29.12.10
27.12.10
Quit smoking
Quit yesterday (26th), figuring it would be better than making it another resolution (once again). It was another morning when I had to decide if I was going to go buy some, after finishing the pack Xmas day. Survived. Had been cutting down since October; Meds take the edge off, but not the desire. Somewhat painful, but tolerable.
Organized basement. $300 in shelving units (14; on sale at Menards). Need to get plastic containers- and then I can start the closet in the bedroom. But everything is off the floor, although I have a number of boxes that I am not quite sure what to do with- toss, sell, give away. I was hoping there would be some money there, but after looking at EBAY, I am no longer sure.
Christmas was fine. Overall, a lot of $$$. Have BDay still.
Organized basement. $300 in shelving units (14; on sale at Menards). Need to get plastic containers- and then I can start the closet in the bedroom. But everything is off the floor, although I have a number of boxes that I am not quite sure what to do with- toss, sell, give away. I was hoping there would be some money there, but after looking at EBAY, I am no longer sure.
Christmas was fine. Overall, a lot of $$$. Have BDay still.
25.12.10
Christmas
Lots of snow yesterday, pretty much all day into the evening. Maybe 3-4" total. Need to shovel.
Today, Christmas at Bob's (Nancy's BF) and Denise's, both at noon. Going to be a busy afternoon. Mood is somewhere in the middle.
Been cleaning the basement. Bought shelving units to get things organized. Still need more, another four to start, but probably more. So much stuff down there- deciding what to keep, what to sell, what to donate and what to toss. It's a process.
Also bought a system for the closet in our bedroom. Need to get it up and organized so we can clean out the first bedroom. For the other, we'll need storage containers (for the basement- and probably more shelves).
Birthday and then New Year's, neither which I am looking forward to . Don't have plans for either.
Today, Christmas at Bob's (Nancy's BF) and Denise's, both at noon. Going to be a busy afternoon. Mood is somewhere in the middle.
Been cleaning the basement. Bought shelving units to get things organized. Still need more, another four to start, but probably more. So much stuff down there- deciding what to keep, what to sell, what to donate and what to toss. It's a process.
Also bought a system for the closet in our bedroom. Need to get it up and organized so we can clean out the first bedroom. For the other, we'll need storage containers (for the basement- and probably more shelves).
Birthday and then New Year's, neither which I am looking forward to . Don't have plans for either.
21.12.10
19.12.10
Continues
Nothing accomplished yesterday. Took a nap mid-afternoon and that was pretty much it.
Today, a few things done, with a slew to go: bi-weekly shopping (I expect a nightmare the weekend before Xmas), cleaning, etc.
Tomorrow, to the city to finish the sleeve. Snow in the forecast- I hope it comes late (estimated around 3 in Chicago)- cross-fingers that I don't get trapped in a 4-hour trip home.
As is par, not feeling "festive"- more reluctant than melancholic.
Otherwise, things to do- things to do.
Today, a few things done, with a slew to go: bi-weekly shopping (I expect a nightmare the weekend before Xmas), cleaning, etc.
Tomorrow, to the city to finish the sleeve. Snow in the forecast- I hope it comes late (estimated around 3 in Chicago)- cross-fingers that I don't get trapped in a 4-hour trip home.As is par, not feeling "festive"- more reluctant than melancholic.
Otherwise, things to do- things to do.
18.12.10
Break
Winter break begins....
Students a bit ornery towards the end, as was I. Still, finished up what needed to be done.
FL Department holiday dinner went well. Cheryl was there, and I also met one of the new ESL teachers, Ms. Arollo, who was part of the Spain exchange from RPS205. After dinner, over at Kathy's, Kathy told me that Dr. Hardy told Martha that he wanted me to stay at the HS next year. Martha, of course, did not say anything to me. I went over to talk to Mr. Swords on Friday, who had not heard anything. He is going to find out.
Still smoking. Had cut down to four per day, with the goal of cutting one more per week. Very difficult, but had worked the first week (two per way during the week), not so good the second. Admitting defeat, smoked more than four Thursday and Friday. I believe cutting cold-turkey is the only way to go, but not sure when.
No movement on the DCFS front. I had to submit paperwork in regard to previous arrests (shoplifting and DUI; 20+ and 10+ years ago). I have not heard back, but I assume everything is fine. Homestudy after the break sometime. We need to work on the rooms.
I have a CD due and thinking about using it for the bathroom- just getting it done. It would mean that there would be no movement on the landscaping & driveway this summer, but it needs to be done before kids come in. (And we would not be able to not have a bathroom.) I will check at Lowes.
Otherwise, no big plans over break.
Students a bit ornery towards the end, as was I. Still, finished up what needed to be done.
FL Department holiday dinner went well. Cheryl was there, and I also met one of the new ESL teachers, Ms. Arollo, who was part of the Spain exchange from RPS205. After dinner, over at Kathy's, Kathy told me that Dr. Hardy told Martha that he wanted me to stay at the HS next year. Martha, of course, did not say anything to me. I went over to talk to Mr. Swords on Friday, who had not heard anything. He is going to find out.
Still smoking. Had cut down to four per day, with the goal of cutting one more per week. Very difficult, but had worked the first week (two per way during the week), not so good the second. Admitting defeat, smoked more than four Thursday and Friday. I believe cutting cold-turkey is the only way to go, but not sure when.
No movement on the DCFS front. I had to submit paperwork in regard to previous arrests (shoplifting and DUI; 20+ and 10+ years ago). I have not heard back, but I assume everything is fine. Homestudy after the break sometime. We need to work on the rooms.
I have a CD due and thinking about using it for the bathroom- just getting it done. It would mean that there would be no movement on the landscaping & driveway this summer, but it needs to be done before kids come in. (And we would not be able to not have a bathroom.) I will check at Lowes.
Otherwise, no big plans over break.
5.12.10
Meds
I can't decide if the meds are f'ing me up or if it is the usual holiday blues.
I should probably call the doctor.
I find myself getting fixated on a task (usually something unimportant) or blank-staring at something. Quiet.
Mood is generally angry-to-melancholy (not depression)- but is par for the season. I'm already in the "I don't want to do that" phase.
Not quite sure.
I should probably call the doctor.
I find myself getting fixated on a task (usually something unimportant) or blank-staring at something. Quiet.
Mood is generally angry-to-melancholy (not depression)- but is par for the season. I'm already in the "I don't want to do that" phase.
Not quite sure.
4.12.10
First Snow
Began late last night, still a light fall... maybe 4-5"; add shoveling to my list of TTDs.
Roller-coaster week at work, mainly on the downturn.
Students not performing as they should, and with mid-term reports coming, there is a big scramble to improve grades. Parent contacts- district parents are the worst, but ultimately I stand the ground: either the child wants to learn Spanish or not, and if so, he or she has to work at it. Spanish is not the type of class that one can sit in and just absorb the material. Still, I have realized a number of errors from a trial-error approach, which has resulted in more of an "old school" approach" to the material, and will hopefully show better student performance.
David finished his DCFS classes. He still has to have his physical, and then the home study.
Roller-coaster week at work, mainly on the downturn.
Students not performing as they should, and with mid-term reports coming, there is a big scramble to improve grades. Parent contacts- district parents are the worst, but ultimately I stand the ground: either the child wants to learn Spanish or not, and if so, he or she has to work at it. Spanish is not the type of class that one can sit in and just absorb the material. Still, I have realized a number of errors from a trial-error approach, which has resulted in more of an "old school" approach" to the material, and will hopefully show better student performance.
David finished his DCFS classes. He still has to have his physical, and then the home study.
26.11.10
Post-Thanksgiving
Quiet day yesterday- worked mainly; finished unit plans through the end of the semester and worked on lesson plans (finished today).
Simple turkey breasts and gb casserole for dinner.
Today- need to clean the house. Xmas shopping on the agenda as well.
I started the Zyban/ Wellbuterin to quit smoking last week.
Smoke for a couple of weeks on the meds and then taper-off, or quit cold.
Seems to work well for the SAD as well- my holiday blues are not so bad since I've been on it.
