School called off today due to impending Blizzard. Preemptive meeting yesterday after school, since today is first day of finals. Over in Monroe, 10 miles north of Orangeville, 12-18" of snow in forecast. Pretty much all schools in Stephenson County closed, although Freeport opened, with early release. Thankful I will not have to deal with any mess driving home.
Right now, only rain in Rockford. Snow probably won't hit until later this afternoon. I am anticipating school tomorrow- need to go, as all of my materials are there. Would suck to return without a plan, although the first day back is for finals.
Walked Trey over to school this morning w/ David. Went over to Walmart to finish up Xmas shopping for him- so I think we're done with him. Still have a couple of other people to shop for. No idea what to get for David.
Monthly meeting with our caseworker last night. Proceedings for termination will be quicker than expected. Informational session on the 4th, with pre-trial hearing on Feb 8. We'll have to decided if we want to adopt him before then. I wouldn't see why not. Everything is going well, considering he's only been here a few weeks and he is a 5 year old boy. Ups and Downs, but nothing major. David is definitely tired, and he has stated as such. Worrisome.
Otherwise, OK. A bit tired myself. And learning that kids are expensive.
Will be looking for another job, updating my resume over break. I am hoping a couple of contacts will pan out.
Joined the Y (for Trey); switched him to the Boys and Girls Club for after school care, starting the 7th.
Christmas day plans filled to the brim.
20.12.12
11.12.12
December
Took today off..... so much to do. Way behind in work for my class, and honestly, somewhat over OHS. Needed a break.
Trey (Terrence) is doing well. No major issues, and easy comparative to Tim and Jes. Still, he is a 5 year old boy, so there are things that just go with that. We adjusting well, although David is a bit sick right now (major cold) and I am having trouble getting my work completed. We're still working on routines and having him able to do things on his own- particularly entertaining himself when David and I are busy with other things.
Christmas tree is up, and a visit to Santa at Woodfield with Mom over the weekend. We have Fred's old fake tree, which actually looks OK, all blue and silver. We have not done any shopping yet for him, and need to figure out when we can get it done. School winter concert last week. Cute that he believes in Santa.
Schudel told me that he will not be returning to OHS next year, which may put my internship in jeopardy. I feel like I'm creeping towards the door anyway; just not a good fit. First, the distance in combination with the hours- putting me home around 5 and not wanting to do much work, and with Trey, it is nearly impossible. Second, my educational philosophy is very different than the status quo there. My mind-track is college prep, where that is not the norm. Third, I miss the collaboration. Definitely does not exist.
So I'll be busy with resumes packets over winter break. Stopped over at FMS yesterday to return some things and definitely miss it. Think the bridge is burned, but maybe not. They have a Spanish teacher now. We'll have to see. I think I want to be closer to home though.
Otherwise,tired and behind with TTDs, but otherwise OK.
Work to do.
Trey (Terrence) is doing well. No major issues, and easy comparative to Tim and Jes. Still, he is a 5 year old boy, so there are things that just go with that. We adjusting well, although David is a bit sick right now (major cold) and I am having trouble getting my work completed. We're still working on routines and having him able to do things on his own- particularly entertaining himself when David and I are busy with other things.
Christmas tree is up, and a visit to Santa at Woodfield with Mom over the weekend. We have Fred's old fake tree, which actually looks OK, all blue and silver. We have not done any shopping yet for him, and need to figure out when we can get it done. School winter concert last week. Cute that he believes in Santa.
Schudel told me that he will not be returning to OHS next year, which may put my internship in jeopardy. I feel like I'm creeping towards the door anyway; just not a good fit. First, the distance in combination with the hours- putting me home around 5 and not wanting to do much work, and with Trey, it is nearly impossible. Second, my educational philosophy is very different than the status quo there. My mind-track is college prep, where that is not the norm. Third, I miss the collaboration. Definitely does not exist.
So I'll be busy with resumes packets over winter break. Stopped over at FMS yesterday to return some things and definitely miss it. Think the bridge is burned, but maybe not. They have a Spanish teacher now. We'll have to see. I think I want to be closer to home though.
Otherwise,tired and behind with TTDs, but otherwise OK.
Work to do.
22.11.12
Thanksgiving
Busy, but not anything "traditional" break.
Mom coming over today, maybe Denise as well. Regular dinner tonight; Nothing special.
Mom and David driving to Florida tonight to Mom's condo. Furniture being delivered on Saturday. So they'll be up there tomorrow through Sunday. Was not comfortable with her driving down by herself (with the dogs), and she was getting nervous-sick, so David going with her. She's going back next Thursday with some of her friends..... Now why this could be be coordinated better, who knows.
Denise and Jim are heading towards splits-ville..... Long time coming, I guess.
We are getting a placement tomorrow; Terence, 5 years old. Current foster family moved out of state and did not do whatever paperwork was needed, which could mean that they were planning on stopping anyway. David is going to be gone, so I have to really step-up for the next few days. Nervous.
Was granted Monday off (originally to go to Flordia), but will be dealing with school stuff for Terence.
I thanked David for going with all of this- a lot of changes lately. He has really never denied me anything, even when he was not 100%. Very thankful for this.
Other stuff:
Mr. Schudel informed me on Monday that he will be leaving at the end of the year, which will probably screw up my practicum for next year. He referenced a comment that I had made (Freeport), where distractions prohibit me from doing a good job. Glad he told me now. Need to inform Dr. De and start the job search during winter break.
Chance and Oak are doing fine. Very different personalities, but getting along. Chance is spraying a bit, especially after a bit of positioning-play. Frustrating, but expected.
Way behind on work (grading) and feeling the same in regards to school work. Have a lot to do on both areas.
Going to be 60's today, so waiting for the grass to dry to do one last mow of the season. Tomorrow, temperatures to plummet and hold.
Will be cleaning the house once David leaves. Hopefully, it will not be too late. Terence to be here around 9:30 tomorrow morning.
With so much going on, and so much uncertainty, I am feeling a bit sick to my stomach. Circus dream on Sunday (chaos). A couple of moments of near-tears yesterday. Not a good sign.
Things to do; things to do.
Mom coming over today, maybe Denise as well. Regular dinner tonight; Nothing special.
Mom and David driving to Florida tonight to Mom's condo. Furniture being delivered on Saturday. So they'll be up there tomorrow through Sunday. Was not comfortable with her driving down by herself (with the dogs), and she was getting nervous-sick, so David going with her. She's going back next Thursday with some of her friends..... Now why this could be be coordinated better, who knows.
Denise and Jim are heading towards splits-ville..... Long time coming, I guess.
We are getting a placement tomorrow; Terence, 5 years old. Current foster family moved out of state and did not do whatever paperwork was needed, which could mean that they were planning on stopping anyway. David is going to be gone, so I have to really step-up for the next few days. Nervous.
Was granted Monday off (originally to go to Flordia), but will be dealing with school stuff for Terence.
I thanked David for going with all of this- a lot of changes lately. He has really never denied me anything, even when he was not 100%. Very thankful for this.
Other stuff:
Mr. Schudel informed me on Monday that he will be leaving at the end of the year, which will probably screw up my practicum for next year. He referenced a comment that I had made (Freeport), where distractions prohibit me from doing a good job. Glad he told me now. Need to inform Dr. De and start the job search during winter break.
Chance and Oak are doing fine. Very different personalities, but getting along. Chance is spraying a bit, especially after a bit of positioning-play. Frustrating, but expected.
Way behind on work (grading) and feeling the same in regards to school work. Have a lot to do on both areas.
Going to be 60's today, so waiting for the grass to dry to do one last mow of the season. Tomorrow, temperatures to plummet and hold.
Will be cleaning the house once David leaves. Hopefully, it will not be too late. Terence to be here around 9:30 tomorrow morning.
With so much going on, and so much uncertainty, I am feeling a bit sick to my stomach. Circus dream on Sunday (chaos). A couple of moments of near-tears yesterday. Not a good sign.
Things to do; things to do.
18.11.12
Continues....
Weekend before Thanksgiving and 'blahs' continues.
Maybe holiday blues creeping in, but also just a general 'blah'.
Not going to count all the ways and reasons, other than saying that I have a few regrets that I can't do anything to change them right now.
On the positive side, we got a buddy for Chance; Oak, one of the ones we originally looked at (pair- Fire was blind in one eye. They were split up and Oak was returned due to "unrealistic expectations").
No issues with Chance, although Oak's personality is more energetic, and friendlier; a kisser. Chance is a bit more proximal now, almost like a buffer, but OK.
Did have a piddle issue (nerves- new people), leading to Chance marking my work bag.
But otherwise fine.
Don't think he is a pure shih tzu; maybe poodle or schnauzer.
He reminds David of Rocky (Eva's brother).
It is Sunday with a ton to do.
Maybe holiday blues creeping in, but also just a general 'blah'.
Not going to count all the ways and reasons, other than saying that I have a few regrets that I can't do anything to change them right now.
On the positive side, we got a buddy for Chance; Oak, one of the ones we originally looked at (pair- Fire was blind in one eye. They were split up and Oak was returned due to "unrealistic expectations").
No issues with Chance, although Oak's personality is more energetic, and friendlier; a kisser. Chance is a bit more proximal now, almost like a buffer, but OK.
Did have a piddle issue (nerves- new people), leading to Chance marking my work bag.
But otherwise fine.
Don't think he is a pure shih tzu; maybe poodle or schnauzer.
He reminds David of Rocky (Eva's brother).
It is Sunday with a ton to do.
10.11.12
November 'blahs'
Mood is mixed.
A bit of a stressful week.
Weekend full of things to do.
Motivation not synced.
Parent meeting over misinterpretation of words- claiming I said something that I did not.
Logical evidence leans to me, but parent was insistent.
Words with Schudel afterwards, leading to some regret and apology the following day.
Rift is definitely there.
Class this term is "School Change", with a number of intensive papers.
At least these are not group projects.
Behind on readings already- need to catch up.
First major paper due Thursday (just starting).
Chance doing fine.
Xrays for back legs determined a bone issue- shortness of connection between leg bone and hip socket. Nothing can be done about it (genetic). Not a big issue.
Teeth cleaning TBA.
Was going to drive up to Milwaukee to see about a friend for him, but too much to do today.
Maybe next weekend.
IBM laptop dead.
David tried to revive and recover files to no avail.
Using Vaio now and not a fan.
Otherwise, OK.
Tired.
Way too much to do.
A bit of a stressful week.
Weekend full of things to do.
Motivation not synced.
Parent meeting over misinterpretation of words- claiming I said something that I did not.
Logical evidence leans to me, but parent was insistent.
Words with Schudel afterwards, leading to some regret and apology the following day.
Rift is definitely there.
Class this term is "School Change", with a number of intensive papers.
At least these are not group projects.
Behind on readings already- need to catch up.
First major paper due Thursday (just starting).
Chance doing fine.
Xrays for back legs determined a bone issue- shortness of connection between leg bone and hip socket. Nothing can be done about it (genetic). Not a big issue.
Teeth cleaning TBA.
Was going to drive up to Milwaukee to see about a friend for him, but too much to do today.
Maybe next weekend.
IBM laptop dead.
David tried to revive and recover files to no avail.
Using Vaio now and not a fan.
Otherwise, OK.
Tired.
Way too much to do.
4.11.12
1st weekend November
Chill set in and looks like it is going to stay.
Behind in preparing the gardens for winter. Veggie bed needs to be torn down- although still getting Brussels sprouts and broccoli.
Once again with a long list of TTDs, not quite sure what is going to be accomplished.... Sunday already.
Extra hour of sleep- really two, if you count the hour after the alarm.
No gym.
Productive day yesterday (more-productive) and lunch with Mom.
Grades and lesson plans finished.
Chance is doing fine.
Can actually go out w/o having to hold the leash. Still drags behind him. Responds.
Getting more comfortable around here and used to our routines.
Would still like to get another and have some contacts. David is probably 95% there- still needs a bit of nudging.
School is OK.
Parties for Dia de los muertos all day Friday- rather easy day.
End of semester if before winter break, so schedule is extremely tight. Mapped it out w/o knowing the exam schedule. I am predicting problems, especially with Spanish 2, if we have any testing, assemblies or snow days before the end of the term.
Still a handful of student issues- a few academic, a few behavioral, but it is the same anywhere.
Was spoken to about leaving the classroom (ie. going to office during class time), so got to curb that. To me, everything is just down the hall, so why not take care of (whatever) now?
Went to the Curriculum Committee meeting (member), which ended around 830- was definitely dragging the next day.
'A' in Leadership class, now into School Change.
A lot of work for this one, but at least no group work.
