Time:
Got the house clean, most of my shopping list done, and FLIC skate (7-10) yesterday. Today, procrastination, but did go to gym. Need to finish list, run errands, etc., and it is nearly noon.
Money:
Very grateful for Aunt Jean; opened another CD (5G), 5G in savings (15 total now) not including my ING account, and 10G to Fidelity (not sure where to put it though). Paid Visa (Vegas) and gave David $3500 specific for the house- still no idea what he is going to do with it. Ordered euros and colones for summer trips.
I have about 4G of "play money".... See grandmother this summer, maybe a trip to Montreal?
25.4.10
24.4.10
Rain
Rain expected all weekend- thank goodness for that. Not only do we need a good-slow soak, but also I have so many things to do inside. I don't think I've cleaned this house in a couple weeks- Three maybe?
I stayed late yesterday to finish up lessons for the week- so no work either this weekend. All finished, even copies, then thought of something else on my way home, but will have to wait until Monday.
The week was mixed. With only a month left, nerves are frayed, in anticipation of summer- I am also affected. Smoking/ not smoking also in the mix (I just need to quit!), as are unprepared students and their excuses. Spanish 1 basically finished this Monday with the unit 6 exam. I've decided to continue with the book, quickly and only to continue the preterit, and then review and formal exams- I am going to do an all-in-one. Spanish 2 still chugging along at a slow pace, but we should finish material at the end of first week in May, with quarter exams the following week, and final exam the week after.
My room may be moved next year, not something I am happy about. I will have to wait and see. No mention of final day for 8th grade grades. I am hoping the 18th, as that is what I have planned for.
Department meeting Friday- so filled with disassociation, mistrust, and back-stabbing. After the formal meeting, with no mention of my trip nor the "official one," Martha told me that Lisa was probably going to quit the year after next and that I was probably going to have three sections of HS Spanish (Spanish 2, most likely) due to Cheryl's retirement. Cheryl will probably be back part-time next year, as will Kathy. I did not ask about Spanish 3, as she seemed frazzled, nor did I tell her about my trip. It did cross my mind, but then she called Cheryl a racist (a reason why AA students do not do well in her class), so I decided against it- a trust and professionalism issue.
Otherwise...
Feel like I am just trying to keep things together, on some sort of level plane. Not sure if something is brewing or not.
I stayed late yesterday to finish up lessons for the week- so no work either this weekend. All finished, even copies, then thought of something else on my way home, but will have to wait until Monday.
The week was mixed. With only a month left, nerves are frayed, in anticipation of summer- I am also affected. Smoking/ not smoking also in the mix (I just need to quit!), as are unprepared students and their excuses. Spanish 1 basically finished this Monday with the unit 6 exam. I've decided to continue with the book, quickly and only to continue the preterit, and then review and formal exams- I am going to do an all-in-one. Spanish 2 still chugging along at a slow pace, but we should finish material at the end of first week in May, with quarter exams the following week, and final exam the week after.
My room may be moved next year, not something I am happy about. I will have to wait and see. No mention of final day for 8th grade grades. I am hoping the 18th, as that is what I have planned for.
Department meeting Friday- so filled with disassociation, mistrust, and back-stabbing. After the formal meeting, with no mention of my trip nor the "official one," Martha told me that Lisa was probably going to quit the year after next and that I was probably going to have three sections of HS Spanish (Spanish 2, most likely) due to Cheryl's retirement. Cheryl will probably be back part-time next year, as will Kathy. I did not ask about Spanish 3, as she seemed frazzled, nor did I tell her about my trip. It did cross my mind, but then she called Cheryl a racist (a reason why AA students do not do well in her class), so I decided against it- a trust and professionalism issue.
Otherwise...
Feel like I am just trying to keep things together, on some sort of level plane. Not sure if something is brewing or not.
17.4.10
Continue
Up-beat, but still somewhat unsettled week.
8th graders bombed the test, so had a day of corrections and extra credit to regain some points. I was very surprised that they did so bad, quite disappointed. Some jumped back up, others did not.
Spanish II has a test on Monday- we shall see it is going to be the same.
I've decided to finish teaching new material through the first week of May- so what we get through, we get through. I have to have time to review. Planning is going to be a bit of a struggle, trying to finish whatever lesson at hand, but we have to have time for review.