Yesterday I ran out of cigarettes while working, but decided to keep working.... even though it was not all that long (maybe 8-9 hours; similar to a school day), the withdrawal was painful. Not sure why.
No movement on the foster/adopt plans..... I seem to be stifling with what needs to get done. Bedrooms not touched. Perhaps the realization...; well, we shall see.
Simple turkey breasts and gb casserole for dinner.
Today- need to clean the house. Xmas shopping on the agenda as well.
I started the Zyban/ Wellbuterin to quit smoking last week.
Smoke for a couple of weeks on the meds and then taper-off, or quit cold.
Seems to work well for the SAD as well- my holiday blues are not so bad since I've been on it.
Yesterday I ran out of cigarettes while working, but decided to keep working.... even though it was not all that long (maybe 8-9 hours; similar to a school day), the withdrawal was painful. Not sure why.
No movement on the foster/adopt plans..... I seem to be stifling with what needs to get done. Bedrooms not touched. Perhaps the realization...; well, we shall see.
20.11.10
Mid-month
Pre-season 'blahs' already present.
Not looking forward to the holiday madness, nor the 4-0 coming in a just over a month. Not sure what we will do for the holidays, but hopefully it will be somewhat sane.
Finished my DCFS classes; David still has a couple of weeks. No movement on the bedrooms or other projects to prep for foster/adoption. Honestly, there is no time- and budget is pinched right now. Not sure when we'll pick it back up. We need the homestudy to get the license, which means the rooms have to be finished. It'll come- just have to find the time.
I think I need to get a second job.
School this week was really a roller coaster. Feel pushed-pulled in various directions. Not sure where it will all end up.
Otherwise, feeling fat-fat-fat and otherwise out-of-it. A bit sick (cold) and definitely not getting enough sleep. Time for change and not feeling it; the end-of-year yo-yo.
Not looking forward to the holiday madness, nor the 4-0 coming in a just over a month. Not sure what we will do for the holidays, but hopefully it will be somewhat sane.
Finished my DCFS classes; David still has a couple of weeks. No movement on the bedrooms or other projects to prep for foster/adoption. Honestly, there is no time- and budget is pinched right now. Not sure when we'll pick it back up. We need the homestudy to get the license, which means the rooms have to be finished. It'll come- just have to find the time.
I think I need to get a second job.
School this week was really a roller coaster. Feel pushed-pulled in various directions. Not sure where it will all end up.
Otherwise, feeling fat-fat-fat and otherwise out-of-it. A bit sick (cold) and definitely not getting enough sleep. Time for change and not feeling it; the end-of-year yo-yo.
8.11.10
Monday- Mood Ebbs
Ups and downs.
Last day of 4-day weekend and will be scrambling to get things done.
Lesson plans finished.
Slew of other TTDs on the agenda.
I hate procrastination.
Lesson learned, lesson learned.
Last day of 4-day weekend and will be scrambling to get things done.
Lesson plans finished.
Slew of other TTDs on the agenda.
I hate procrastination.
Lesson learned, lesson learned.
7.11.10
Autumn
Blaming illness for procrastination. Not a good game to play, as I know the result.
Just having trouble getting things together this weekend. Facing a long list of TTDs and not clearing the list quick- finding other things to do instead, or rather, nothing to do.
Just having trouble getting things together this weekend. Facing a long list of TTDs and not clearing the list quick- finding other things to do instead, or rather, nothing to do.
5.11.10
November
Four-day weekend. Conferences begin, but I configured my schedule so that I could have today off. Monday is Veteran's Day. Should be a nice break (or not).
Confirmed diagnosis of shingles today. Was there to get blood work for physical. Minor case of shingles, but quite painful, almost burning sensation. Need to pick up RX at Target (anti-viral). It is near the end of the cycle (began last week), so not much can be done. David never had chicken pox, so he is at risk. Been somewhat ill for the week, noticing ear issues last week, cold, and acne is stirring up (sign something is up). Also a sebaceous cyst that is not healing. I'm supposed to go back to the Dr in 10 days. Hopefully things will be better by then.
Stress test on Monday.
Work has been somewhat bland, probably due to being sick. Fiesta on Wednesday, all classes + FLIC, so somewhat wiped out. End of quarter grades OK for the most part. Find my teaching is not at level, but could be from being sick. Have plans to do still- just getting tired of churning them out.
Conferences yesterday until 7, a few days next week and after. I find them somewhat boring- as do most students and parents- but they need to be done.
Grandma not doing so well, so we talked about going down to Monroe. David has his DCFS class on Monday, which is already a stretch for him (6-9 2x a week), so I did not want to push it. Maybe Thanksgiving.
My DCFS classes almost finished. Physical done (David needs his), and water test will be done by Monday. Contacted Colorado about a sibling group, whom may be out of the system soon- sad, but happy for them. They may still be available when we finish, but if not there are plenty more to consider.
Body-issues abound.
Not quite sure what the weekend will turn out to be. Things to do, but low-energy.
Confirmed diagnosis of shingles today. Was there to get blood work for physical. Minor case of shingles, but quite painful, almost burning sensation. Need to pick up RX at Target (anti-viral). It is near the end of the cycle (began last week), so not much can be done. David never had chicken pox, so he is at risk. Been somewhat ill for the week, noticing ear issues last week, cold, and acne is stirring up (sign something is up). Also a sebaceous cyst that is not healing. I'm supposed to go back to the Dr in 10 days. Hopefully things will be better by then.
Stress test on Monday.
Work has been somewhat bland, probably due to being sick. Fiesta on Wednesday, all classes + FLIC, so somewhat wiped out. End of quarter grades OK for the most part. Find my teaching is not at level, but could be from being sick. Have plans to do still- just getting tired of churning them out.
Conferences yesterday until 7, a few days next week and after. I find them somewhat boring- as do most students and parents- but they need to be done.
Grandma not doing so well, so we talked about going down to Monroe. David has his DCFS class on Monday, which is already a stretch for him (6-9 2x a week), so I did not want to push it. Maybe Thanksgiving.
My DCFS classes almost finished. Physical done (David needs his), and water test will be done by Monday. Contacted Colorado about a sibling group, whom may be out of the system soon- sad, but happy for them. They may still be available when we finish, but if not there are plenty more to consider.
Body-issues abound.
Not quite sure what the weekend will turn out to be. Things to do, but low-energy.
30.10.10
End of Q1
First quarter has come to a close.... busy, busy, busy; so behind on grading. I guest it is my own fault, really, scheduling back-to-back exams. Gotta get it done. At least my plans are finished.
Thus far, the school year has been rather uneventful. Of course, issues with Martha, but otherwise rather sane. No bad classes, but HS I is very weak. I think my observation is next week, also conferences begin. Going to be busy, but Friday is off (I did not schedule conferences), so perhaps I will be able to get work done over the 4-day weekend.
Began training classes for DCFS for foster care/ adoption. David begins his this week. Quite a process. Some second thoughts, of course, but it is a good thing.
Primed the garage and front doors; paint in the spring. Other projects on the agenda (prep for DCFS).
Found a local doctor I like.
Mood is pretty OK, slightly off. Tired.
Thus far, the school year has been rather uneventful. Of course, issues with Martha, but otherwise rather sane. No bad classes, but HS I is very weak. I think my observation is next week, also conferences begin. Going to be busy, but Friday is off (I did not schedule conferences), so perhaps I will be able to get work done over the 4-day weekend.
Began training classes for DCFS for foster care/ adoption. David begins his this week. Quite a process. Some second thoughts, of course, but it is a good thing.
Primed the garage and front doors; paint in the spring. Other projects on the agenda (prep for DCFS).
Found a local doctor I like.
Mood is pretty OK, slightly off. Tired.
12.9.10
Feeling Fall
Weather slowing changing; Days still comfortable, but mornings quite cool.
Everything alright, although feeling a bit misaligned:
Can't get the gym schedule in sync. Why do I fight this? Something I desire, but perhaps not enough to make the change/ commitment. I feel fat, fat, fat, but just not enough disgust, I guess. Need to get this going. Mornings, at least school mornings, I go, but afternoons and weekends are lost.