IBM laptop crashed out- so using the Vaio (not a fan).
Need to get files off that one, and hopefully David will be able to access.
So much to do today.
Behind in preparing the gardens for winter. Veggie bed needs to be torn down- although still getting Brussels sprouts and broccoli.
Once again with a long list of TTDs, not quite sure what is going to be accomplished.... Sunday already.
Extra hour of sleep- really two, if you count the hour after the alarm.
No gym.
Productive day yesterday (more-productive) and lunch with Mom.
Grades and lesson plans finished.
Chance is doing fine.
Can actually go out w/o having to hold the leash. Still drags behind him. Responds.
Getting more comfortable around here and used to our routines.
Would still like to get another and have some contacts. David is probably 95% there- still needs a bit of nudging.
School is OK.
Parties for Dia de los muertos all day Friday- rather easy day.
End of semester if before winter break, so schedule is extremely tight. Mapped it out w/o knowing the exam schedule. I am predicting problems, especially with Spanish 2, if we have any testing, assemblies or snow days before the end of the term.
Still a handful of student issues- a few academic, a few behavioral, but it is the same anywhere.
Was spoken to about leaving the classroom (ie. going to office during class time), so got to curb that. To me, everything is just down the hall, so why not take care of (whatever) now?
Went to the Curriculum Committee meeting (member), which ended around 830- was definitely dragging the next day.
'A' in Leadership class, now into School Change.
A lot of work for this one, but at least no group work.
IBM laptop crashed out- so using the Vaio (not a fan).
Need to get files off that one, and hopefully David will be able to access.
So much to do today.
27.10.12
Autumn chill
Hit 29 degrees last night.
Yesterday, picked what is probably the last of the tomatoes and raspberries, and a couple of buckets of pears (more to go).
Was 70s earlier this week- adios to that. High 40s today. Brrr!
Chauncey, aka Chance, is doing fine and getting used to things around here.
Cute and friendly, but still no kisses.
No accidents in the house, but did get off his harness the other day- ran to back door.
Not very playful really, but definitely loves attention. Some separation issues.
I really wanted to get another, but will probably wait until spring.
Parent-teacher conferences went without any sort of hitch.
Not many parents, but not a big deal.
Finished up grading and started lesson plans- still have to finish.
Otherwise, slept more than 10 hours last night.
Feeling better, but not 100% yet.
Gym this morning (a bit slacking, but went), but been procrastinating since.
Presidential election next month- still on the fence.
Not a fan of Obama with his "blame game" mentality, but he's not that bad. I believe he does have the interest of the "working poor" in mind, but he pushes the "entitlement" envelope too much. I think his idea of "transparency" is not very transparent at all, with many things coming to light after-the-fact. I believe he is too soft on foreign policy, particularly with terrorist-states, and on the economy (too many bail-outs and programs adding to the national debt). He did repeal DADT.
Unsure about Romney, but I lean towards the conservative. Sometimes I think he is an ass, aiming his words to a particular group of voters and ignoring others. He is business-minded, which could be good for the economy and foreign relations. Still, I see him stealing from Paul to pay Peter and not admitting to it. I like Ryan though- he is a future President.
Numerous predictions of a tie- which means the Senate and House make the final selection, which could lead to Romney being President and Biden as VP (Biden is Clinton-esque, as in Bill- not a fan at all). But Hillary Clinton could be VP, and I'm OK with that.
Procrastination over. Things to do.
Yesterday, picked what is probably the last of the tomatoes and raspberries, and a couple of buckets of pears (more to go).
Was 70s earlier this week- adios to that. High 40s today. Brrr!
Chauncey, aka Chance, is doing fine and getting used to things around here.
Cute and friendly, but still no kisses.
No accidents in the house, but did get off his harness the other day- ran to back door.
Not very playful really, but definitely loves attention. Some separation issues.
I really wanted to get another, but will probably wait until spring.
Parent-teacher conferences went without any sort of hitch.
Not many parents, but not a big deal.
Finished up grading and started lesson plans- still have to finish.
Otherwise, slept more than 10 hours last night.
Feeling better, but not 100% yet.
Gym this morning (a bit slacking, but went), but been procrastinating since.
Presidential election next month- still on the fence.
Not a fan of Obama with his "blame game" mentality, but he's not that bad. I believe he does have the interest of the "working poor" in mind, but he pushes the "entitlement" envelope too much. I think his idea of "transparency" is not very transparent at all, with many things coming to light after-the-fact. I believe he is too soft on foreign policy, particularly with terrorist-states, and on the economy (too many bail-outs and programs adding to the national debt). He did repeal DADT.
Unsure about Romney, but I lean towards the conservative. Sometimes I think he is an ass, aiming his words to a particular group of voters and ignoring others. He is business-minded, which could be good for the economy and foreign relations. Still, I see him stealing from Paul to pay Peter and not admitting to it. I like Ryan though- he is a future President.
Numerous predictions of a tie- which means the Senate and House make the final selection, which could lead to Romney being President and Biden as VP (Biden is Clinton-esque, as in Bill- not a fan at all). But Hillary Clinton could be VP, and I'm OK with that.
Procrastination over. Things to do.
20.10.12
New dog.
Acquired "Chauncey" last night (changing name, but not quite sure to what). Very cute red shih tzu, looking somewhat like a Brussels Griffon. Two years old, small(er) but a bit plump, trained, fixed and chipped. A bit shy, not really vocal and not a kisser. Did not sleep very well last night and a little accident. Very good on a leash and is already scratching at the door to go out (although not always for potty).
Right now, he is obviously tired and he's trying to figure out where to lay down. Made the mistake of getting something to eat when I thought he was asleep, so now he's up and about again. Doggie bed in the bedroom seems not to be favorable and we're just a bit nervous about our bed. David is sleeping and the room is dark, so I am hoping he'll want to go back in there (he'll have to during the week) and sleep. Out here, too much light and I've got things to do, which will disturb him. I don't really want to have to crate him, but maybe we'll have to for a little bit.
The other one we wanted to adopt with him, Ruby, went to another family; A bit of a missed opportunity. We looked at two other ones, Fire and Oak, which were very cute as well. Fire was very kissy and cuddly, while Oak was shy. The two are a bonded pair, although the foster said she would separate, we would not want to (could be a positive thing, as Oak has a jealousy streak). We're comfortable with two, but not quite sure about three.
Chauncey has never been a solo dog, so we've decided to wait before getting him a friend(s). I'm hoping he'll become a bit "alpha" and be able to get the other(s) in line. Before that, we need to work with him on our routines and ways.
Nice to have a dog around again.
Otherwise.... tired, tired, tired.
Averaged about 5 hours a night of sleep last week. Began running on empty on Wednesday and coasted the rest of the week. A bit on-nerve by the end, and some student behaviors did not help much. End of the quarter yesterday with a lot of grading still to do- due Monday.... Not sure if I have a coffee headache or from lack of sleep. About eight hours last night. Need to change my night routine.
List for weekend is tremendous! Gotta get things going. Shower first (if I can get the dog to sleep).
Right now, he is obviously tired and he's trying to figure out where to lay down. Made the mistake of getting something to eat when I thought he was asleep, so now he's up and about again. Doggie bed in the bedroom seems not to be favorable and we're just a bit nervous about our bed. David is sleeping and the room is dark, so I am hoping he'll want to go back in there (he'll have to during the week) and sleep. Out here, too much light and I've got things to do, which will disturb him. I don't really want to have to crate him, but maybe we'll have to for a little bit.
The other one we wanted to adopt with him, Ruby, went to another family; A bit of a missed opportunity. We looked at two other ones, Fire and Oak, which were very cute as well. Fire was very kissy and cuddly, while Oak was shy. The two are a bonded pair, although the foster said she would separate, we would not want to (could be a positive thing, as Oak has a jealousy streak). We're comfortable with two, but not quite sure about three.
Chauncey has never been a solo dog, so we've decided to wait before getting him a friend(s). I'm hoping he'll become a bit "alpha" and be able to get the other(s) in line. Before that, we need to work with him on our routines and ways.
Nice to have a dog around again.
Otherwise.... tired, tired, tired.
Averaged about 5 hours a night of sleep last week. Began running on empty on Wednesday and coasted the rest of the week. A bit on-nerve by the end, and some student behaviors did not help much. End of the quarter yesterday with a lot of grading still to do- due Monday.... Not sure if I have a coffee headache or from lack of sleep. About eight hours last night. Need to change my night routine.
List for weekend is tremendous! Gotta get things going. Shower first (if I can get the dog to sleep).
14.10.12
Dogs, kids and other
Went back over to the Win. Co. shelter yesterday.... disappointing.
Nothing that would work for us; we should have taken the shih tzu or "Bailey" (mix) when we went together a few weeks back.
Looked online at shelters and rescues. Filled out some applications and made contacts. Waiting game begins.
I told David I would be going out and coming home with six one of these days.
Back to looking at the national adoption site.
Lots of kids; a few responses to my inquires.
I just wish we would have a placement, but maybe our expectations are too high.
There is something up- an emptiness within.
Nothing that would work for us; we should have taken the shih tzu or "Bailey" (mix) when we went together a few weeks back.
Looked online at shelters and rescues. Filled out some applications and made contacts. Waiting game begins.
I told David I would be going out and coming home with six one of these days.
Back to looking at the national adoption site.
Lots of kids; a few responses to my inquires.
I just wish we would have a placement, but maybe our expectations are too high.
There is something up- an emptiness within.
13.10.12
Autumn 1
Mood in a bit of a switch- blaming the weather: cold mornings; a bit dreary today with rain expected.
Need to pick the pears and break down the veggie garden AND fountain before it gets too cold.
Picked the last of the tomatoes (probably).
Windows still need to be done.
Lining up house projects.
Also, end of quarter and a couple of students getting a bit on my nerves.
Spanish- some students have different priorities and can not change them. Nevertheless, we're moving on and sadly some will fall off the boat.
Art- a handful of lazies slowing everything down.
Otherwise- car to shop for mileage check-up and a window recall.
Lots of TTDs this weekend (as is every weekend), but think will be OK (due to weather- nothing outdoors)
Need to pick the pears and break down the veggie garden AND fountain before it gets too cold.
Picked the last of the tomatoes (probably).
Windows still need to be done.
Lining up house projects.
Also, end of quarter and a couple of students getting a bit on my nerves.
Spanish- some students have different priorities and can not change them. Nevertheless, we're moving on and sadly some will fall off the boat.
Art- a handful of lazies slowing everything down.
Otherwise- car to shop for mileage check-up and a window recall.
Lots of TTDs this weekend (as is every weekend), but think will be OK (due to weather- nothing outdoors)
7.10.12
15 years
This weekend celebrates our 15th anniversary.
First weekend in October, 1997, I moved to Rockford and in with David.
Good, bad and otherwise- we're OK.
No a big hoop-la (not much of anything really). We're going out for dinner tonight.
Otherwise:
Homecoming week is over- thank goodness!
Freshman took last overall, but I feel that politics are involved. Not that there is much I can do about it.
Overall, definitely a learning experience; Not one that I think I'll want to do again.
Stopped in at the dance- drove an hour, stayed about two, and drove back.
Caught the end of the JHS dance, then the HS court presentation and dance.
Frankly, it was SAD. They do not have the student population- attendance took up maybe a 1/2 of the gym- nor the money.
Dancing was just a bunch of ass-grinding, if you can call that dancing.
Nevertheless, it is over and done with.
Next- end of quarter; Fall state exams; Fiesta for DdelosM; Thanksgiving.
I'm sure there will be a number of other things added to the mix.
Freeport found a full-time Spanish teacher. Not sure of all of the info (from Kathy), but I guess she is good and has earned a number of accolades. The part-timer over at CSMS stated that I taught the students well.
I guess my agreement/ understanding with Ms. Norman for next year was not consummated- I guess I was on the wrong page with that.
I'm crossing my fingers for Keith next year, or something else closer. Staying at OHS is my plan B.
Three day weekend for Columbus Day and I've just finished my lessons.
Way too tired Friday; yesterday putted around, but finished grades, and went to the dance. Up at 9 this morning, taking over 3 hours for lessons.
Considering I don't even have to turn them in- why do the work? Professionalism, that is why. Still, that is a big chunk of time and I have a shit load of other work to catch up on.
Tomorrow, planning to see Mom.
Looking for another dog.
David and I went to the shelter a couple of weeks ago, having a shih tzu posted online. A second poodle-mix was there and also a yorkie-mix.
David, of course, could not commit. I went back yesterday and they are gone, adopted out (hopefully), and nothing that would work with David's allergies.
Planning to go back regularly.
Nothing on the foster care/ adoption front.