Cheryl came to see me on Friday- just to let me know that she spoke with administrators about her last-minute retirement announcement. I guess she ripped into them and the Department. She told Messmore that he should assign me upper-level classes; my students are able to communicate in Spanish above the students from other teachers. Friday is a SIP day, so it should be an interesting meeting.
Brian and his father signed up for Spain. That is four, so I believe my trip is free. I would like a few more. I hope to get a meeting organized soon- off-site, of course. I spoke with Nick and Crawford (FEA) about the trip- so they know. As long as I follow the rules, I should be fine.
Not smoking has produced an anxiety issue. I'm fine during the work week, even in the car, but weekends are something else. Had one on Friday after school, and two thus far today. It is a mental thing (habitual), as the actual desire is not there. I really do not understand it.
Weight up to 220. Bad, bad, bad.
Received another 25G from Aunt Jean; 75 thus far. Figuring out what to do with it- bills, David, invest, savings. I need to get a letter out to her.
The house on the corner is still for sale, 109G. I think David is beginning to understand that he will not get what he owes on this house. He'll have to take a major loss if we move.
Spring is in full swing, with the daffodils fading and the tulips blooming. One of the Tidal Basin Cherries sprouted a few blooms; still nothing from the Magnolias and the Kennedy Crab. Lots of work to do outside. I love the season, but hate it at the same time.
In general, back to the a slight "regret" stage- all of the things that are not done; those things not taken care of. I need to just do it, get the stuff done.
Busy weekend, once again.
8th graders bombed the test, so had a day of corrections and extra credit to regain some points. I was very surprised that they did so bad, quite disappointed. Some jumped back up, others did not.
Spanish II has a test on Monday- we shall see it is going to be the same.
I've decided to finish teaching new material through the first week of May- so what we get through, we get through. I have to have time to review. Planning is going to be a bit of a struggle, trying to finish whatever lesson at hand, but we have to have time for review.
Cheryl came to see me on Friday- just to let me know that she spoke with administrators about her last-minute retirement announcement. I guess she ripped into them and the Department. She told Messmore that he should assign me upper-level classes; my students are able to communicate in Spanish above the students from other teachers. Friday is a SIP day, so it should be an interesting meeting.
Brian and his father signed up for Spain. That is four, so I believe my trip is free. I would like a few more. I hope to get a meeting organized soon- off-site, of course. I spoke with Nick and Crawford (FEA) about the trip- so they know. As long as I follow the rules, I should be fine.
Not smoking has produced an anxiety issue. I'm fine during the work week, even in the car, but weekends are something else. Had one on Friday after school, and two thus far today. It is a mental thing (habitual), as the actual desire is not there. I really do not understand it.
Weight up to 220. Bad, bad, bad.
Received another 25G from Aunt Jean; 75 thus far. Figuring out what to do with it- bills, David, invest, savings. I need to get a letter out to her.
The house on the corner is still for sale, 109G. I think David is beginning to understand that he will not get what he owes on this house. He'll have to take a major loss if we move.
Spring is in full swing, with the daffodils fading and the tulips blooming. One of the Tidal Basin Cherries sprouted a few blooms; still nothing from the Magnolias and the Kennedy Crab. Lots of work to do outside. I love the season, but hate it at the same time.
In general, back to the a slight "regret" stage- all of the things that are not done; those things not taken care of. I need to just do it, get the stuff done.
Busy weekend, once again.
11.4.10
Unsettled
Seems to be an on-again off-again thing.
Quit smoking, now 11 days, but mood lead me to sneak a couple (one yesterday and one today) from an old pack of Moods in the basement. Patch is doing it's job, for the most part- it is the mental issue that is getting to me.
Week at work OK, although laziness abounds. Packets not finished from over Break and students not using text for take-home quizzes. Early grades for the quarter are in the toilet for many, but will improve over time. Spanish 1 test tomorrow; Spanish II continues with 3.2, with test next week.
I believe I am going to stop new lessons earlier than planned. Martha suggested that Span II stop after unit 4, as the preterit vs. imperfect is confusing. So, we will stop there. When that ends, I will also stop in Span I, so maybe through 7.1. We need time to review, a week would be nice.