Ditto for house projects and other bigger TTDs; perhaps not enough to get things done.
School is fine.
David is fine.
Just gotta look within to fix what needs to be fixed.
Everything alright, although feeling a bit misaligned:
Can't get the gym schedule in sync. Why do I fight this? Something I desire, but perhaps not enough to make the change/ commitment. I feel fat, fat, fat, but just not enough disgust, I guess. Need to get this going. Mornings, at least school mornings, I go, but afternoons and weekends are lost.
Ditto for house projects and other bigger TTDs; perhaps not enough to get things done.
School is fine.
David is fine.
Just gotta look within to fix what needs to be fixed.
5.9.10
First Full Week 10-11
Things went well for the week:
Spanish II- moving along with review- which will continue pretty much the entire quarter. Only one real concern of a student who is not doing much of anything, who is also a child of an administrator. Already spoke to parent once. I know I will have to again. I predict only a slight few who will return to Spanish I or drop.
Spanish I (HS)- many are second-timer upperclassmen, which makes me worry about the Freshman in the class. No major problems, with only a few who may drop- but it is more with their attitude than ability.
Spanish I (MS)- progressing through the LP, with first quiz on Tuesday and test the following week. Organized first lesson schedule, a bit long, but going somewhat slow to get them used to the system.
Lesson Plans- Not that happy with spread-sheet format, as I find it limited. Hardy's feedback is good, although he wants more detail- Where to put it? Nick said my plans are fine.
Student Council- co-advising with Nieto. Meeting with Pres this Tuesday, representative sign up following, then elections.
FLIC- met with officers last week, first meeting this Wednesday. Much more organized than last year. Can I keep it up?
Worked more on school than anticipated this weekend. Gotta get a system down. Other items are not getting done, with a desperate need for a clean house and other important TTDs in-waiting. Thank goodness no school tomorrow (Labor Day). Maybe I will catch up!
Spanish II- moving along with review- which will continue pretty much the entire quarter. Only one real concern of a student who is not doing much of anything, who is also a child of an administrator. Already spoke to parent once. I know I will have to again. I predict only a slight few who will return to Spanish I or drop.
Spanish I (HS)- many are second-timer upperclassmen, which makes me worry about the Freshman in the class. No major problems, with only a few who may drop- but it is more with their attitude than ability.
Spanish I (MS)- progressing through the LP, with first quiz on Tuesday and test the following week. Organized first lesson schedule, a bit long, but going somewhat slow to get them used to the system.
Lesson Plans- Not that happy with spread-sheet format, as I find it limited. Hardy's feedback is good, although he wants more detail- Where to put it? Nick said my plans are fine.
Student Council- co-advising with Nieto. Meeting with Pres this Tuesday, representative sign up following, then elections.
FLIC- met with officers last week, first meeting this Wednesday. Much more organized than last year. Can I keep it up?
Worked more on school than anticipated this weekend. Gotta get a system down. Other items are not getting done, with a desperate need for a clean house and other important TTDs in-waiting. Thank goodness no school tomorrow (Labor Day). Maybe I will catch up!
28.8.10
First Week
Thus far, everything is OK. I feel a bit behind than my norm, but feeling fine.
Students seems enthused, although nervous (as usual)- but once we get into the swing of things, I know they will do well. My HS Spanish I class is a mixed group and we shall see how things go for them after the first unit. The majority of my Spanish II class are those from last year, so it should be good, but a few of the others may not be ready. Review is planned for all of them for the next week or so. I will meet with each student individually as well.
We have to turn in lesson plans this year, which is fine for me, and I actually like the spread-sheet format. I have more time on the weekends- although, as today, I am procrastinating a bit.
The new HS principal is doing well thus far. I have seen changes in the HS, at least my perceptions of the HS are changing. We shall see what happens once parents get into the mix.
Students seems enthused, although nervous (as usual)- but once we get into the swing of things, I know they will do well. My HS Spanish I class is a mixed group and we shall see how things go for them after the first unit. The majority of my Spanish II class are those from last year, so it should be good, but a few of the others may not be ready. Review is planned for all of them for the next week or so. I will meet with each student individually as well.
We have to turn in lesson plans this year, which is fine for me, and I actually like the spread-sheet format. I have more time on the weekends- although, as today, I am procrastinating a bit.
The new HS principal is doing well thus far. I have seen changes in the HS, at least my perceptions of the HS are changing. We shall see what happens once parents get into the mix.
21.8.10
Saturday
Last weekend before school begins.
Cleaning house, organizing.... I have a lot to do for classes before the official first day, but I have a few days still.
Another transition period, which bring out the "this time is the time" mentality to get everything clean, organized, started, finished, better, etc. Really a mind-fuck, and I always question why I waited for this moment, wasting time procrastinating/ doing other things.
Its gotta stop. 40 is hovering.
Cleaning house, organizing.... I have a lot to do for classes before the official first day, but I have a few days still.
Another transition period, which bring out the "this time is the time" mentality to get everything clean, organized, started, finished, better, etc. Really a mind-fuck, and I always question why I waited for this moment, wasting time procrastinating/ doing other things.
Its gotta stop. 40 is hovering.
14.8.10
Montreal and End of Summer
In Montreal earlier this week to visit Great Aunt Jean. It was a last-minute trip, as my summer Spanish class was canceled (only had 14/15 students), and although expensive, it was well worth it. Visited with family (Grandmother's side) I had not seen for at least 25 years and saw a lot of the city. In addition, it was good to spend some time with Adam and Martina.
Aunt Jean turned 100 in January, so it could be the last time I see her. She is doing fine, considering her age, using a magnifier to see anything, oxygen, and the need to repeat over-and-over so she can hear. Her stream-of-thought is a bit slow, but she talked a lot about her life experiences. If it was just me, I would have asked her more things- questions about the family that Grandma does not disclose.
In any event, it was a good trip. Great Aunt Lillian is a bit of a controller, but she is the "matriarch" of the family. Lots of money there- although some in the larger group did not receive any of the funds from Aunt Jean, not sure why. Lillian gave me a piece of artwork from her collection. There was another one I was eying, but we shall see.
I would like to go back, but then it is another annual trip to take- Monroe, Vegas, Montreal. Not a bad drive, only 17 hours or so, so it is do-able.
Spending time with them, noting the longevity on that side of the family, made me think of my own mortality and things that I want to do. I brought up the idea of adoption, again, to David- it's been over 10 years since we really discussed it. We´ll see. All of my other things are the same- the lists have begun.
School begins in a couple of weeks, the 23rd for me- 25th for students, so next week begins the throws of prep. I am not as ready as I was last year at this time, but I will catch up before the year starts. Excited, nervous.
18.7.10
July Heat
It is so awfully muggy and has been for a week or so. No rain yet, but moisture abounds, yet the ground is as hard as a rock. Still things to do in the garden before the season ends- particularly moving the daylilies from the house surround. Finish through from the west side until under the kitchen window, so probably a bit more than half. Not sure what will get done.
Sears finished the fascia (and related), after a third post-installation visit. In my eyes, not perfect, but very good considering the sloppiness of the first crew. No discount, which pissed me off, but at least it is done. With a long list of TTDs to do around here, I had hoped that Sears would have been a long-term relationship. Now, I am not sure. Still, I am very happy with the windows. We shall see.
Off to Monroe tomorrow to see Grandma. It has been three years since my last visit and is way past-due. Been a long time since David and I took a road trip, and although I am excited, I worry that he will not par well. Also, Eva, who is still on-again-off-again with her health. We'll be gone for the rest of the week, returning early Sunday morning (probably). I have a lot of things to do today to prepare, plus dentist tomorrow morning, along with last-minute errands, before we go.
Landscaping will begin the week we return. The final cost is a bit higher than expected, but OK. I had to decline the new driveway to stay near the budget. Maybe next year. It will take a couple of weeks for the demo and install and I have things I have to move before the project begins. Looking forward to getting that done.
Saw Tim at his new studio, Pioneer, about finishing the sleeve. Date set for Nov 12.
Still things on my summer list before I have to focus on school. Gotta get it done.