Looked at the national database and inquired about a few.
That is all I got.
Things to do.
First weekend in October, 1997, I moved to Rockford and in with David.
Good, bad and otherwise- we're OK.
No a big hoop-la (not much of anything really). We're going out for dinner tonight.
Otherwise:
Homecoming week is over- thank goodness!
Freshman took last overall, but I feel that politics are involved. Not that there is much I can do about it.
Overall, definitely a learning experience; Not one that I think I'll want to do again.
Stopped in at the dance- drove an hour, stayed about two, and drove back.
Caught the end of the JHS dance, then the HS court presentation and dance.
Frankly, it was SAD. They do not have the student population- attendance took up maybe a 1/2 of the gym- nor the money.
Dancing was just a bunch of ass-grinding, if you can call that dancing.
Nevertheless, it is over and done with.
Next- end of quarter; Fall state exams; Fiesta for DdelosM; Thanksgiving.
I'm sure there will be a number of other things added to the mix.
Freeport found a full-time Spanish teacher. Not sure of all of the info (from Kathy), but I guess she is good and has earned a number of accolades. The part-timer over at CSMS stated that I taught the students well.
I guess my agreement/ understanding with Ms. Norman for next year was not consummated- I guess I was on the wrong page with that.
I'm crossing my fingers for Keith next year, or something else closer. Staying at OHS is my plan B.
Three day weekend for Columbus Day and I've just finished my lessons.
Way too tired Friday; yesterday putted around, but finished grades, and went to the dance. Up at 9 this morning, taking over 3 hours for lessons.
Considering I don't even have to turn them in- why do the work? Professionalism, that is why. Still, that is a big chunk of time and I have a shit load of other work to catch up on.
Tomorrow, planning to see Mom.
Looking for another dog.
David and I went to the shelter a couple of weeks ago, having a shih tzu posted online. A second poodle-mix was there and also a yorkie-mix.
David, of course, could not commit. I went back yesterday and they are gone, adopted out (hopefully), and nothing that would work with David's allergies.
Planning to go back regularly.
Nothing on the foster care/ adoption front.
Looked at the national database and inquired about a few.
That is all I got.
Things to do.
30.9.12
Sunday
Procrastinated most of the day yesterday; Did not even shower.
So once again, I have a ton to do today on a Sunday.
Grading and lessons finished.
Homecoming stuff to do, and then other things.
Shit.
So once again, I have a ton to do today on a Sunday.
Grading and lessons finished.
Homecoming stuff to do, and then other things.
Shit.
29.9.12
Homecoming Drama
I blame myself for this one.
I accepted the Freshmen Adviser position (with another new staff member) not having all of the information. Due to distance and time, I really can not do everything I would like to do for/with students. (Even if I wanted to, the fuel costs alone would be too much.)
So this weekend, the weekend prior to Homecoming, the Classes need to get things done- banner, school decorations, parade float.
Well, I can't do all of it. I took charge of the banner and decorations and was very proactive- Webber has the float. Due to "rules", we could not start anything until this weekend, which does not leave a lot of time. I'm going to end up finishing the banner (could not stay very late at school Friday) and I'm baking.
And there are activities next week, with an assumption that I am volunteering to do these things- not.
Freshmen class meeting turned a bit sour, and I threatened to pull the plug on the whole thing: Attitudes, lack of cooperation, general rudeness, entitlement, etc.
Words with Advisers and Principal, a couple of students. The drama began, and I said I was walking away from it.
Of course, guilt kicks in the morning and made calls. Thank goodness there was some "plan B" initiative, so everything covered for the weekend and I do not have to go up there, leaving me with plenty of Homecoming stuff to do here. :(
Otherwise....
Adam's friend Kenny died (cancer), which I think really has affected him. I only knew him briefly (wedding), but got the feeling that Kenny was like a second older brother to Adam. I found him fun and really had a good vibe.
Sara moved to Springfield. David and I helped her pack up last night. Not really a tearful goodbye, but sad that she is leaving. She really needed to move on to a new chapter- she was "stuck" here in Rockford not doing much and not very happy.
Starting last phase of gym schedule. Have not lost as much weight this cycle as I would have liked, mainly due to not cutting on calories (ie. devoured whole bag of chips), but clothes fit better. Still on weight-loss cycle during October, then start from the beginning again in November.
Time-management and organizing priorities still an issue- just not enough hours in a day and procrastination/ getting side-tracked. Also having adverse affect on regular sleep, and perhaps overall health. Have had this cold for a couple of weeks now and not improving much. Feeling overly tired quite a bit. Need to fix it.
I accepted the Freshmen Adviser position (with another new staff member) not having all of the information. Due to distance and time, I really can not do everything I would like to do for/with students. (Even if I wanted to, the fuel costs alone would be too much.)
So this weekend, the weekend prior to Homecoming, the Classes need to get things done- banner, school decorations, parade float.
Well, I can't do all of it. I took charge of the banner and decorations and was very proactive- Webber has the float. Due to "rules", we could not start anything until this weekend, which does not leave a lot of time. I'm going to end up finishing the banner (could not stay very late at school Friday) and I'm baking.
And there are activities next week, with an assumption that I am volunteering to do these things- not.
Freshmen class meeting turned a bit sour, and I threatened to pull the plug on the whole thing: Attitudes, lack of cooperation, general rudeness, entitlement, etc.
Words with Advisers and Principal, a couple of students. The drama began, and I said I was walking away from it.
Of course, guilt kicks in the morning and made calls. Thank goodness there was some "plan B" initiative, so everything covered for the weekend and I do not have to go up there, leaving me with plenty of Homecoming stuff to do here. :(
Otherwise....
Adam's friend Kenny died (cancer), which I think really has affected him. I only knew him briefly (wedding), but got the feeling that Kenny was like a second older brother to Adam. I found him fun and really had a good vibe.
Sara moved to Springfield. David and I helped her pack up last night. Not really a tearful goodbye, but sad that she is leaving. She really needed to move on to a new chapter- she was "stuck" here in Rockford not doing much and not very happy.
Starting last phase of gym schedule. Have not lost as much weight this cycle as I would have liked, mainly due to not cutting on calories (ie. devoured whole bag of chips), but clothes fit better. Still on weight-loss cycle during October, then start from the beginning again in November.
Time-management and organizing priorities still an issue- just not enough hours in a day and procrastination/ getting side-tracked. Also having adverse affect on regular sleep, and perhaps overall health. Have had this cold for a couple of weeks now and not improving much. Feeling overly tired quite a bit. Need to fix it.
22.9.12
Crazy-tired.
Mid-quarter ended yesterday- only been a month of school.
Seems like much much longer.
Some ups and downs, but overall OK.
Realized that I am no longer an art teacher, rather I am a Spanish teacher that can teach art.
Interest is just not there.
Meeting yesterday with Principal-
considering what he said, in front of others, my role is somewhat "Messiah".
Flattering, yes, but also scary.
Am I ready to assume responsibility and able to inspire others?
Plan is still to start looking for something closer after Christmas.
I'm crossing my fingers that Keith School will have the Spanish position open.
No word from Freeport, but not that I expected it- they still do not have a Spanish teacher.
Really need to work on my time management.
Way too tired this early in the school year. Not borderline-delirium, but approaching.
Things are falling on the way-side that really should not:
Way behind on readings for class.
"C" on first paper and group presentation this week (and I'm not 100% sure what we are doing).
Cleaned house last weekend, first time in a month.
Need to do some-sort of in between, otherwise dust is everywhere.
Created Fall TTD list, but thinking it is unrealistic (considering how much was left undone on the Summer list).
Otherwise....
Divided up check from Aunt Jean.
10,000 into savings for next landscape phase.
10,000 to Mike (Mom's financial planner), meeting TBA.
1,000, a gift to David.
2,500 to visa.
Remaining to Fidelity and ING market accounts.
Things to do, things to do.
Not so much procrastination, as it is just being tired.
Immediate plate not that full, but choices thereafter could overflow.
Seems like much much longer.
Some ups and downs, but overall OK.
Realized that I am no longer an art teacher, rather I am a Spanish teacher that can teach art.
Interest is just not there.
Meeting yesterday with Principal-
considering what he said, in front of others, my role is somewhat "Messiah".
Flattering, yes, but also scary.
Am I ready to assume responsibility and able to inspire others?
Plan is still to start looking for something closer after Christmas.
I'm crossing my fingers that Keith School will have the Spanish position open.
No word from Freeport, but not that I expected it- they still do not have a Spanish teacher.
Really need to work on my time management.
Way too tired this early in the school year. Not borderline-delirium, but approaching.
Things are falling on the way-side that really should not:
Way behind on readings for class.
"C" on first paper and group presentation this week (and I'm not 100% sure what we are doing).
Cleaned house last weekend, first time in a month.
Need to do some-sort of in between, otherwise dust is everywhere.
Created Fall TTD list, but thinking it is unrealistic (considering how much was left undone on the Summer list).
Otherwise....
Divided up check from Aunt Jean.
10,000 into savings for next landscape phase.
10,000 to Mike (Mom's financial planner), meeting TBA.
1,000, a gift to David.
2,500 to visa.
Remaining to Fidelity and ING market accounts.
Things to do, things to do.
Not so much procrastination, as it is just being tired.
Immediate plate not that full, but choices thereafter could overflow.
15.9.12
Another long sleep
I'm thinking 12 hours.
This is getting habitual and somewhat bothersome.
The fact that by Thursday I am exhausted, and by Friday I am pretty much spent.
I know I was in bed before 10 last night- up close to 10 this morning.
I set the alarm for 7, which would have given me more than eight hours.
Getting less than seven during the week.
I guess that skipping the gym one day over the weekend is not so bad (every weekend thus far since the school year began).
My body probably needs the rest anyway.
Then again, it throws the day into a loop.
Teaching is teaching, and I love it.
When I am there, I'm not thinking about how tired I am. But during the interim, as in lunch, I start to feel it.
Spanish is going well.
Grades at this point are how they usually are. Lots of "Cs".
A few students are really shining though.
First real test in a couple of weeks. Selected the MOD version, just to give a break and hopefully a boost of confidence.
Couple of complainers getting on my nerves.
Art is still OK. I'm choking it up to "first year back after so many years not teaching it AND not much time to prep before the school year with limited supply and direction".
Students seem to be acclimated to the program, while others are not- either by choice or ignorance.
Asked to run a workshop during SIP Day (27th)- about formative and summative assessments.
First Faculty meeting this coming Monday- hopefully, there will be more info.
Getting tired of these long lists of TTD every weekend and not being able to get through them.
Items get pushed to the next, so the list just gets longer.
I need to get a schedule down during the week to get things done. Trying to do everything on a weekend is not very productive, especially when I need some rest and relaxation.
Aunt Jean sent another check.
Maybe this is going to become an annual thing. It is nice.
Have already divided it up in my mind- just have to do it now.
Sept 14th marked 25 years- first kiss.
A bit nostalgic today.
This is getting habitual and somewhat bothersome.
The fact that by Thursday I am exhausted, and by Friday I am pretty much spent.
I know I was in bed before 10 last night- up close to 10 this morning.
I set the alarm for 7, which would have given me more than eight hours.
Getting less than seven during the week.
I guess that skipping the gym one day over the weekend is not so bad (every weekend thus far since the school year began).
My body probably needs the rest anyway.
Then again, it throws the day into a loop.
Teaching is teaching, and I love it.
When I am there, I'm not thinking about how tired I am. But during the interim, as in lunch, I start to feel it.
Spanish is going well.
Grades at this point are how they usually are. Lots of "Cs".
A few students are really shining though.
First real test in a couple of weeks. Selected the MOD version, just to give a break and hopefully a boost of confidence.
Couple of complainers getting on my nerves.
Art is still OK. I'm choking it up to "first year back after so many years not teaching it AND not much time to prep before the school year with limited supply and direction".
Students seem to be acclimated to the program, while others are not- either by choice or ignorance.
Asked to run a workshop during SIP Day (27th)- about formative and summative assessments.
First Faculty meeting this coming Monday- hopefully, there will be more info.
Getting tired of these long lists of TTD every weekend and not being able to get through them.
Items get pushed to the next, so the list just gets longer.
I need to get a schedule down during the week to get things done. Trying to do everything on a weekend is not very productive, especially when I need some rest and relaxation.
Aunt Jean sent another check.
Maybe this is going to become an annual thing. It is nice.
Have already divided it up in my mind- just have to do it now.
Sept 14th marked 25 years- first kiss.
A bit nostalgic today.
8.9.12
Second full week....
Short week due to Labor Day, but was very busy....