Two signed up for Spain- Cassidy and Ally- yesterday; Last minute Lucies. I had hoped for a few more, but I can not complain. It is a secret trip, I can not promote in class.
David is nervous that I will get fired. And I guess I could, but I am not that worried. I should probably talk to Crawford just-in-case.
Busy weekend, getting half the work done that I needed to yesterday. Need to run errands, clean, and iron. Plus, the lawn needs a mow, branched down from the storm last week, and weeds, weeds, weeds.
We shall see.
Quit smoking, now 11 days, but mood lead me to sneak a couple (one yesterday and one today) from an old pack of Moods in the basement. Patch is doing it's job, for the most part- it is the mental issue that is getting to me.
Week at work OK, although laziness abounds. Packets not finished from over Break and students not using text for take-home quizzes. Early grades for the quarter are in the toilet for many, but will improve over time. Spanish 1 test tomorrow; Spanish II continues with 3.2, with test next week.
I believe I am going to stop new lessons earlier than planned. Martha suggested that Span II stop after unit 4, as the preterit vs. imperfect is confusing. So, we will stop there. When that ends, I will also stop in Span I, so maybe through 7.1. We need time to review, a week would be nice.
Two signed up for Spain- Cassidy and Ally- yesterday; Last minute Lucies. I had hoped for a few more, but I can not complain. It is a secret trip, I can not promote in class.
David is nervous that I will get fired. And I guess I could, but I am not that worried. I should probably talk to Crawford just-in-case.
Busy weekend, getting half the work done that I needed to yesterday. Need to run errands, clean, and iron. Plus, the lawn needs a mow, branched down from the storm last week, and weeds, weeds, weeds.
We shall see.
5.4.10
E Monday
Aunt Jean sent another check.... 25G again. How does she have all of this money? I have not received it yet; Mom is sending. Exciting and always grateful.
A bit moody; unsettled.
Up for about 1 1/2 hours, not showered- so not wearing the patch.
Habitual urges, but OK. I'll jump in the shower soon.
Classes resume tomorrow.
Ready/ not ready/ I'm as ready as I am going to be.
A bit moody; unsettled.
Up for about 1 1/2 hours, not showered- so not wearing the patch.
Habitual urges, but OK. I'll jump in the shower soon.
Classes resume tomorrow.
Ready/ not ready/ I'm as ready as I am going to be.
4.4.10
Easter
Still not smoking; four days now. Good and bad. Still have an urge, but mentally I know the patch is sustaining the nicotine- so it is about breaking the habit. Driving to Freeport yesterday was a bit of a test. Seemed to take longer than normal, but I survived. Every few hours I feel the need, but again, it is habitual need to do the activity.Originally, I figured I could do it in six weeks, now I am thinking maybe eight. I think the program is 10. According to the Nicoderm site, if my quit day was 31 March, step 2 begins 12 May, then 3 02 June. I think I can do it quicker than that.
Spring brings the desire to change. This time is a bit painful, not quite sure why, perhaps because 40 is also looming in the background. A lot of scrutiny for this one. Not so much anger, but there is self-inflicted malevolence, if not ignorance of the true state of affairs.
Change, at least the root of it for me, is changing cycles- habitual cycles. Trying to understand the whys and results of the cycle is some place I've been before countless times. I just have to do it; Break the cycle by starting another. Too much too soon gets me nowhere, or I quit it quick. I am just not sure, not confident. I know what I need to do, it just comes down to doing it. Frustrating. Its like seeing the finish line, but walking off the track without passing through. Interesting; Self-defeating, punishing, non-deserving attitude.
I did not forget it was Easter, but did forget about Semana Santa. Missed the live feed from Seville.Holidays are such a pain, at least that is what they have become, so it is easier to ignore or forget them.
Nothing on the agenda, nothing with a "holiday feel." How did I get like this? I used to enjoy the holidays.
Otherwise, break is just about over. Classes resume on Tuesday. Quick end-of-year, just six weeks or so. It will be busy and fly by.
3.4.10
End of Spring Break
Weekend arrived; Saturday.
Working in yard past 3 days. Busy.
Also quit smoking (patch); Today is day 4.
Things to do, but not so much into doing them.
Working in yard past 3 days. Busy.
Also quit smoking (patch); Today is day 4.
Things to do, but not so much into doing them.
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