Sears finished the fascia (and related), after a third post-installation visit. In my eyes, not perfect, but very good considering the sloppiness of the first crew. No discount, which pissed me off, but at least it is done. With a long list of TTDs to do around here, I had hoped that Sears would have been a long-term relationship. Now, I am not sure. Still, I am very happy with the windows. We shall see.
Off to Monroe tomorrow to see Grandma. It has been three years since my last visit and is way past-due. Been a long time since David and I took a road trip, and although I am excited, I worry that he will not par well. Also, Eva, who is still on-again-off-again with her health. We'll be gone for the rest of the week, returning early Sunday morning (probably). I have a lot of things to do today to prepare, plus dentist tomorrow morning, along with last-minute errands, before we go.
Landscaping will begin the week we return. The final cost is a bit higher than expected, but OK. I had to decline the new driveway to stay near the budget. Maybe next year. It will take a couple of weeks for the demo and install and I have things I have to move before the project begins. Looking forward to getting that done.
Saw Tim at his new studio, Pioneer, about finishing the sleeve. Date set for Nov 12.
Still things on my summer list before I have to focus on school. Gotta get it done.
12.7.10
David's Bday
David's family over last night; mother coming today.
Somewhat uneasy.... unsettled. Began yesterday.
Momentum is a little lost, in-between.
Gotta get back on track before it consumes me.
Somewhat uneasy.... unsettled. Began yesterday.
Momentum is a little lost, in-between.
Gotta get back on track before it consumes me.
5.7.10
Eva
Emergency vet on Friday; not eating or drinking and otherwise somewhat lethargic. Enlarged liver, among other issues.
Brought her home Sunday morning, still obviously under-the-weather and slept pretty much all day, but eating a little and drinking.
Today, not the same, not necessarily as bad as Friday, but something is up. We think a fever. Over to the vet for fluids and observation.
We shall see.
Brought her home Sunday morning, still obviously under-the-weather and slept pretty much all day, but eating a little and drinking.
Today, not the same, not necessarily as bad as Friday, but something is up. We think a fever. Over to the vet for fluids and observation.
We shall see.
25.6.10
Return from Costa Rica
Had a very good time in C.R.
Just a few issues, as predicted- hotels and a couple students- but overall an excellent trip.
Now that I am back, my summer begins.
Sears finished the fascia and gutters- a bit sloppy, so they will be returning.
Sears begins windows on July 2nd.
Landscaper stopped by yesterday. A couple of changes, but pretty much good-to-go. Lead time is four to six weeks. Stopping by next week for final plans.
Road work in front, quite a mess.
Email to Martha with request for meeting- to hopefully bury the hatchet.
Now that I am back, I am not quite sure what to do with myself. Procrastination the last couple of days- which needs to stop.
Just a few issues, as predicted- hotels and a couple students- but overall an excellent trip.
Now that I am back, my summer begins.
Sears finished the fascia and gutters- a bit sloppy, so they will be returning.
Sears begins windows on July 2nd.
Landscaper stopped by yesterday. A couple of changes, but pretty much good-to-go. Lead time is four to six weeks. Stopping by next week for final plans.
Road work in front, quite a mess.
Email to Martha with request for meeting- to hopefully bury the hatchet.
Now that I am back, I am not quite sure what to do with myself. Procrastination the last couple of days- which needs to stop.
11.6.10
June
Does not quite feel like summer, more like an extended weekend.
Working in yard a lot, which is par for the season.
City tonight- Psychedelic Furs concert at Metro.
Work began on the house yesterday- fascia and gutters; continues today.
Windows not until late June/ early July.
Meeting with landscaper today.
Leaving for Costa Rica on Sunday. Still a bit nervous, but I am sure things will be fine.
Hopefully, I will be prepared for anything that comes my way.
Working in yard a lot, which is par for the season.
City tonight- Psychedelic Furs concert at Metro.
Work began on the house yesterday- fascia and gutters; continues today.
Windows not until late June/ early July.
Meeting with landscaper today.
Leaving for Costa Rica on Sunday. Still a bit nervous, but I am sure things will be fine.
Hopefully, I will be prepared for anything that comes my way.
2.6.10
Summer Begins
Finished on Wednesday.
Meeting with Messmore at the HS. Still no room assignment; will probably be teaching from a cart, and we discussed "the trip." Also discussed section assignments, how I have no Spanish III, and other department issues.
Meeting with Wiley about the art position, but previous discussion with Swords- he told me that he prefers that I stick with Spanish. I left it up to Swords for my assignment next year.
Room all cleaned out; boxes in the basement.
Paris on Thursday.
Really a whirlwind three days- seeing the major sites, but not enough time to really have a cultural experience. It is difficult to travel somewhere where one does not know the language.
Highlights: Louvre, where I ran around during the 'free time' to see the works I've studied. In particular, Flandrin's Jeune Homme Nu Assis au Bord de la Mer; At Notre Dame, I lit candles for Candi and Daisy; Stroll through the d'Orsey to see the impressionists and post-impressionists; Versailles gardens; View of Paris from the Sacré-Cœur, and buying a watercolor in a nearby market; Boat cruise on the Seine; Visiting small shops- wine,
I enjoyed being with fellow teachers, including talking to the new principal at Stevenson HS.
I will probably not use EF again, as I was somewhat unimpressed- hotel location was way out (subway everyday) and in an area with nothing to do and the amenities were sparse. Food OK, but not great. I had more fun when I was on my own, when compared to being with the group. The 'master teachers' basically took control over the 'green' EF staff, and the tour guide did not transition activities very well.
Overslept and missed the bus to the airport. Took the subway, arriving with time to spare, although nervous the entire way that I would be late. That was THE EXPERIENCE on my trip.
Back home.
Prepping for renovations- estimates for landscape (front foundation) and Sears for windows and fascia. Spending some of the money Aunt Jean gave me.
Planning trips to Monroe and Montreal- trying to squeeze them in before David's birthday. Student trip to Costa Rica on the 13th- 22nd.
Going to be a busy and expensive summer!
Meeting with Messmore at the HS. Still no room assignment; will probably be teaching from a cart, and we discussed "the trip." Also discussed section assignments, how I have no Spanish III, and other department issues.
Meeting with Wiley about the art position, but previous discussion with Swords- he told me that he prefers that I stick with Spanish. I left it up to Swords for my assignment next year.
Room all cleaned out; boxes in the basement.
Paris on Thursday.
Really a whirlwind three days- seeing the major sites, but not enough time to really have a cultural experience. It is difficult to travel somewhere where one does not know the language.
Highlights: Louvre, where I ran around during the 'free time' to see the works I've studied. In particular, Flandrin's Jeune Homme Nu Assis au Bord de la Mer; At Notre Dame, I lit candles for Candi and Daisy; Stroll through the d'Orsey to see the impressionists and post-impressionists; Versailles gardens; View of Paris from the Sacré-Cœur, and buying a watercolor in a nearby market; Boat cruise on the Seine; Visiting small shops- wine,
I enjoyed being with fellow teachers, including talking to the new principal at Stevenson HS.
I will probably not use EF again, as I was somewhat unimpressed- hotel location was way out (subway everyday) and in an area with nothing to do and the amenities were sparse. Food OK, but not great. I had more fun when I was on my own, when compared to being with the group. The 'master teachers' basically took control over the 'green' EF staff, and the tour guide did not transition activities very well.
Overslept and missed the bus to the airport. Took the subway, arriving with time to spare, although nervous the entire way that I would be late. That was THE EXPERIENCE on my trip.
Back home.
Prepping for renovations- estimates for landscape (front foundation) and Sears for windows and fascia. Spending some of the money Aunt Jean gave me.
Planning trips to Monroe and Montreal- trying to squeeze them in before David's birthday. Student trip to Costa Rica on the 13th- 22nd.
Going to be a busy and expensive summer!
16.5.10
Last Full Week
JHS exams Monday and Tuesday; Fiesta on Wednesday.
HS exams Wednesday and Thursday.
FLIC garden Tuesday.
Retirement dinners: Cheryl and Pam.
FLIC bowling on Saturday.
Packing, packing, packing.
HS exams Wednesday and Thursday.