First Spanish test (rather, a practice test), which is always a bit disappointing and an eye-opener for the students. Most did OK overall, but individual proficiencies were lagging. Debriefed and made "action plans". Some on absolutely with it, while others are already out of it. Too late to drop classes- sorry. Gonna suck to be you.
Art is actually improving. Lots of drawing this week, so students are happier. Should finish up line on Tuesday, and then move to shape and form. Not sure if I really want to open up the clay, but we will see.
Getting into the grove of the small-school vibe, but still a bit unnerving. Amazed at the lack of resources. Principal seems to like what I am doing. No official observation scheduled as of yet. Trying to get on the SIP team, but district going through "reorganization" so will have to wait.
Went to FB game, had the school open house, volleyball game coming up, and the Board open house. Getting home after 5 on a regular basis is taking its toll. Definitely not getting enough sleep during the week.
Gym schedule going well- phase 3 right now (two months), with weight loss as the goal. Have not stepped on the scale yet. Started thermionic fat burners, an ephedrine-like product, which is kind of f'n me up in the mornings. I am hoping my body will get used to it and will pass.
Grad class is OK. Interesting, and I find myself thinking more like an administrator when at school. But schedule kind of sucks- makes for a very long Thursday.
Otherwise, OK. Have a shitload of things to do this weekend- my TTD list overflows the page.
First Spanish test (rather, a practice test), which is always a bit disappointing and an eye-opener for the students. Most did OK overall, but individual proficiencies were lagging. Debriefed and made "action plans". Some on absolutely with it, while others are already out of it. Too late to drop classes- sorry. Gonna suck to be you.
Art is actually improving. Lots of drawing this week, so students are happier. Should finish up line on Tuesday, and then move to shape and form. Not sure if I really want to open up the clay, but we will see.
Getting into the grove of the small-school vibe, but still a bit unnerving. Amazed at the lack of resources. Principal seems to like what I am doing. No official observation scheduled as of yet. Trying to get on the SIP team, but district going through "reorganization" so will have to wait.
Went to FB game, had the school open house, volleyball game coming up, and the Board open house. Getting home after 5 on a regular basis is taking its toll. Definitely not getting enough sleep during the week.
Gym schedule going well- phase 3 right now (two months), with weight loss as the goal. Have not stepped on the scale yet. Started thermionic fat burners, an ephedrine-like product, which is kind of f'n me up in the mornings. I am hoping my body will get used to it and will pass.
Grad class is OK. Interesting, and I find myself thinking more like an administrator when at school. But schedule kind of sucks- makes for a very long Thursday.
Otherwise, OK. Have a shitload of things to do this weekend- my TTD list overflows the page.
1.9.12
Full week
Hung around for the first home FB game last night.
First tutoring session, got some things done and then game time at 5:30.
After working in a hot school all day, I had considered bailing, but glad I stayed.
Fixed the mascots costume; met parents/ other people; some Freeport people around; students speaking Spanish outside of class.
Eventually, the heat got to me and left just after the 3rd quarter began of the JV game.
Home around 8.
Week in general went pretty good.
And it is nice to return to the enjoyment of teaching- for the sake of teaching, and not having to think of other things going on.
Negative that the school/ district in general lacks amenities- available items don't work; one copier (getting crazy); small-town mentality.
Spanish class is definitely back into swing.
The preliminary lesson is always the most engaging- the "hook" that keeps them.
First test, Tuesday, is going to be a practice to get them used to the assessment format.
Worked out the semester plan.
Going to be tough for Spanish 2 kids, but workable.
Art is still lacking.
Part of it is that I am really not enthused, which I think bleeds out a bit.
And I am a bit out of the loop with it.
Original plan not working, so had to revamp a bit.
First couple of blow ups with students. One dropped/ pulled out due unknown reasons- told that it would be better for me; Other stayed in class.
Getting used to very long days- out the door by 6:30'ish, home around 5.
Grad class on Thursdays, so I leave early on those days.
Open House on Wednesday- will be a very, very long day.
Slept nearly 10 hours.
Feeling OK.
Long list of things to do this weekend (extended- Labor Day, thank goodness).
Gotta get moving.
First tutoring session, got some things done and then game time at 5:30.
After working in a hot school all day, I had considered bailing, but glad I stayed.
Fixed the mascots costume; met parents/ other people; some Freeport people around; students speaking Spanish outside of class.
Eventually, the heat got to me and left just after the 3rd quarter began of the JV game.
Home around 8.
Week in general went pretty good.
And it is nice to return to the enjoyment of teaching- for the sake of teaching, and not having to think of other things going on.
Negative that the school/ district in general lacks amenities- available items don't work; one copier (getting crazy); small-town mentality.
Spanish class is definitely back into swing.
The preliminary lesson is always the most engaging- the "hook" that keeps them.
First test, Tuesday, is going to be a practice to get them used to the assessment format.
Worked out the semester plan.
Going to be tough for Spanish 2 kids, but workable.
Art is still lacking.
Part of it is that I am really not enthused, which I think bleeds out a bit.
And I am a bit out of the loop with it.
Original plan not working, so had to revamp a bit.
First couple of blow ups with students. One dropped/ pulled out due unknown reasons- told that it would be better for me; Other stayed in class.
Getting used to very long days- out the door by 6:30'ish, home around 5.
Grad class on Thursdays, so I leave early on those days.
Open House on Wednesday- will be a very, very long day.
Slept nearly 10 hours.
Feeling OK.
Long list of things to do this weekend (extended- Labor Day, thank goodness).
Gotta get moving.
25.8.12
First Week
Nice to get back into the groove.
Actually an uneventful week.
Kids are kids where ever you go- some are polite, outgoing and engaging, whereas others are rude, self-absorbed and quiet.
Enjoy Spanish. Art is something to get used to.
Getting used to working in a very small school district.
A lot of changes over the past few years, most of which I am unaware, other than I know things happened leaving staff and students in their current conditions.
Funding is low, with the current system very inequitable- $200 per teacher. Classes like art, with so many consumables, such a budget is unrealistic.
Technology is extremely lacking.
Library resources are somewhat sad.
Using Avancemos for Spanish.
Copying online text.
Purchasing materials through Amazon, out-of-pocket.
Spanish 2 students are way below standard, so going to do two years in one.
The few Spanish 1 students in that class (schedule issues) are doing the same. I explained to parents- it is a very unique opportunity that will probably never happen again.
Using The Experience for Art.
I had the teacher text (from student teaching at Guilford) and I found a student edition in the closet.
Again, way below HS standards, as there is no formal MS art program. Not even a "wheel" of electives.
Staff is nice.
Principal has visited a couple of times and has been accommodating (as much as he can be).
Do not have a good read on the Superintendent yet.
Drive does not bother me, although returning home around 5PM makes for a very long day- 12 hours +/-.
Need to get into a better system, so I can leave earlier. My last hour is planning, but there has been so much to do (printing units).
Concordia classes start next week, so need to get out ASAP on Thursdays.
Slept a good 8 hours last night.
Feel pretty good.
Have a long list of things to do- need to get moving!
Actually an uneventful week.
Kids are kids where ever you go- some are polite, outgoing and engaging, whereas others are rude, self-absorbed and quiet.
Enjoy Spanish. Art is something to get used to.
Getting used to working in a very small school district.
A lot of changes over the past few years, most of which I am unaware, other than I know things happened leaving staff and students in their current conditions.
Funding is low, with the current system very inequitable- $200 per teacher. Classes like art, with so many consumables, such a budget is unrealistic.
Technology is extremely lacking.
Library resources are somewhat sad.
Using Avancemos for Spanish.
Copying online text.
Purchasing materials through Amazon, out-of-pocket.
Spanish 2 students are way below standard, so going to do two years in one.
The few Spanish 1 students in that class (schedule issues) are doing the same. I explained to parents- it is a very unique opportunity that will probably never happen again.
Using The Experience for Art.
I had the teacher text (from student teaching at Guilford) and I found a student edition in the closet.
Again, way below HS standards, as there is no formal MS art program. Not even a "wheel" of electives.
Staff is nice.
Principal has visited a couple of times and has been accommodating (as much as he can be).
Do not have a good read on the Superintendent yet.
Drive does not bother me, although returning home around 5PM makes for a very long day- 12 hours +/-.
Need to get into a better system, so I can leave earlier. My last hour is planning, but there has been so much to do (printing units).
Concordia classes start next week, so need to get out ASAP on Thursdays.
Slept a good 8 hours last night.
Feel pretty good.
Have a long list of things to do- need to get moving!
19.8.12
Sunday
Mood wains a bit.
Began yesterday.
Probably just nerves.
This morning though, directed towards things at home:
Lonely.
Tired.
If "this" is the way it is going to be, I really don't think I can/want to.
Once change begins in one area, it moves to others.
Began yesterday.
Probably just nerves.
This morning though, directed towards things at home:
Lonely.
Tired.
If "this" is the way it is going to be, I really don't think I can/want to.
Once change begins in one area, it moves to others.
18.8.12
Final weekend of summer.
Wishing it could be a lazy weekend, but have things to attend to.
Not much, although having a difficult time getting focused today.
Probably anticipation.
Finished up Spanish room yesterday (Friday) with Mom. Just a couple of things to do during institute days (Monday & Tuesday), and then the school year begins.
Going to Freeport for my "exit interview" after school on Tuesday. Not looking forward to that.
Otherwise, OK.
Not much, although having a difficult time getting focused today.
Probably anticipation.
Finished up Spanish room yesterday (Friday) with Mom. Just a couple of things to do during institute days (Monday & Tuesday), and then the school year begins.
Going to Freeport for my "exit interview" after school on Tuesday. Not looking forward to that.
Otherwise, OK.
14.8.12
Just about that time.
Getting back into my "school schedule": alarm going off at 5:30, progressing to earlier as the week goes on.
I'm thinking that I have to leave around 6:30, 6:45 at the latest.
Gym time is an hour, so I'm thinking that my previous schedule will remain the same for the school year: Gym by 5, shower around 6, back home and then off to school.
Finished art room yesterday.
Stopped by FMS to drop off a key and spoke to a few people.
Intro letter done.
Plan to write the syllabi and a couple of other work things today.
Back to Orangeville on Thursday to finish things up (w/ Mom).
Some jitters.
Excited to start something new.
Some guilt.
No Spanish teacher at the middle school level at Freeport. What are they going to do?
Still, I drew the line in the sand and now it just has to be the way it is.
I think the reasons for my resignation are going to be discussed at the Board meeting Wednesday. It is during the "closed session", or otherwise I thought I might attend.
No confirmation on this, and not invited.
Otherwise.....
No foster placement yet.
Second month of second phase of workout- seeing progress. Difficult to "work to failure"- just don't have the time. Next phase is the "slim down", so maybe some things will pop.
Last week of summer break.
Where did it go?!
I'm thinking that I have to leave around 6:30, 6:45 at the latest.
Gym time is an hour, so I'm thinking that my previous schedule will remain the same for the school year: Gym by 5, shower around 6, back home and then off to school.
Finished art room yesterday.
Stopped by FMS to drop off a key and spoke to a few people.
Intro letter done.
Plan to write the syllabi and a couple of other work things today.
Back to Orangeville on Thursday to finish things up (w/ Mom).
Some jitters.
Excited to start something new.
Some guilt.
No Spanish teacher at the middle school level at Freeport. What are they going to do?
Still, I drew the line in the sand and now it just has to be the way it is.
I think the reasons for my resignation are going to be discussed at the Board meeting Wednesday. It is during the "closed session", or otherwise I thought I might attend.
No confirmation on this, and not invited.
Otherwise.....
No foster placement yet.
Second month of second phase of workout- seeing progress. Difficult to "work to failure"- just don't have the time. Next phase is the "slim down", so maybe some things will pop.
Last week of summer break.
Where did it go?!
9.8.12
10 days
Back to school on the 20th (so 11 days) and spent another long day at Orangeville setting rooms up.
Art room yesterday with Sara.
She did a lot of organization of materials, while I worked on getting the room layout in order.
Probably about 70% done, with a big pile and a bunch of boxes to go through.
Did not touch the Spanish room, with things still to do there.
Going to be a lot of tossing of things- stuff I saved, but never used. No real reason to have it around.
Mood is somewhat mediocre.
Not very excited this year.
Things to do for prep, and just not feeling it.
Second guessing- maybe I made the wrong decision(s).
Art room yesterday with Sara.
She did a lot of organization of materials, while I worked on getting the room layout in order.
Probably about 70% done, with a big pile and a bunch of boxes to go through.
Did not touch the Spanish room, with things still to do there.
Going to be a lot of tossing of things- stuff I saved, but never used. No real reason to have it around.
