'being blue'/ sad (as is life- could reflect my feeling of the holiday).
3. Driving: path in life. The fact that I can not see the road ahead symbolizes that there is the unknown in my life/ lacking direction. I can not find 'opposite,' but I would assume it represents something that is not the way it should be. Night means setbacks/ issues- I've got plenty of those. Black and white could be that I need to be more objective or find a balance in life or depression. 'Finding a balance' is interesting- I've been having balance issues (time management) for a month or so- since I had the cold (with another on the way). A bright light is a need to move to a 'higher awareness,' common in those near death- interesting. A car crash symbolizes a belief/ lifestyle clash with another person (David or Kathy- dept. chair) or painful experience or a forewarning of an accident due to careless driving (I am always afraid of hitting a deer on my way to work).
4. Pyewacket (pet), could be instinct or temper- a lot lately; (cat/ black cat) independence, power, misfortune, someone is being deceitful towards me / fear; (talking animal) primitive wisdom- which is interesting, because I did feel a sense of calm.
Otherwise,
Three days spent on work and not much else- It felt good to finish it all up. Grades first (posted for mid-quarter) and I finished three weeks of lessons (up to winter break) with all of the handouts and set the second quarter exam and an objective guide for the semester exam. It is going to be busy, if not nuts. And then there is only the week after winter break for the semester exam- it should be two, as the first week back is never a very productive week.
Went to the gym on Thanksgiving morning, but nothing after. December first tomorrow; I need to get it into gear.
My list of things to do has dwindled, but is still a bit long.
Need to clean the house (too busy last weekend); finish laundry; ironing; and get prepared for the week.
Heavy snow expected today through tonight; Rockford may get 8 inches, 6 in Freeport, and a freeze overnight. Could be an interesting day tomorrow. Snow day? It would really screw up my lessons, there are no 'extra' days in these sets of plans. It it packed, packed, packed. I will keep my phone on just in case of a call.Right now, just a meager snow- flakes blowing around. It is supposed to get heavy early evening and overnight.
Could be a pretty sight in the morning.
I wanted to get holiday shopping done. It is a short season this year- three weeks. I will have to do during the week I guess. It needs to be finished by next weekend.
Things to do. Things to do.
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