FLIC garden Tuesday.
Retirement dinners: Cheryl and Pam.
FLIC bowling on Saturday.
Packing, packing, packing.
8.5.10
Two weeks and counting....
Just over two weeks left....
Next week- (4 days Monday-Thursday really; Friday is a short day): Spanish I finishes 8, extra credit exam 5-8, and review for final exam; Spanish II review, quarter exam (2 days), and more review.
Following week- Review and final exams in all classes. HS classes finished after exams.
Final week (one full day)- 8th grade activities and promotion.
No word on my room assignment for next year; No word from job search.
I have already started boxing stuff up. Bring home or not?
Paris trip seems to be somewhat of a wash. The allure of Paris, and then to find out that we are staying in the 'burbs; Like saying we're going to Chicago, but staying in Schaumburg. Quite the disappointment, and concerned words to EF.
First official Spain meeting... Not quite sure if there will be any more additions. Maybe.
Lost a ton of money in the market this week- very stressful!!
Otherwise, somewhat mixed feelings/ emotional state, and not sure where the next step is. I should be treading lightly, but I've been more of an elephant. We shall see.
Next week- (4 days Monday-Thursday really; Friday is a short day): Spanish I finishes 8, extra credit exam 5-8, and review for final exam; Spanish II review, quarter exam (2 days), and more review.
Following week- Review and final exams in all classes. HS classes finished after exams.
Final week (one full day)- 8th grade activities and promotion.
No word on my room assignment for next year; No word from job search.
I have already started boxing stuff up. Bring home or not?
Paris trip seems to be somewhat of a wash. The allure of Paris, and then to find out that we are staying in the 'burbs; Like saying we're going to Chicago, but staying in Schaumburg. Quite the disappointment, and concerned words to EF.
First official Spain meeting... Not quite sure if there will be any more additions. Maybe.
Lost a ton of money in the market this week- very stressful!!
Otherwise, somewhat mixed feelings/ emotional state, and not sure where the next step is. I should be treading lightly, but I've been more of an elephant. We shall see.
1.5.10
Moody
Could be the weather, or just drama (which seemed to be up this week), which put my mood up and over this week. Not happy-smiley, but rather irritated and angry.
Patch fine all week, until yesterday (when I forgot it), and the flood gates opened. Bought a pack today, not really needing it.
A bit mean yesterday, somewhat vocal. Not sure if there will be repercussions come Monday.
Need to figure out plan. Rather, need to be offered an interview so there is a plan.
My room may be moved over to the HS for next year (space issue). Not happy about it, but not finalized yet- still waiting to hear. Nothing major to worry about. Plus yesterday was treat day and I was up until about 1 on Thursday, up at 5. My teaching was off, but OK. Fell asleep around 6pm, up around 7:30 this morning.
End-of-year issues, as it is crunch time. It is an easy schedule for Spanish 1, but Spanish 2 still has a bit of work to do.
Weekend full of things to do. Not sure where to begin.
Patch fine all week, until yesterday (when I forgot it), and the flood gates opened. Bought a pack today, not really needing it.
A bit mean yesterday, somewhat vocal. Not sure if there will be repercussions come Monday.
Need to figure out plan. Rather, need to be offered an interview so there is a plan.
My room may be moved over to the HS for next year (space issue). Not happy about it, but not finalized yet- still waiting to hear. Nothing major to worry about. Plus yesterday was treat day and I was up until about 1 on Thursday, up at 5. My teaching was off, but OK. Fell asleep around 6pm, up around 7:30 this morning.
End-of-year issues, as it is crunch time. It is an easy schedule for Spanish 1, but Spanish 2 still has a bit of work to do.
Weekend full of things to do. Not sure where to begin.
25.4.10
Time and money
Time:
Got the house clean, most of my shopping list done, and FLIC skate (7-10) yesterday. Today, procrastination, but did go to gym. Need to finish list, run errands, etc., and it is nearly noon.
Money:
Very grateful for Aunt Jean; opened another CD (5G), 5G in savings (15 total now) not including my ING account, and 10G to Fidelity (not sure where to put it though). Paid Visa (Vegas) and gave David $3500 specific for the house- still no idea what he is going to do with it. Ordered euros and colones for summer trips.
I have about 4G of "play money".... See grandmother this summer, maybe a trip to Montreal?
Got the house clean, most of my shopping list done, and FLIC skate (7-10) yesterday. Today, procrastination, but did go to gym. Need to finish list, run errands, etc., and it is nearly noon.
Money:
Very grateful for Aunt Jean; opened another CD (5G), 5G in savings (15 total now) not including my ING account, and 10G to Fidelity (not sure where to put it though). Paid Visa (Vegas) and gave David $3500 specific for the house- still no idea what he is going to do with it. Ordered euros and colones for summer trips.
I have about 4G of "play money".... See grandmother this summer, maybe a trip to Montreal?
24.4.10
Rain
Rain expected all weekend- thank goodness for that. Not only do we need a good-slow soak, but also I have so many things to do inside. I don't think I've cleaned this house in a couple weeks- Three maybe?
I stayed late yesterday to finish up lessons for the week- so no work either this weekend. All finished, even copies, then thought of something else on my way home, but will have to wait until Monday.
The week was mixed. With only a month left, nerves are frayed, in anticipation of summer- I am also affected. Smoking/ not smoking also in the mix (I just need to quit!), as are unprepared students and their excuses. Spanish 1 basically finished this Monday with the unit 6 exam. I've decided to continue with the book, quickly and only to continue the preterit, and then review and formal exams- I am going to do an all-in-one. Spanish 2 still chugging along at a slow pace, but we should finish material at the end of first week in May, with quarter exams the following week, and final exam the week after.
My room may be moved next year, not something I am happy about. I will have to wait and see. No mention of final day for 8th grade grades. I am hoping the 18th, as that is what I have planned for.
Department meeting Friday- so filled with disassociation, mistrust, and back-stabbing. After the formal meeting, with no mention of my trip nor the "official one," Martha told me that Lisa was probably going to quit the year after next and that I was probably going to have three sections of HS Spanish (Spanish 2, most likely) due to Cheryl's retirement. Cheryl will probably be back part-time next year, as will Kathy. I did not ask about Spanish 3, as she seemed frazzled, nor did I tell her about my trip. It did cross my mind, but then she called Cheryl a racist (a reason why AA students do not do well in her class), so I decided against it- a trust and professionalism issue.
Otherwise...
Feel like I am just trying to keep things together, on some sort of level plane. Not sure if something is brewing or not.
I stayed late yesterday to finish up lessons for the week- so no work either this weekend. All finished, even copies, then thought of something else on my way home, but will have to wait until Monday.
The week was mixed. With only a month left, nerves are frayed, in anticipation of summer- I am also affected. Smoking/ not smoking also in the mix (I just need to quit!), as are unprepared students and their excuses. Spanish 1 basically finished this Monday with the unit 6 exam. I've decided to continue with the book, quickly and only to continue the preterit, and then review and formal exams- I am going to do an all-in-one. Spanish 2 still chugging along at a slow pace, but we should finish material at the end of first week in May, with quarter exams the following week, and final exam the week after.
My room may be moved next year, not something I am happy about. I will have to wait and see. No mention of final day for 8th grade grades. I am hoping the 18th, as that is what I have planned for.
Department meeting Friday- so filled with disassociation, mistrust, and back-stabbing. After the formal meeting, with no mention of my trip nor the "official one," Martha told me that Lisa was probably going to quit the year after next and that I was probably going to have three sections of HS Spanish (Spanish 2, most likely) due to Cheryl's retirement. Cheryl will probably be back part-time next year, as will Kathy. I did not ask about Spanish 3, as she seemed frazzled, nor did I tell her about my trip. It did cross my mind, but then she called Cheryl a racist (a reason why AA students do not do well in her class), so I decided against it- a trust and professionalism issue.
Otherwise...
Feel like I am just trying to keep things together, on some sort of level plane. Not sure if something is brewing or not.
17.4.10
Continue
Up-beat, but still somewhat unsettled week.