Mood is somewhat mediocre.
Not very excited this year.
Things to do for prep, and just not feeling it.
Second guessing- maybe I made the wrong decision(s).
4.8.12
Couple of weeks
Institute days on the 20th and 21st; students start that Wednesday, the 22nd.
Still so much to do:
Finish Spanish room.
Start art room.
Organizing a plan (for both areas).
Intro letters, syllabi, and first week.
Going in on the 8th, after last PLS class of the summer, for paperwork and set up.
All Spanish stuff out of the basement; art still to tackle.
Excited, nervous, but anxious to start.
Working on first bedroom- touch up ceiling and painting trim.
Possible (probable) placement next week.
Still need to get master finished.
Glad rest of house is finished (nearly- still some furnishings and artwork to figure out) and adjusting to layouts.
Rain expected today- storm warnings for later today/ night.
Still so far behind in rain, so anything is good.
Otherwise, OK.
Still so much to do:
Finish Spanish room.
Start art room.
Organizing a plan (for both areas).
Intro letters, syllabi, and first week.
Going in on the 8th, after last PLS class of the summer, for paperwork and set up.
All Spanish stuff out of the basement; art still to tackle.
Excited, nervous, but anxious to start.
Working on first bedroom- touch up ceiling and painting trim.
Possible (probable) placement next week.
Still need to get master finished.
Glad rest of house is finished (nearly- still some furnishings and artwork to figure out) and adjusting to layouts.
Rain expected today- storm warnings for later today/ night.
Still so far behind in rain, so anything is good.
Otherwise, OK.
28.7.12
Ugh!! Procrastination
Once again, faced with deadlines (07 Aug- possible placement) and I'm dicking around, doing anything and everything that is not on my TTD list. The remainder of yesterday was quite a joke- things that I could have easily accomplished are still on the list. WTH is with that?!
Today's agenda- lists, coupons and errands; clean out the car; second coat of kid's bedroom.
Tomorrow- going to see Mom; clean house; prep for Monday at Orangeville.
Gotta get it done!
Today's agenda- lists, coupons and errands; clean out the car; second coat of kid's bedroom.
Tomorrow- going to see Mom; clean house; prep for Monday at Orangeville.
Gotta get it done!
27.7.12
Botox
So, had a bit of Botox and Juvederm today- impressed.
Going the "natural" route- just to improve:
Lines in forehead are definitely less prominent.
Mouth parentheses are flatter.
Not such a big deal as originally thought.
Botox again over winter break; Juvederm next summer.
Savic has a skin tightening laser.... maybe.
Couple of days up in Orangeville setting up.
Spanish room about 50%, but have not touched the art room.
Still a lot to do.
Everyone seems nice.
Paperwork set for 08 August.
Otherwise, OK.
(Although in procrastination mode.)
Going the "natural" route- just to improve:
Lines in forehead are definitely less prominent.
Mouth parentheses are flatter.
Not such a big deal as originally thought.
Botox again over winter break; Juvederm next summer.
Savic has a skin tightening laser.... maybe.
Couple of days up in Orangeville setting up.
Spanish room about 50%, but have not touched the art room.
Still a lot to do.
Everyone seems nice.
Paperwork set for 08 August.
Otherwise, OK.
(Although in procrastination mode.)
21.7.12
Dad visit.
Nice visit with Dad and Jennifer. It was a bit short (3 days), but probably enough.
Took them to Anderson Gardens and downtown to the river.
Ate out pretty much every meal- more food in three days than we usually consume in a week.
They left for Chicago on Wednesday. I think they leave today to return home.
Dad getting older and I think he is reflecting on a number of things.
Apologized for not being a good father.
Mom, for whatever reason, did not want to see them.
Originally, I thought it would be a good idea to meet Adam and Martina near Woodfield for lunch, so Mom could visit a bit, but she did not want to. I did not push it.
She came up yesterday, for David's Bday, so another dinner out.
Common areas finished prior to Dad's visit, at least the painting and set up.
David did a nice job organizing the bedrooms, so they looked nice.
Still things to do- casework in DR; new TV in LR (and furnishings). Artwork throughout.
Bedrooms to paint.
David and I had class on Monday night for foster license renewal.
David set a "ready date" for 07 Aug (email to Patty), so things to do.
She knows we only want one, but was pushing for four.
We will only have the one room done.
We had rain finally.
A big storm blew in Wednesday night- a bit over an inch of rain.
Wind blew out a lot of the dead stuff, but no major damage here.
Veggie garden a bit of a mess.
Power out in parts of Rockford, but not us (just flickers).
Nothing more in the forecast, at least nothing significant.
Second PLS class this summer.
Easy classes, but time consuming.
Have a third the first week of August.
Working out schedules and classes at Orangeville.
I am planning to go in this coming week to begin room(s) set up: Spanish first, then art.
Have to go through everything in the basement, as I do not want to bring it all.
I am hoping to have the old art room for storage, as I do not want to bring in all of that stuff (although, I still have to go through it all).
Unless it is an extraordinary job, this is going to be a temporary thing- two years max is the plan, while looking for something closer.
Job posted on the Freeport website.
Never heard from anyone, other than Ms. Norman about not getting reimbursement for classes.
Found a video I need to return, so I will have to go in again.
Otherwise, OK.
A lot to do though.
Took them to Anderson Gardens and downtown to the river.
Ate out pretty much every meal- more food in three days than we usually consume in a week.
They left for Chicago on Wednesday. I think they leave today to return home.
Dad getting older and I think he is reflecting on a number of things.
Apologized for not being a good father.
Mom, for whatever reason, did not want to see them.
Originally, I thought it would be a good idea to meet Adam and Martina near Woodfield for lunch, so Mom could visit a bit, but she did not want to. I did not push it.
She came up yesterday, for David's Bday, so another dinner out.
Common areas finished prior to Dad's visit, at least the painting and set up.
David did a nice job organizing the bedrooms, so they looked nice.
Still things to do- casework in DR; new TV in LR (and furnishings). Artwork throughout.
Bedrooms to paint.
David and I had class on Monday night for foster license renewal.
David set a "ready date" for 07 Aug (email to Patty), so things to do.
She knows we only want one, but was pushing for four.
We will only have the one room done.
We had rain finally.
A big storm blew in Wednesday night- a bit over an inch of rain.
Wind blew out a lot of the dead stuff, but no major damage here.
Veggie garden a bit of a mess.
Power out in parts of Rockford, but not us (just flickers).
Nothing more in the forecast, at least nothing significant.
Second PLS class this summer.
Easy classes, but time consuming.
Have a third the first week of August.
Working out schedules and classes at Orangeville.
I am planning to go in this coming week to begin room(s) set up: Spanish first, then art.
Have to go through everything in the basement, as I do not want to bring it all.
I am hoping to have the old art room for storage, as I do not want to bring in all of that stuff (although, I still have to go through it all).
Unless it is an extraordinary job, this is going to be a temporary thing- two years max is the plan, while looking for something closer.
Job posted on the Freeport website.
Never heard from anyone, other than Ms. Norman about not getting reimbursement for classes.
Found a video I need to return, so I will have to go in again.
Otherwise, OK.
A lot to do though.
14.7.12
Saturday
Dad arrives tomorrow night and still have a lot to do.
Not much to complain about, but could have been more organized and pushed myself a bit more. Too many lazy days and extended "down time" between tasks- procrastination.
Finishing up common areas.
Will have to tackle the bedrooms at another time.
RAIN!
Finally. A couple of hours of light rain, not enough for a good soak, but I think slow enough to do some good. Maybe the grass will green-up a little. Expecting a bit more later. Hopefully, it will come through.
Turned in resignation and dropped off teacher materials at Freeport.
Administrators at some conference in Texas, so it was a bit easy. I would think that the secretaries would have called Nick/ Brian, but perhaps not. I was expecting a call, but over the past year I've learned not to expect much.
Over to Orangeville.
Everyone gone, so could not get any paperwork nor get questions answered. Organized and assessed. Considering they have been using a virtual teacher program, they actually have some decent useable materials, although not complete.
Met secretary and custodian.
At home, mapped out some Spanish 1 and some of 2,3,4. Can not do much for art until I know what class(es). I am assuming it is going to be a Fundamentals-type class.
In a bit of a rut over the whole thing- but I'll move on.
I'm glad to be out of Freeport, but Orangeville is not ideal. I wish one of the closer districts responded, making Orangeville an interim thing, as I will continue to look for something closer. Winter season is a concern. I also have some concerns about being in a small and very rural district- will not have opportunities available in larger districts, will not integrate well (opportunities for community involvement- distance), and philosophies may be different (will my course expectations be too high).
Otherwise, OK.
Not much to complain about, but could have been more organized and pushed myself a bit more. Too many lazy days and extended "down time" between tasks- procrastination.
Finishing up common areas.
Will have to tackle the bedrooms at another time.
RAIN!
Finally. A couple of hours of light rain, not enough for a good soak, but I think slow enough to do some good. Maybe the grass will green-up a little. Expecting a bit more later. Hopefully, it will come through.
Turned in resignation and dropped off teacher materials at Freeport.
Administrators at some conference in Texas, so it was a bit easy. I would think that the secretaries would have called Nick/ Brian, but perhaps not. I was expecting a call, but over the past year I've learned not to expect much.
Over to Orangeville.
Everyone gone, so could not get any paperwork nor get questions answered. Organized and assessed. Considering they have been using a virtual teacher program, they actually have some decent useable materials, although not complete.
Met secretary and custodian.
At home, mapped out some Spanish 1 and some of 2,3,4. Can not do much for art until I know what class(es). I am assuming it is going to be a Fundamentals-type class.
In a bit of a rut over the whole thing- but I'll move on.
I'm glad to be out of Freeport, but Orangeville is not ideal. I wish one of the closer districts responded, making Orangeville an interim thing, as I will continue to look for something closer. Winter season is a concern. I also have some concerns about being in a small and very rural district- will not have opportunities available in larger districts, will not integrate well (opportunities for community involvement- distance), and philosophies may be different (will my course expectations be too high).
Otherwise, OK.
12.7.12
12
Davids's bday. Low-key. Not quite sure what/if we are doing anything.
Turning in resignation at Freeport today, and then off to Orangeville.
Nervous, excited.
Ending of one chapter, another to begin.
Painting in 95% finished (common areas).
Touch-ups in kitchen left to do.
Bedrooms TBA- but I have the paint already.
Room set up and other things to do.
Bit of shopping, definitely, although funds are a bit low.
We shall see.
Turning in resignation at Freeport today, and then off to Orangeville.
Nervous, excited.
Ending of one chapter, another to begin.
Painting in 95% finished (common areas).
Touch-ups in kitchen left to do.
Bedrooms TBA- but I have the paint already.
Room set up and other things to do.
Bit of shopping, definitely, although funds are a bit low.
We shall see.
8.7.12
One week
Yesterday was pretty productive.
Cleaning, cleaning and more cleaning.
David working as well.
House will still need a good scrub before Dad arrives, but the preliminaries are done.
Kitchen to paint.
Clean out aquarium (giving away).
Maybe a bit of shopping (gotta watch the funds).
Things to do.
Cleaning, cleaning and more cleaning.
David working as well.
House will still need a good scrub before Dad arrives, but the preliminaries are done.
Kitchen to paint.
Clean out aquarium (giving away).
Maybe a bit of shopping (gotta watch the funds).
Things to do.
7.7.12
Slump
Kitchen painting.... slow. A lot of wall prep work.
House is really a mess. Planning to clean up before doing anything else.
House money dwindling..... worrisome.
Orangeville job going to board on Tuesday..... Full time Spanish/Art. Still some unanswered questions, but seems OK. Just waiting for it to be "official" before doing anything else.
100s four days in a row. Still no rain and nothing in forecast for next ten days. Ugh!!
PLS class through next Wednesday.
House is really a mess. Planning to clean up before doing anything else.
House money dwindling..... worrisome.
Orangeville job going to board on Tuesday..... Full time Spanish/Art. Still some unanswered questions, but seems OK. Just waiting for it to be "official" before doing anything else.
100s four days in a row. Still no rain and nothing in forecast for next ten days. Ugh!!
PLS class through next Wednesday.
3.7.12
Trim done!!!
Only took me forever and a day (feels like) to finish up the trim in the common areas of the house.
Still have the kitchen to tackle, but I hope to have it done by the weekend.
Paint sale ends tomorrow, so need to plan for bedrooms.
Spoke with Orangeville principal today.....
Salary is acceptable (which worried David).
Some hiccups here (i.e. art position never approved by Board) and there are still a couple of unanswered questions. He is supposed to call back around the 10th (after Board meeting), if not sooner.