8th graders bombed the test, so had a day of corrections and extra credit to regain some points. I was very surprised that they did so bad, quite disappointed. Some jumped back up, others did not.
Spanish II has a test on Monday- we shall see it is going to be the same.
I've decided to finish teaching new material through the first week of May- so what we get through, we get through. I have to have time to review. Planning is going to be a bit of a struggle, trying to finish whatever lesson at hand, but we have to have time for review.
Cheryl came to see me on Friday- just to let me know that she spoke with administrators about her last-minute retirement announcement. I guess she ripped into them and the Department. She told Messmore that he should assign me upper-level classes; my students are able to communicate in Spanish above the students from other teachers. Friday is a SIP day, so it should be an interesting meeting.
Brian and his father signed up for Spain. That is four, so I believe my trip is free. I would like a few more. I hope to get a meeting organized soon- off-site, of course. I spoke with Nick and Crawford (FEA) about the trip- so they know. As long as I follow the rules, I should be fine.
Not smoking has produced an anxiety issue. I'm fine during the work week, even in the car, but weekends are something else. Had one on Friday after school, and two thus far today. It is a mental thing (habitual), as the actual desire is not there. I really do not understand it.
Weight up to 220. Bad, bad, bad.
Received another 25G from Aunt Jean; 75 thus far. Figuring out what to do with it- bills, David, invest, savings. I need to get a letter out to her.
The house on the corner is still for sale, 109G. I think David is beginning to understand that he will not get what he owes on this house. He'll have to take a major loss if we move.
Spring is in full swing, with the daffodils fading and the tulips blooming. One of the Tidal Basin Cherries sprouted a few blooms; still nothing from the Magnolias and the Kennedy Crab. Lots of work to do outside. I love the season, but hate it at the same time.
In general, back to the a slight "regret" stage- all of the things that are not done; those things not taken care of. I need to just do it, get the stuff done.
Busy weekend, once again.
8th graders bombed the test, so had a day of corrections and extra credit to regain some points. I was very surprised that they did so bad, quite disappointed. Some jumped back up, others did not.
Spanish II has a test on Monday- we shall see it is going to be the same.
I've decided to finish teaching new material through the first week of May- so what we get through, we get through. I have to have time to review. Planning is going to be a bit of a struggle, trying to finish whatever lesson at hand, but we have to have time for review.
Cheryl came to see me on Friday- just to let me know that she spoke with administrators about her last-minute retirement announcement. I guess she ripped into them and the Department. She told Messmore that he should assign me upper-level classes; my students are able to communicate in Spanish above the students from other teachers. Friday is a SIP day, so it should be an interesting meeting.
Brian and his father signed up for Spain. That is four, so I believe my trip is free. I would like a few more. I hope to get a meeting organized soon- off-site, of course. I spoke with Nick and Crawford (FEA) about the trip- so they know. As long as I follow the rules, I should be fine.
Not smoking has produced an anxiety issue. I'm fine during the work week, even in the car, but weekends are something else. Had one on Friday after school, and two thus far today. It is a mental thing (habitual), as the actual desire is not there. I really do not understand it.
Weight up to 220. Bad, bad, bad.
Received another 25G from Aunt Jean; 75 thus far. Figuring out what to do with it- bills, David, invest, savings. I need to get a letter out to her.
The house on the corner is still for sale, 109G. I think David is beginning to understand that he will not get what he owes on this house. He'll have to take a major loss if we move.
Spring is in full swing, with the daffodils fading and the tulips blooming. One of the Tidal Basin Cherries sprouted a few blooms; still nothing from the Magnolias and the Kennedy Crab. Lots of work to do outside. I love the season, but hate it at the same time.
In general, back to the a slight "regret" stage- all of the things that are not done; those things not taken care of. I need to just do it, get the stuff done.
Busy weekend, once again.
11.4.10
Unsettled
Seems to be an on-again off-again thing.
Quit smoking, now 11 days, but mood lead me to sneak a couple (one yesterday and one today) from an old pack of Moods in the basement. Patch is doing it's job, for the most part- it is the mental issue that is getting to me.
Week at work OK, although laziness abounds. Packets not finished from over Break and students not using text for take-home quizzes. Early grades for the quarter are in the toilet for many, but will improve over time. Spanish 1 test tomorrow; Spanish II continues with 3.2, with test next week.
I believe I am going to stop new lessons earlier than planned. Martha suggested that Span II stop after unit 4, as the preterit vs. imperfect is confusing. So, we will stop there. When that ends, I will also stop in Span I, so maybe through 7.1. We need time to review, a week would be nice.
Two signed up for Spain- Cassidy and Ally- yesterday; Last minute Lucies. I had hoped for a few more, but I can not complain. It is a secret trip, I can not promote in class.
David is nervous that I will get fired. And I guess I could, but I am not that worried. I should probably talk to Crawford just-in-case.
Busy weekend, getting half the work done that I needed to yesterday. Need to run errands, clean, and iron. Plus, the lawn needs a mow, branched down from the storm last week, and weeds, weeds, weeds.
We shall see.
Quit smoking, now 11 days, but mood lead me to sneak a couple (one yesterday and one today) from an old pack of Moods in the basement. Patch is doing it's job, for the most part- it is the mental issue that is getting to me.
Week at work OK, although laziness abounds. Packets not finished from over Break and students not using text for take-home quizzes. Early grades for the quarter are in the toilet for many, but will improve over time. Spanish 1 test tomorrow; Spanish II continues with 3.2, with test next week.
I believe I am going to stop new lessons earlier than planned. Martha suggested that Span II stop after unit 4, as the preterit vs. imperfect is confusing. So, we will stop there. When that ends, I will also stop in Span I, so maybe through 7.1. We need time to review, a week would be nice.
Two signed up for Spain- Cassidy and Ally- yesterday; Last minute Lucies. I had hoped for a few more, but I can not complain. It is a secret trip, I can not promote in class.
David is nervous that I will get fired. And I guess I could, but I am not that worried. I should probably talk to Crawford just-in-case.
Busy weekend, getting half the work done that I needed to yesterday. Need to run errands, clean, and iron. Plus, the lawn needs a mow, branched down from the storm last week, and weeds, weeds, weeds.
We shall see.
5.4.10
E Monday
Aunt Jean sent another check.... 25G again. How does she have all of this money? I have not received it yet; Mom is sending. Exciting and always grateful.
A bit moody; unsettled.
Up for about 1 1/2 hours, not showered- so not wearing the patch.
Habitual urges, but OK. I'll jump in the shower soon.
Classes resume tomorrow.
Ready/ not ready/ I'm as ready as I am going to be.
A bit moody; unsettled.
Up for about 1 1/2 hours, not showered- so not wearing the patch.
Habitual urges, but OK. I'll jump in the shower soon.
Classes resume tomorrow.
Ready/ not ready/ I'm as ready as I am going to be.
4.4.10
Easter
Still not smoking; four days now. Good and bad. Still have an urge, but mentally I know the patch is sustaining the nicotine- so it is about breaking the habit. Driving to Freeport yesterday was a bit of a test. Seemed to take longer than normal, but I survived. Every few hours I feel the need, but again, it is habitual need to do the activity.Originally, I figured I could do it in six weeks, now I am thinking maybe eight. I think the program is 10. According to the Nicoderm site, if my quit day was 31 March, step 2 begins 12 May, then 3 02 June. I think I can do it quicker than that.
Spring brings the desire to change. This time is a bit painful, not quite sure why, perhaps because 40 is also looming in the background. A lot of scrutiny for this one. Not so much anger, but there is self-inflicted malevolence, if not ignorance of the true state of affairs.
Change, at least the root of it for me, is changing cycles- habitual cycles. Trying to understand the whys and results of the cycle is some place I've been before countless times. I just have to do it; Break the cycle by starting another. Too much too soon gets me nowhere, or I quit it quick. I am just not sure, not confident. I know what I need to do, it just comes down to doing it. Frustrating. Its like seeing the finish line, but walking off the track without passing through. Interesting; Self-defeating, punishing, non-deserving attitude.
I did not forget it was Easter, but did forget about Semana Santa. Missed the live feed from Seville.Holidays are such a pain, at least that is what they have become, so it is easier to ignore or forget them.
Nothing on the agenda, nothing with a "holiday feel." How did I get like this? I used to enjoy the holidays.
Otherwise, break is just about over. Classes resume on Tuesday. Quick end-of-year, just six weeks or so. It will be busy and fly by.
3.4.10
End of Spring Break
Weekend arrived; Saturday.
Working in yard past 3 days. Busy.
Also quit smoking (patch); Today is day 4.
Things to do, but not so much into doing them.
Working in yard past 3 days. Busy.
Also quit smoking (patch); Today is day 4.
Things to do, but not so much into doing them.
27.3.10
Vegas
Adam & Martina's wedding was very cool.
It was very them; more of a party than a formal event.
I was fine until Dad started crying.
Mom and Jennifer got along just fine.
Had a very nice time, although a bit of a rush.
Of course, spent too much money, a bit drunk as well.
Travel was a bitch; needed more time.
Again, all rush-rush.
Returned to Rockford just before 1AM on Friday, then work at 7.
A bit of an ear infection. I knew it on the return flight.
If it does not clear over the weekend, I will go to doctor.
Now on Spring Break.
Somewhat unfocused; cannot get mind on-task.
Getting lists together.
Not sure what to start with, but will be busy.
It was very them; more of a party than a formal event.
I was fine until Dad started crying.
Mom and Jennifer got along just fine.
Had a very nice time, although a bit of a rush.
Of course, spent too much money, a bit drunk as well.
Travel was a bitch; needed more time.
Again, all rush-rush.
Returned to Rockford just before 1AM on Friday, then work at 7.
A bit of an ear infection. I knew it on the return flight.
If it does not clear over the weekend, I will go to doctor.
Now on Spring Break.
Somewhat unfocused; cannot get mind on-task.
Getting lists together.
Not sure what to start with, but will be busy.
21.3.10
Yesterday
Spent all day online filling out applications for teaching positions.
So many districts do not list on ISBE, probably not until it is crunch time, so I used the top 100 schools for 2009 (Chi. SunTimes) as my guide.
Who knows, really.
These are top schools.
Would I rather be a big fish in a small pond or a small fish in a big pond?
Not that I should be having this inner-debate; Nothing has come of it.
Earlier applications resulted in one rejection- Rochelle; No word from the rest.
Do I stay or do I go?
It will depend on what opportunities present themselves.
So many districts do not list on ISBE, probably not until it is crunch time, so I used the top 100 schools for 2009 (Chi. SunTimes) as my guide.
Who knows, really.
These are top schools.
Would I rather be a big fish in a small pond or a small fish in a big pond?
Not that I should be having this inner-debate; Nothing has come of it.
Earlier applications resulted in one rejection- Rochelle; No word from the rest.
Do I stay or do I go?
It will depend on what opportunities present themselves.
20.3.10
Late Winter Snow
March 20- snowing; maybe a couple of inches. Hopefully, the early Spring bulbs will be OK.
Third quarter exams next week. I will not be around (Adam's wedding), but I've pretty much spent this week reviewing material. Spanish 2 students definitely needed it, which puts us behind, once again, comparative to the HS classes. Whereas my Spanish 1 is ahead. I will be working Monday and Friday- so I will start the exams, then students have multiple-choice on the formal for two class periods, then I will grade on Friday. Friday, in all classes, is fiesta (late return, so I may not be up to par).
We leave for Vegas on Tuesday, arrive late afternoon. Rehearsal dinner later, wedding Wednesday (Who gets married on a Wednesday?), and depart Thursday mid-afternoon. I have not seen Dad in three/ four years, so it will be nice to see him. A bit hesitant about David; He has not traveled in years and has already made statements of concern. We shall see.
Then, Spring Break. David and I talked about going to Monroe to see Grandma. Again, it has been three/four years. Perhaps for a couple of days.
After break, only six weeks of teaching, then a week or so of 'fluff.' Teachers are scheduled to finish on the 25th or 26th (institute day). After that, I am off to Paris for a "weekend" with EF for a group leader conference. David is a bit jealous, but EF did not offer any companion plan- I asked. I am excited to go to the Louvre, and will have my list of works to see.
Costa Rica in June. Had 90-day meeting, discussing clothing and packing. I will not have 45-day, but will do 30 and then maybe meet again just before leaving. A little nervous about this one; one student has an obvious cognitive issue (but sister is going) and then Danny, who will probably argue, miss instructions and be a smart ass.
Spain 2011 is official, but not official with the school. I worked it with ACIS; Martina is the "leader." I'm not being as careful as I should be, and I need to be. A few students thus far, first sign up window ends 10 April- 5 for free trip. Not sure what will happen after that. If only 4, I will pay for David to go to get 5.
Otherwise, no news on the job front: nothing from Mr. Swords nor other schools. Slim pickings really, and now with the major layoffs due to lack of state funds (late with payments), it will be even more slim. I am still looking. We shall see.
Third quarter exams next week. I will not be around (Adam's wedding), but I've pretty much spent this week reviewing material. Spanish 2 students definitely needed it, which puts us behind, once again, comparative to the HS classes. Whereas my Spanish 1 is ahead. I will be working Monday and Friday- so I will start the exams, then students have multiple-choice on the formal for two class periods, then I will grade on Friday. Friday, in all classes, is fiesta (late return, so I may not be up to par).
We leave for Vegas on Tuesday, arrive late afternoon. Rehearsal dinner later, wedding Wednesday (Who gets married on a Wednesday?), and depart Thursday mid-afternoon. I have not seen Dad in three/ four years, so it will be nice to see him. A bit hesitant about David; He has not traveled in years and has already made statements of concern. We shall see.
Then, Spring Break. David and I talked about going to Monroe to see Grandma. Again, it has been three/four years. Perhaps for a couple of days.
After break, only six weeks of teaching, then a week or so of 'fluff.' Teachers are scheduled to finish on the 25th or 26th (institute day). After that, I am off to Paris for a "weekend" with EF for a group leader conference. David is a bit jealous, but EF did not offer any companion plan- I asked. I am excited to go to the Louvre, and will have my list of works to see.
Costa Rica in June. Had 90-day meeting, discussing clothing and packing. I will not have 45-day, but will do 30 and then maybe meet again just before leaving. A little nervous about this one; one student has an obvious cognitive issue (but sister is going) and then Danny, who will probably argue, miss instructions and be a smart ass.
Spain 2011 is official, but not official with the school. I worked it with ACIS; Martina is the "leader." I'm not being as careful as I should be, and I need to be. A few students thus far, first sign up window ends 10 April- 5 for free trip. Not sure what will happen after that. If only 4, I will pay for David to go to get 5.
Otherwise, no news on the job front: nothing from Mr. Swords nor other schools. Slim pickings really, and now with the major layoffs due to lack of state funds (late with payments), it will be even more slim. I am still looking. We shall see.
28.2.10
Ides of March
Julius Caesar was killed on the 15th of March; In Shakespeare's play Caesar is warned to beware of the "ides of March."
Such a transitional time- the ravages of winter with pockets of life poking through.
My mood is very mixed- mainly about work.
Sending out resumes and filling out online applications for next year. I have not been asked to return to FSD, at least not yet. Perhaps they assume that a meeting is not necessary (that I am coming back) or just waiting until the 15th- the day that all invites, I believe, have to be stated. I am not tenure, so I just have to wait.
Will I return?
This year has been filled with drama, admitting that some of it is on my own accord, and I have reached a limit; I feel the limit, perhaps crossed over. I am not going to write the laundry list, although it circles around in my mind, but there is quite a bit. Among other things:
I would really like to get back to the 'burbs, which means changes beyond just the job; I do not see a change in the future of the plateau that David and I are on. If either of us were strong enough or had some sort of back-bone, it would have been over long ago. I feel that we are together because we have been together- the "married couple syndrome" of boredom, teetering stablilty, and status quo. It is comfortable enough to tolerate. David mentioned years ago how our relationship is "platonic" (in one of our heated moments)- which it is: purely spiritual; free from sensual desire. Is that really they type of relationship I want to be in for the rest of my life?