No word from Winnebago.
Applied to Keith School (recent posting).
Would be nice to get something closer to home.
Still NO RAIN- UGH!!
Power out last night for about an hour.
100 temp for next few days.
Chicago 'burbs hit with big storm couple of days ago- tree and lines down. Mom had no electricity for about a day.
Still have the kitchen to tackle, but I hope to have it done by the weekend.
Paint sale ends tomorrow, so need to plan for bedrooms.
Spoke with Orangeville principal today.....
Salary is acceptable (which worried David).
Some hiccups here (i.e. art position never approved by Board) and there are still a couple of unanswered questions. He is supposed to call back around the 10th (after Board meeting), if not sooner.
No word from Winnebago.
Applied to Keith School (recent posting).
Would be nice to get something closer to home.
Still NO RAIN- UGH!!
Power out last night for about an hour.
100 temp for next few days.
Chicago 'burbs hit with big storm couple of days ago- tree and lines down. Mom had no electricity for about a day.
1.7.12
01 July
Interviewed at Orangeville yesterday and was offered the job.
Still have some more Q&A for the principal- he is calling on Tuesday, and he'll want a yes or no.
Positives-
On the home front:
Missed the due date for painting...... still have trim to finish and kitchen (what WILL be done before Dad arrives). Kid room needs to be done before the 20th, after that I will deal with the master.
We put the dinning room table together- humungous! Looks nice in the space. Tackling the living room is next.
This house is way passed due for a good scrub. I'm thinking three days.
Other than insignificant sprinkles here and there, no real rain. Ugh!
Still have some more Q&A for the principal- he is calling on Tuesday, and he'll want a yes or no.
Positives-
- Spanish only or Spanish/ Art combo.
- Building program(s) from ground up.
- Smaller classes- 20 max.
- Benefits- Blue cross insurance at 90% paid; District pays all TRS
- Homogenous community.
- Gung-ho, positive, younger principal.
- Will not have to deal with Freeport issues.
- Salary (don't know definite numbers-but lower).
- Further away/ longer drive than originally expected- about 55 minutes. Winter concerns.
- Because program(s) are not established, will be a couple of years of "transition.
- Homogenous community.
- Could be gay issue (rural mindset).
- "Unknowns"
On the home front:
Missed the due date for painting...... still have trim to finish and kitchen (what WILL be done before Dad arrives). Kid room needs to be done before the 20th, after that I will deal with the master.
We put the dinning room table together- humungous! Looks nice in the space. Tackling the living room is next.
This house is way passed due for a good scrub. I'm thinking three days.
Other than insignificant sprinkles here and there, no real rain. Ugh!
27.6.12
Painting continues
Burn out is ever-present, but I am trying to push through it.
Taped trim until I ran out of tape. Still have to finish LR.
Plan today is to get trim done in DR, so I can check it off my list, and then move to hall. Entry, then LR to follow.
Not looking forward to painting doors and entry closet, but will get done.
Kitchen will follow- still have to finish ceiling, and then walls.
Once the "main areas" are finished, I will feel better, especially if I can get it done by the 1st of July (my self-imposed "due date" to finish).
Bedrooms after that.
Otherwise... watering away.
100 temperature expected tomorrow; no significant rain for the rest of the week- 20% chance tomorrow night.
Taped trim until I ran out of tape. Still have to finish LR.
Plan today is to get trim done in DR, so I can check it off my list, and then move to hall. Entry, then LR to follow.
Not looking forward to painting doors and entry closet, but will get done.
Kitchen will follow- still have to finish ceiling, and then walls.
Once the "main areas" are finished, I will feel better, especially if I can get it done by the 1st of July (my self-imposed "due date" to finish).
Bedrooms after that.
Otherwise... watering away.
100 temperature expected tomorrow; no significant rain for the rest of the week- 20% chance tomorrow night.
25.6.12
Three weeks
Three weeks minus one day until Dad arrives.
Not that much time left, and as par- I am behind schedule. I have to keep the momentum going.
Painting continues.....
Main color in LR and hall finished. Touch up to do, but otherwise OK.
Looks good. Different than before- livelier, definitely.
A bit of a burn-out today; not sure what will get accomplished today (with paint).
I'm thinking, after touch ups, maybe start the trim in the DR- lots of taping to do first.
Priority is to get the LR (blinds, furniture layout) and DR (rug, table, layout) together.
Painting kitchen.
Bedroom- clean out, paint, layout.
Paint master bed and bath.
Still no significant rain, so yard work has not been on the agenda.
Easier to pull weeds when the ground is still wet.
On the positive side, I have not had to mow.
Watering when I can, what needs to be. Sadly, some are just not getting the attention.
Was getting a bit unnerved with David yesterday.
With everything that needs to be done around here, in preparation of Dad's visit (and pending foster placement on the 20th- Did David call? He said he would.) there are things he could be doing, but he was not yesterday. Messing with computers, "reading news"...... I understand that when I am home from the summer, it screws up his schedule and he does not sleep as well. Still, things need to be done and it would be nice if he would step up and just get it (what he can do) done.
After getting the house together.
Weather permitting, I will need a week to work in the yard.
Two, maybe three days, to scrub this house down.
Plus- final for class this week. Need to work on study guide.
PLS class starts 01 July, 8-5.
Crazy.
Not that much time left, and as par- I am behind schedule. I have to keep the momentum going.
Painting continues.....
Main color in LR and hall finished. Touch up to do, but otherwise OK.
Looks good. Different than before- livelier, definitely.
A bit of a burn-out today; not sure what will get accomplished today (with paint).
I'm thinking, after touch ups, maybe start the trim in the DR- lots of taping to do first.
Priority is to get the LR (blinds, furniture layout) and DR (rug, table, layout) together.
Painting kitchen.
Bedroom- clean out, paint, layout.
Paint master bed and bath.
Still no significant rain, so yard work has not been on the agenda.
Easier to pull weeds when the ground is still wet.
On the positive side, I have not had to mow.
Watering when I can, what needs to be. Sadly, some are just not getting the attention.
Was getting a bit unnerved with David yesterday.
With everything that needs to be done around here, in preparation of Dad's visit (and pending foster placement on the 20th- Did David call? He said he would.) there are things he could be doing, but he was not yesterday. Messing with computers, "reading news"...... I understand that when I am home from the summer, it screws up his schedule and he does not sleep as well. Still, things need to be done and it would be nice if he would step up and just get it (what he can do) done.
After getting the house together.
Weather permitting, I will need a week to work in the yard.
Two, maybe three days, to scrub this house down.
Plus- final for class this week. Need to work on study guide.
PLS class starts 01 July, 8-5.
Crazy.
23.6.12
Saturday
Could not sleep. I believe it is worry that I will not get things done before Dad arrives.
Supposed to be a yard work day, but it is so dry.
1. Gym this morning.
2. Watered plants- will be doing this all day. 30% of showers tomorrow early morning; I'm crossing my fingers. If we're lucky, we'll get a bit of rain around noon.
3. Continue painting- ceiling in LR (kitchen, if paint left); highlight wall; touch up dark walls in DR.
4. Move furniture in LR to get rug out; move TV and other from DR.
5. Set up DR table.
6. Ceiling fans.
7. Home Depot to restock.
Supposed to be a yard work day, but it is so dry.
1. Gym this morning.
2. Watered plants- will be doing this all day. 30% of showers tomorrow early morning; I'm crossing my fingers. If we're lucky, we'll get a bit of rain around noon.
3. Continue painting- ceiling in LR (kitchen, if paint left); highlight wall; touch up dark walls in DR.
4. Move furniture in LR to get rug out; move TV and other from DR.
5. Set up DR table.
6. Ceiling fans.
7. Home Depot to restock.
21.6.12
Painting
Chugging away at painting.
Most of the ceilings are done- still have touch-up in the living room, and the kitchen still needs paint.
Going to start the walls in the dining room today.
Changed a couple of the paint colors- just a bit "deeper". And David wanted something more "blue", not so much green. Will still work.
I like the lightness now, but maybe a tad too light.
Talking about getting another dog.
I stopped by the shelter yesterday to look at a couple of dogs- poodle and poodle-mix.
Have to make sure to abide by breeds/ breed-mixes that are OK for people with allergies.
But David is right: One project at a time.
Gotta get the house ready for Dad's visit.
Gym schedule going pretty good- nearly three weeks in.
Back to the "Abercrombie" workout- phase 1.
When I can put the time in, the results (thus far) are pretty good.
Still struggling a bit with the "puffy" look, would rather have a strong-lean look, but I'm OK.
Look better in clothes, now to work on looking better with clothes off.
Abs an issue, with specific areas, but the "tire" is lifting.
Still work to do there.
Sent out resumes- no word yet.
Job at Winnebago would be nice (closer), while the others are more politics- thinking that if they call the district for reference, I'll get a call and maybe we'll finally sit down and finally talk about issues.
Spoke with someone from Lambda Legal about Martha's "bullying". Not sure if anything will come of it.
As much as I like my job, I don't like it just the same.
I know that if I get a new job, it won't be "greener", just a different shade of green.
No rain for a while.
Things looking pretty bad outside.
Watering as much as I can, but there is only so much that can be done without a good, long soak.
Two more classes left and then nothing through Concordia until fall.
Signed up for three PLS classes to hopefully rise up a step on the pay scale.
Also classes for Foster care license to do.
Going to be busy.
Otherwise, OK.
Still fighting procrastination a bit.
Sometimes I get into a "loop" that is difficult to break.
David and I having little arguments here and there.
Things to do.
Most of the ceilings are done- still have touch-up in the living room, and the kitchen still needs paint.
Going to start the walls in the dining room today.
Changed a couple of the paint colors- just a bit "deeper". And David wanted something more "blue", not so much green. Will still work.
I like the lightness now, but maybe a tad too light.
Talking about getting another dog.
I stopped by the shelter yesterday to look at a couple of dogs- poodle and poodle-mix.
Have to make sure to abide by breeds/ breed-mixes that are OK for people with allergies.
But David is right: One project at a time.
Gotta get the house ready for Dad's visit.
Gym schedule going pretty good- nearly three weeks in.
Back to the "Abercrombie" workout- phase 1.
When I can put the time in, the results (thus far) are pretty good.
Still struggling a bit with the "puffy" look, would rather have a strong-lean look, but I'm OK.
Look better in clothes, now to work on looking better with clothes off.
Abs an issue, with specific areas, but the "tire" is lifting.
Still work to do there.
Sent out resumes- no word yet.
Job at Winnebago would be nice (closer), while the others are more politics- thinking that if they call the district for reference, I'll get a call and maybe we'll finally sit down and finally talk about issues.
Spoke with someone from Lambda Legal about Martha's "bullying". Not sure if anything will come of it.
As much as I like my job, I don't like it just the same.
I know that if I get a new job, it won't be "greener", just a different shade of green.
No rain for a while.
Things looking pretty bad outside.
Watering as much as I can, but there is only so much that can be done without a good, long soak.
Two more classes left and then nothing through Concordia until fall.
Signed up for three PLS classes to hopefully rise up a step on the pay scale.
Also classes for Foster care license to do.
Going to be busy.
Otherwise, OK.
Still fighting procrastination a bit.
Sometimes I get into a "loop" that is difficult to break.
David and I having little arguments here and there.
Things to do.
19.6.12
Stuck.
Stuck in a bit of a rut.
Set goals to get things done (painting), and, for whatever reason, just not moving.
A bit more than procrastination- What is that?
Somewhat akin to my "self-loathing" mode, at least that is what it feels like.
Choosing a particular direction and then it get caught up in a loop.
Not all that much time to waste- less than a month.
And my schedule gets fuller and fuller as the weeks go by.
Just f'in get the shit done.
Why is it such a deal to follow through?
Set goals to get things done (painting), and, for whatever reason, just not moving.
A bit more than procrastination- What is that?
Somewhat akin to my "self-loathing" mode, at least that is what it feels like.
Choosing a particular direction and then it get caught up in a loop.
Not all that much time to waste- less than a month.
And my schedule gets fuller and fuller as the weeks go by.
Just f'in get the shit done.
Why is it such a deal to follow through?
16.6.12
Rain
Finally, some rain.
Serviceberry trees are not doing well; getting tired of watering everything.
It has been a little over two weeks since the last, and before that, only one day close to an inch.
I was hoping for an hour (according to weather.com), but only about 20 minutes of decent rain- now a bit of a piddle, and then stopped. Temperature dropped 10 degrees. Forecast for rain through 11:30, with possible storm. I can only hope.
Over at Nancy's the past couple of mornings helping with her garage sale.
Makes me thing that maybe we should have one, but then again, no.
Another coat of paint on the ceiling of the dining room. Will need to do one more.
A lot brighter in here with the white.
Need to get more paint.
Month minus one and counting.
Serviceberry trees are not doing well; getting tired of watering everything.
It has been a little over two weeks since the last, and before that, only one day close to an inch.
I was hoping for an hour (according to weather.com), but only about 20 minutes of decent rain- now a bit of a piddle, and then stopped. Temperature dropped 10 degrees. Forecast for rain through 11:30, with possible storm. I can only hope.
Over at Nancy's the past couple of mornings helping with her garage sale.
Makes me thing that maybe we should have one, but then again, no.
Another coat of paint on the ceiling of the dining room. Will need to do one more.
A lot brighter in here with the white.
Need to get more paint.
Month minus one and counting.
14.6.12
Beginning
Bit of a tiff with David last night.
Mind is churning.
Not sure where it will lead, but something tells me it is the beginning of something.
Mind is churning.
Not sure where it will lead, but something tells me it is the beginning of something.
13.6.12
Disgusted.
About four days late, if not more, going to clean this house come Hell or high water.
I'm thinking it has been two weeks or so.
Even I am disgusted with the dirt and dust and otherwise disarray.
If I procrastinate any more, I'll be disgusted with myself- just get the shit done.
I'm thinking it has been two weeks or so.
Even I am disgusted with the dirt and dust and otherwise disarray.
If I procrastinate any more, I'll be disgusted with myself- just get the shit done.
12.6.12
Slow day.
A bit off this week thus far:
Yesterday, no gym, vitamins and binge on chips.
With Sara, went to 'burbs for dentist and then grocery shopping (Trader Joes and Whole Foods).
Napped.
Signed up for PLS classes to be BA 20 by start of school year.
Today, doubled-up on gym.
Rest of day is a bit slow thus far.
Not a lot of rain, so watering west yard.
Serviceberry trees are hurting a bit- yellow leaves. Maybe too late.
Have to be slow with it or will have issues with water.
Pared down my list of TTDs today, but the ones from my summer project list are still there.
I know I will get them done, although afraid of making compromises.
Need to get them done.
Confusion with "wedding date."
I thought it was next year, but David said this year.
If it was supposed to be this year and David saw that I was not moving on it and he did not move either, what does that say?
Work issues.
I expected a response to a comment I made and there was none.
What does that say?
Saw a posting for Spanish job at Orangeville.
Emailed principal for application information.
We shall see.
Unsettled state of mind.
Too much to do, too much uncertainty, too much 'blah' and procrastination.
Yesterday, no gym, vitamins and binge on chips.
With Sara, went to 'burbs for dentist and then grocery shopping (Trader Joes and Whole Foods).
Napped.
Signed up for PLS classes to be BA 20 by start of school year.
Today, doubled-up on gym.
Rest of day is a bit slow thus far.
Not a lot of rain, so watering west yard.
Serviceberry trees are hurting a bit- yellow leaves. Maybe too late.
Have to be slow with it or will have issues with water.
Pared down my list of TTDs today, but the ones from my summer project list are still there.
I know I will get them done, although afraid of making compromises.
Need to get them done.
Confusion with "wedding date."
I thought it was next year, but David said this year.
If it was supposed to be this year and David saw that I was not moving on it and he did not move either, what does that say?
Work issues.
I expected a response to a comment I made and there was none.
What does that say?
Saw a posting for Spanish job at Orangeville.
Emailed principal for application information.
We shall see.
Unsettled state of mind.
Too much to do, too much uncertainty, too much 'blah' and procrastination.
9.6.12
Gym, wk 1
First week of gym done.
Did pretty good all school year, but now I am trying to be more precise. I don't like the "puffy" look; rather have the "fit" look. Means I need to lose a bit of weight (seem to always hover around 200) and cut the fat.
Looking better w/ clothes on. Would like to extend that to clothes off.
Produced a list of TTDs, most of which need to be done BEFORE Dad arrives in July.
Need to get it done.
!!STOP procrastinating!!
No rain for a while; worrisome. Maybe Monday.
Watered the plants in the front.
Mom on road trip with Nancy to Monroe, then Florida.
OK. Time to get things done!
Did pretty good all school year, but now I am trying to be more precise. I don't like the "puffy" look; rather have the "fit" look. Means I need to lose a bit of weight (seem to always hover around 200) and cut the fat.
Looking better w/ clothes on. Would like to extend that to clothes off.
Produced a list of TTDs, most of which need to be done BEFORE Dad arrives in July.
Need to get it done.
!!STOP procrastinating!!
No rain for a while; worrisome. Maybe Monday.
Watered the plants in the front.
Mom on road trip with Nancy to Monroe, then Florida.
OK. Time to get things done!
5.6.12
Procrastination will not win!
Realization that procrastination is reining.... not getting as much done as I thought.
Been nearly a week out and things not accomplished.
So much to do.... and I know it. Why am I sitting on my ass?
Need to kick this to the curb and start getting things done!
Been nearly a week out and things not accomplished.
So much to do.... and I know it. Why am I sitting on my ass?
Need to kick this to the curb and start getting things done!
3.6.12
Sunday
Amazed with how getting enough sleep on a regular basis.
Feeling so much better.
Sunday-
Need to get organized with projects and other things.
Some things started, but some pushed on the wayside.
Lots to do.
Feeling so much better.
Sunday-
Need to get organized with projects and other things.
Some things started, but some pushed on the wayside.
Lots to do.
1.6.12
Wonders of sleep
Two nights in a row of eight hours of sleep..... wow.
Such a difference.
I really need to make sure to do this during the school year.
I wonder if that was part of my problem.
Such a difference.
I really need to make sure to do this during the school year.
I wonder if that was part of my problem.
31.5.12
Summer Begins
First day of break...... rain all day thus far, and cold in the high 50s.
Not that I am complaining, as we need the rain.
Makes me concentrate on other things to do, besides yard work.
Lists, lists and more lists.
Class tonight.
Worried about last paper, tonight's presentation, and also a bit bored with the class.
Issues with financial aid not resolved.
Reading to do before class.
I just hope the class does not drag.
Can you believe that I mapped out next year already (last night).
Want to get a good jump-start in planning before the end of summer.
Ideas working.
Lots to do around here, particularly before Dad comes.
Way too much. I wish David would help out a bit more, but it is what it is.
I'll get it done.
Not that I am complaining, as we need the rain.
Makes me concentrate on other things to do, besides yard work.
Lists, lists and more lists.
Class tonight.
Worried about last paper, tonight's presentation, and also a bit bored with the class.
Issues with financial aid not resolved.
Reading to do before class.
I just hope the class does not drag.
Can you believe that I mapped out next year already (last night).
Want to get a good jump-start in planning before the end of summer.
Ideas working.
Lots to do around here, particularly before Dad comes.
Way too much. I wish David would help out a bit more, but it is what it is.
I'll get it done.
28.5.12
Memorial Day
Yard work yesterday....
98 degrees out. Cleaned up front and mowed. Crazy.
A brief storm expected at noon, but otherwise clear and not as hot.
Debating whether to work outside again (a bit sunburn) or indoors (projects abound).
Two more days of school and then done.
Just want it done.
98 degrees out. Cleaned up front and mowed. Crazy.
A brief storm expected at noon, but otherwise clear and not as hot.
Debating whether to work outside again (a bit sunburn) or indoors (projects abound).
Two more days of school and then done.
Just want it done.
26.5.12
Final Stretch
Two more days.
Tuesday- students.
Wednesday- teachers.
Skipped promotion and dance last night.
Rooms already started.
One box left at CSMS, and a handful of things to do at FMS.
Will be out by Tuesday.
List of TTDs for summer, mainly getting ready for Dad's visit (getting house ready).
Rooms to finish; painting.
Lots of gardening.
Grad class, two so far.
Somewhat boring.... the professor gets way off-track, although his stories (former RSD principal) are relevant.
My work group is a mix.... one is really on the ball, one is somewhat like me (participates; has things to say), and the other seems way-off (special ed., does not have the experiences to relate).
I'm concerned about the paper I turned in. After seeing some of the others, I believe mine was lacking. Maybe he'll let me rewrite it.
Started interviews for next paper.
Group project for next week is finished.
I hope to get more focused when school is out.
Class ends end of June, with a month off.
Otherwise OK.
Tuesday- students.
Wednesday- teachers.
Skipped promotion and dance last night.
Rooms already started.
One box left at CSMS, and a handful of things to do at FMS.
Will be out by Tuesday.
List of TTDs for summer, mainly getting ready for Dad's visit (getting house ready).
Rooms to finish; painting.
Lots of gardening.
Grad class, two so far.
Somewhat boring.... the professor gets way off-track, although his stories (former RSD principal) are relevant.
My work group is a mix.... one is really on the ball, one is somewhat like me (participates; has things to say), and the other seems way-off (special ed., does not have the experiences to relate).
I'm concerned about the paper I turned in. After seeing some of the others, I believe mine was lacking. Maybe he'll let me rewrite it.
Started interviews for next paper.
Group project for next week is finished.
I hope to get more focused when school is out.
Class ends end of June, with a month off.
Otherwise OK.
20.5.12
Heat
80s and 90s past couple of days.
Supposed to get a storm later today.
Everything planted (asparagus, rhubarb), but iris project a no-go due to heat.
I am hoping to finished with errands by the time the rain hits- probably not.
Coupons-shower-errands-nap.
And then things to do after that.
Supposed to get a storm later today.
Everything planted (asparagus, rhubarb), but iris project a no-go due to heat.
I am hoping to finished with errands by the time the rain hits- probably not.
Coupons-shower-errands-nap.
And then things to do after that.
19.5.12
10 days
10 days left- next week, and then the following through the 30th (Wednesday).
Started moving stuff back home a while ago, but yesterday started the big move.
Two rooms- a lot of stuff, but less than the norm.
Last bit of grading to do.
Fiesta on Monday- videos.
Tuesday- ?
Wednesday & Thursday- ? (field trips/ activities abound).
Friday- 8th grade pool party, promotion and dance. (Skipping this year).
Lots of things to do around here.
A little bit of gardening on the agenda, then cleaning the house.
S&R Dance recital tonight.
Watching Sam.
Bit of an argument w/ David yesterday (over things that need to be done).
Thinking that it was the beginning of an eruption- like a mini-flow before the big event.
We shall see.
Started moving stuff back home a while ago, but yesterday started the big move.
Two rooms- a lot of stuff, but less than the norm.
Last bit of grading to do.
Fiesta on Monday- videos.
Tuesday- ?
Wednesday & Thursday- ? (field trips/ activities abound).
Friday- 8th grade pool party, promotion and dance. (Skipping this year).
Lots of things to do around here.
A little bit of gardening on the agenda, then cleaning the house.
S&R Dance recital tonight.
Watching Sam.
Bit of an argument w/ David yesterday (over things that need to be done).
Thinking that it was the beginning of an eruption- like a mini-flow before the big event.
We shall see.
14.5.12
Monday- Personal Day
Just a bit guilty taking today off, and debated on Friday if I should cancel it.
5th grade is working on their study guides and 8th grade has the last unit exam.
Don't really need to be there, as these activities pretty much run themselves.
My argument was that I needed the day off- attempting to stifle this "burn out" before the char.
Besides, I really need a three-day weekend every once in awhile to get things done.
Long list of things to do:
Contractor coming today to get the trim done and fix the ceiling- around 8.
I need to clean and organize, not to mention I am behind on painting. Ceiling fans still not installed. Old sectional still here. IKEA table still in boxes.
Yard work- irises, weeds, clean up beds.
Things for work.
Calls to make.
Dad coming in two months and SO MUCH TO DO.
Veggie garden started.
Rototiller was a good thing, although now I have to clean it.
I think Sara is being a bit overzealous this year with her "square foot" gardening philosophy, but we'll see. Her plans look a bit over-crowded.
Grad school began last Thursday.
Not 100% sold, but will do it (as long as I can get the financial aid).
Does not seem very organized and not a fan of the "workshop"/ group-project things.
Things to do. Things to do.
5th grade is working on their study guides and 8th grade has the last unit exam.
Don't really need to be there, as these activities pretty much run themselves.
My argument was that I needed the day off- attempting to stifle this "burn out" before the char.
Besides, I really need a three-day weekend every once in awhile to get things done.
Long list of things to do:
Contractor coming today to get the trim done and fix the ceiling- around 8.
I need to clean and organize, not to mention I am behind on painting. Ceiling fans still not installed. Old sectional still here. IKEA table still in boxes.
Yard work- irises, weeds, clean up beds.
Things for work.