I guess I could return to school for a year- finish my MAT. But that would be a year without a pay check and insurance.
Tired, I guess. Perhaps it is the idea of 40 looming around.
Otherwise....
Went to Madrid with ACIS. Nice to get away for an extended weekend. Informative, but not so much of a sales pitch- it was just to demonstrate what ACIS offers to travelers. Although I was just there in June, seeing most of what we toured, I enjoyed it.
Adam's wedding towards the end of the month- another mini-vacation.
Grandma had a pacemaker put in while I was in Madrid- perhaps, we'll go down during Spring Break.
Paris via EF in May; Costa Rica mid-June.
Such a transitional time- the ravages of winter with pockets of life poking through.
My mood is very mixed- mainly about work.
Sending out resumes and filling out online applications for next year. I have not been asked to return to FSD, at least not yet. Perhaps they assume that a meeting is not necessary (that I am coming back) or just waiting until the 15th- the day that all invites, I believe, have to be stated. I am not tenure, so I just have to wait.
Will I return?
This year has been filled with drama, admitting that some of it is on my own accord, and I have reached a limit; I feel the limit, perhaps crossed over. I am not going to write the laundry list, although it circles around in my mind, but there is quite a bit. Among other things:
- When asked a colleague of my negative qualities, "unprofessional" was an adjective used in regard to dealing with HS administration over student issues. (Yet, Kathy wrote a glowing reference.)
- My respect for the Chair and department colleagues is at an all-time low. Martha's inability to lead; Lisa's questionable moral judgment.
- The 'gay thing' has been a serious thorn this year.
- Student behavioral issues- with the same students over and over, and I believe those in charge are not following the protocol.
I would really like to get back to the 'burbs, which means changes beyond just the job; I do not see a change in the future of the plateau that David and I are on. If either of us were strong enough or had some sort of back-bone, it would have been over long ago. I feel that we are together because we have been together- the "married couple syndrome" of boredom, teetering stablilty, and status quo. It is comfortable enough to tolerate. David mentioned years ago how our relationship is "platonic" (in one of our heated moments)- which it is: purely spiritual; free from sensual desire. Is that really they type of relationship I want to be in for the rest of my life?
I guess I could return to school for a year- finish my MAT. But that would be a year without a pay check and insurance.
Tired, I guess. Perhaps it is the idea of 40 looming around.
Otherwise....
Went to Madrid with ACIS. Nice to get away for an extended weekend. Informative, but not so much of a sales pitch- it was just to demonstrate what ACIS offers to travelers. Although I was just there in June, seeing most of what we toured, I enjoyed it.
Adam's wedding towards the end of the month- another mini-vacation.
Grandma had a pacemaker put in while I was in Madrid- perhaps, we'll go down during Spring Break.
Paris via EF in May; Costa Rica mid-June.
23.1.10
Desire to change; transform.Still the same state, but something changed. Not sure what, but I feel that damage will be inevitable.
How can one be tired and energized at the same time?
I believe that there is some spark inside me that ignited. Not sure what. Perhaps because 40 is looming.
All of the realms included in this round. How much will get done? Not sure. Will fear eventually curb this mood? Probably.
Work is work.
Reflecting on the semester (which I still need to write), I have become somewhat of a rogue- defiant due to feeling unsettled and unsure. Drama continues, which I believe has created a rift into a new direction.
We shall see.
9.1.10
January
Not much time for post-holiday blues, although I feel it in the peripheral. Too busy, really, to think about it. Not that things are getting done, rather my mind just churns and churns.
Not much on the resolutions front this year. Tired of being confronted with not-achieved expectations. Perhaps, my resolution for the new year was not to make any. Not that my usual end-of-year malcontent, if not continual, unsettled emotional state was not present; my mind was leaning towards making a list. I just nipped it quick, perhaps resolving to tolerate the status quo for just a little longer.
Christmas at Adam and Martina's apartment.
A bit sad after Candi, but was OK. Another year of unfulfilled expectations- things I don't want/ need.
I was quite impressed with their art collection, mainly Dia de los muertos.
Quiet birthday.
Went to Deluxe Tattoo to talk to Hannah about sleve (Blake's Whirlwind). She seems fine, but a bit rude perhaps. I will have to see what she comes up with. I have not heard back from her about March appointment.
Back at school this week.
Most students as expected over break: not where they needed to be; not completed the work assigned. But, alas, they will feel it with the formal exams next week. Not much I can do about that.
After a couple of weeks of arguments over the 2011 trip, I submitted my proposal for Spain. The original idea was to do Spain, France, and Germany, but, in my opinion, the trips proposed lacked cultural relevance and little time for students to use their language skills. Support from Hartford and Mikkelsen. We shall see if Thake approves it.
Notorious drama between Johnson and Thanke over at the HS due to affair. Rumors swirling. After talking to Crawford (FEA), I went to Central Office to ask if I was going over to HS (as rumored), and was told "no," it had not even been considered.
Mom in Montreal for Aunt Jean's 100th birthday.
With the 50G I received: paid off Visa; 10G in CDs; 4G to David; 16G in investments; 10G in savings (earmarked for home improvement or down payment for new); paid Christmas; a bit left in savings.
ACIS teacher conference in Madrid February 11-15 (free). Asked David if he wanted to go, but he had already agreed to pick up Martha from O'Hare on the 15th. Originally, I was on the waiting list, but now, as I see the check for a single room went through, I must be on the "go" list. David seems a bit miffed, but he was invited. Two days requested- the other three are President's Day weekend.
Adam and Martina's wedding March 24th, a Wednesday (bizarre). It is the week before spring break, so I only requested three days (Tue-Thr). I will have to take the days without pay, I assume. I am standing.
Otherwise, I just need to figure things out for 2010.
The need to change is stagnant in the air. Either I am going to move it or suffer the toxins.
Not much on the resolutions front this year. Tired of being confronted with not-achieved expectations. Perhaps, my resolution for the new year was not to make any. Not that my usual end-of-year malcontent, if not continual, unsettled emotional state was not present; my mind was leaning towards making a list. I just nipped it quick, perhaps resolving to tolerate the status quo for just a little longer.
Christmas at Adam and Martina's apartment.
A bit sad after Candi, but was OK. Another year of unfulfilled expectations- things I don't want/ need.
I was quite impressed with their art collection, mainly Dia de los muertos.
Quiet birthday.
Went to Deluxe Tattoo to talk to Hannah about sleve (Blake's Whirlwind). She seems fine, but a bit rude perhaps. I will have to see what she comes up with. I have not heard back from her about March appointment.
Back at school this week.
Most students as expected over break: not where they needed to be; not completed the work assigned. But, alas, they will feel it with the formal exams next week. Not much I can do about that.
After a couple of weeks of arguments over the 2011 trip, I submitted my proposal for Spain. The original idea was to do Spain, France, and Germany, but, in my opinion, the trips proposed lacked cultural relevance and little time for students to use their language skills. Support from Hartford and Mikkelsen. We shall see if Thake approves it.
Notorious drama between Johnson and Thanke over at the HS due to affair. Rumors swirling. After talking to Crawford (FEA), I went to Central Office to ask if I was going over to HS (as rumored), and was told "no," it had not even been considered.
Mom in Montreal for Aunt Jean's 100th birthday.
With the 50G I received: paid off Visa; 10G in CDs; 4G to David; 16G in investments; 10G in savings (earmarked for home improvement or down payment for new); paid Christmas; a bit left in savings.
ACIS teacher conference in Madrid February 11-15 (free). Asked David if he wanted to go, but he had already agreed to pick up Martha from O'Hare on the 15th. Originally, I was on the waiting list, but now, as I see the check for a single room went through, I must be on the "go" list. David seems a bit miffed, but he was invited. Two days requested- the other three are President's Day weekend.
Adam and Martina's wedding March 24th, a Wednesday (bizarre). It is the week before spring break, so I only requested three days (Tue-Thr). I will have to take the days without pay, I assume. I am standing.
Otherwise, I just need to figure things out for 2010.
The need to change is stagnant in the air. Either I am going to move it or suffer the toxins.
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