Calls to make.
Dad coming in two months and SO MUCH TO DO.
Veggie garden started.
Rototiller was a good thing, although now I have to clean it.
I think Sara is being a bit overzealous this year with her "square foot" gardening philosophy, but we'll see. Her plans look a bit over-crowded.
Grad school began last Thursday.
Not 100% sold, but will do it (as long as I can get the financial aid).
Does not seem very organized and not a fan of the "workshop"/ group-project things.
Things to do. Things to do.
13.5.12
Mother's Day
Mom in Montreal.
Which is just fine, as yesterday I accomplished NOTHING- sucked into the FB vortex, tv naps, putzing around with little purpose.
Gotta get things done today.
Which is just fine, as yesterday I accomplished NOTHING- sucked into the FB vortex, tv naps, putzing around with little purpose.
Gotta get things done today.
12.5.12
Another 3-day weekend
Personal day Monday.
Weekend is packed with things to do.
Procrastinating for about an hour now.
Got to get things done.
Weekend is packed with things to do.
Procrastinating for about an hour now.
Got to get things done.
6.5.12
Sunday
Worked in garden all day yesterday...... weeding, planting, trimming, iris groupings, emptied compost, etc.
First time looked at clock, I thought it was 2'ish, but was already after 4.
Almost dark when finished.
Still so much to do out there.
Today, gonna be a bit of a mad-rush to get things done.
Errands and need to clean the house.
Lessons still to do.
Painting projects abound unattended.
Class starts this week- every Thursday for two years.
Last week of lessons, then week of exams, then a week of "whatever" and then done.
Gotta get through it.
First time looked at clock, I thought it was 2'ish, but was already after 4.
Almost dark when finished.
Still so much to do out there.
Today, gonna be a bit of a mad-rush to get things done.
Errands and need to clean the house.
Lessons still to do.
Painting projects abound unattended.
Class starts this week- every Thursday for two years.
Last week of lessons, then week of exams, then a week of "whatever" and then done.
Gotta get through it.
5.5.12
Cinco de mayo
When I take a step back, I see that thinks are pretty much OK; whereas, when I feel that I am in the thick of it, I feel overwhelmed.
Which is the reality?
Oh, what webs we weave.
Which is the reality?
Oh, what webs we weave.
29.4.12
Sunday
Finished up grading and lessons yesterday (pretty much all I did), so today is housework day.
Dad and Jennifer visiting in July.... so much to do.
Dad and Jennifer visiting in July.... so much to do.
28.4.12
Quite the week.
Monday- off
Tuesday- Serious catch-up.
Wednesday- Possible drunk/ hung over teacher at CSM; posturing-parent meeting
Thursday- Way-off day (due to meeting); Finally spoke to Nick about concerns.
Friday- Less-off, but not fully together; Meeting at central office about teacher (Wed).
Still not together, but better.
Parent meeting went OK, but mother was posturing and somewhat intimidating/ bullying (she is an attorney). Glad I had another staff member there.
Mother was right on many points, but blamed me for the short-comings of her children in my class (lazy, disorganized, not engaged).
Will do what I have to do to fix things, but cannot do every thing she asked for- just no time and children do not know enough Spanish.
Keep drawing lines in the sand and then stepping over them and redrawing.
Goes back and back and back.
Eventually, I'm going to run out of sand.
The fact that I am unhappy in many areas of life is frightening.
What is more frightening is that I am not doing much to fix it.
I take the reactionary passive-aggressive stance, instead of proactive.
What the hell am I doing?
Tuesday- Serious catch-up.
Wednesday- Possible drunk/ hung over teacher at CSM; posturing-parent meeting
Thursday- Way-off day (due to meeting); Finally spoke to Nick about concerns.
Friday- Less-off, but not fully together; Meeting at central office about teacher (Wed).
Still not together, but better.
Parent meeting went OK, but mother was posturing and somewhat intimidating/ bullying (she is an attorney). Glad I had another staff member there.
Mother was right on many points, but blamed me for the short-comings of her children in my class (lazy, disorganized, not engaged).
Will do what I have to do to fix things, but cannot do every thing she asked for- just no time and children do not know enough Spanish.
Keep drawing lines in the sand and then stepping over them and redrawing.
Goes back and back and back.
Eventually, I'm going to run out of sand.
The fact that I am unhappy in many areas of life is frightening.
What is more frightening is that I am not doing much to fix it.
I take the reactionary passive-aggressive stance, instead of proactive.
What the hell am I doing?
23.4.12
Monday-off
Slept a bit later than anticipated.
Still "foggy" from being sick (still sick).
Got quite a bit done yesterday, need to finish up today.
Grading-grades-lessons to start, then things around here (cleaning).
Contractor?
Not sure if he's coming today or not for the ceiling and trim.
(If he does- just adds more to my list).
Money, money, money.... issues are beginning.
The momentum is slowing.
I wonder if Aunt J is going to send another $. (crossing my fingers).
Still "foggy" from being sick (still sick).
Got quite a bit done yesterday, need to finish up today.
Grading-grades-lessons to start, then things around here (cleaning).
Contractor?
Not sure if he's coming today or not for the ceiling and trim.
(If he does- just adds more to my list).
Money, money, money.... issues are beginning.
The momentum is slowing.
I wonder if Aunt J is going to send another $. (crossing my fingers).
22.4.12
Sunday
Thus far, not a very productive weekend:
Friday- nothin'
Saturday- mainly nothin'
Still a bit sick (cold started Monday), which is making me very tired (and moody), but really no excuse.
Had great expectations to get things done, and not stepping up to the challenge.
Today will be busy.
As will tomorrow (day off).
Still, the plate is too full.
Friday- nothin'
Saturday- mainly nothin'
Still a bit sick (cold started Monday), which is making me very tired (and moody), but really no excuse.
Had great expectations to get things done, and not stepping up to the challenge.
Today will be busy.
As will tomorrow (day off).
Still, the plate is too full.
21.4.12
Three-day weekend
Took personal day for Monday.
(First time ever- which says something about this year.)
Another one scheduled for 14 May.
Not sure if I have to "pay" for them ($85), but nevertheless, I'm hoping the time will be worth it.
Long list of TTDs this weekend.
Gonna get things done- or die trying.
(First time ever- which says something about this year.)
Another one scheduled for 14 May.
Not sure if I have to "pay" for them ($85), but nevertheless, I'm hoping the time will be worth it.
Long list of TTDs this weekend.
Gonna get things done- or die trying.
15.4.12
Sunday
Feeling a bit better, but still "off".
House is such a pit.
Dusty, disorganized, etc.
Half-completed projects.
Couple of weeks since it all got a good scrub.
Maybe today.
Yard work and mowed yesterday.
Tackled a couple of areas for weeds.
Need to get lessons done and clean.
Mom might stop by.
They posted the social studies position at CS.
Signed up for grad school- Concordia. Two-year program for Type 75.
Maybe doctorate after that.
Otherwise, still "blah".
Seven weeks of school left.... gotta get moving!
House is such a pit.
Dusty, disorganized, etc.
Half-completed projects.
Couple of weeks since it all got a good scrub.
Maybe today.
Yard work and mowed yesterday.
Tackled a couple of areas for weeds.
Need to get lessons done and clean.
Mom might stop by.
They posted the social studies position at CS.
Signed up for grad school- Concordia. Two-year program for Type 75.
Maybe doctorate after that.
Otherwise, still "blah".
Seven weeks of school left.... gotta get moving!
14.4.12
Mood
Hit sometime yesterday:
Drawing too many lines in the sand and then retreating.
David and I are on two different pages, and I'm beginning to think, perhaps, two completely different books.
Growing tired of living life "alone".
Different schedules; different desires; different goals.
Hate my job.
But hate it more that I am (really) not doing anything about it.
Drawing too many lines in the sand and then retreating.
David and I are on two different pages, and I'm beginning to think, perhaps, two completely different books.
Growing tired of living life "alone".
Different schedules; different desires; different goals.
Hate my job.
But hate it more that I am (really) not doing anything about it.
9.4.12
Final push...
Last day of break.
Accomplished a lot, but not everything on the list.
Procrastination was an issue, mainly, not being able to kick into gear at the start.
Still, a lot done.
Yesterday, planted the fruit trees, and that was pretty much it.
Sara over for a bit, planning the vegetable garden- she makes it all so complicated.
Today, catching up with odds and ends and work stuff.
But first, a shower, since somehow I skipped that yesterday.
Accomplished a lot, but not everything on the list.
Procrastination was an issue, mainly, not being able to kick into gear at the start.
Still, a lot done.
Yesterday, planted the fruit trees, and that was pretty much it.
Sara over for a bit, planning the vegetable garden- she makes it all so complicated.
Today, catching up with odds and ends and work stuff.
But first, a shower, since somehow I skipped that yesterday.
8.4.12
Easter
Finished up first coats in dining room/ library and front room.
Got a late start (procrastinating), so not as much done as I wanted to.
After getting ceilings done, I'll put on second coats.
So much still to do!
Chris, new contractor, stopped by yesterday to take a look at job for new floor moldings and ceiling repair.
David has yet to move on the bedrooms.
Getting aggravating, but just leaving it alone.
Eventually, I will just do it, but not today.
Yard work today.
New fruit trees came in- so going to plant today (can't wait for landscaper).
Crimson has two fruit trees on their agenda for me, so that will make nine, with one space left over.
They also have some cleanup to do.
Weeding and edging today as well.
Sara might stop by so we can plan the veggie garden.
Otherwise, feeling OK.
Got a late start (procrastinating), so not as much done as I wanted to.
After getting ceilings done, I'll put on second coats.
So much still to do!
Chris, new contractor, stopped by yesterday to take a look at job for new floor moldings and ceiling repair.
David has yet to move on the bedrooms.
Getting aggravating, but just leaving it alone.
Eventually, I will just do it, but not today.
Yard work today.
New fruit trees came in- so going to plant today (can't wait for landscaper).
Crimson has two fruit trees on their agenda for me, so that will make nine, with one space left over.
They also have some cleanup to do.
Weeding and edging today as well.
Sara might stop by so we can plan the veggie garden.
Otherwise, feeling OK.
7.4.12
Saturday
Final few days of spring break....
My TTD list is still a bit too long for comfort, but some things have been accomplished.
Been pretty much productive, minus two days.
Today- a few "payday" items and finish up painting (as much as can be done).
Tomorrow- yard work day.
Monday- prep for school (grading, lessons) and cleaning.
Getting used to not having Eva around- been 48 hours.
No tears thus far today.
David seems to be OK as well.
Gym schedule has faltered a bit.
Been going during break, but focus is lacking.
Things to do; things to do.
My TTD list is still a bit too long for comfort, but some things have been accomplished.
Been pretty much productive, minus two days.
Today- a few "payday" items and finish up painting (as much as can be done).
Tomorrow- yard work day.
Monday- prep for school (grading, lessons) and cleaning.
Getting used to not having Eva around- been 48 hours.
No tears thus far today.
David seems to be OK as well.
Gym schedule has faltered a bit.
Been going during break, but focus is lacking.
Things to do; things to do.
6.4.12
Good Friday, very quiet.
Quiet around here.
When we put Eva down, we did not stay like we did with Candi.
I kissed her good bye and left the room before they administered the muscle relaxer.
David peeked in and said she curled up like she was sleeping- I couldn't look.
We left before they put her down.
I know we did the right thing. It was obvious she was having breathing issues.
I don't think she was able to sleep more than 10-15 minutes at a time before she would wake gasping for breath.
I am rationalizing that it was better to do it a day too early rather than a day too late.
I hope we did not keep her in any pain by keeping her around longer than we should have.
I hope she was able to relax and was not frightened.
I hope she understood that we loved her and will miss her.
David's routine is broken a bit.
Not sure how he is really coping.
He was there at her beginning (birthed her) and end. Must be a very emotional thing.
I have my moments.
Tears come and go- not a big sob (unlike Candi, where I was more of a mess).
It will be a little while before the sense normalcy returns.
(Rather, a new normalcy without pets.)
When we put Eva down, we did not stay like we did with Candi.
I kissed her good bye and left the room before they administered the muscle relaxer.
David peeked in and said she curled up like she was sleeping- I couldn't look.
We left before they put her down.
I know we did the right thing. It was obvious she was having breathing issues.
I don't think she was able to sleep more than 10-15 minutes at a time before she would wake gasping for breath.
I am rationalizing that it was better to do it a day too early rather than a day too late.
I hope we did not keep her in any pain by keeping her around longer than we should have.
I hope she was able to relax and was not frightened.
I hope she understood that we loved her and will miss her.
David's routine is broken a bit.
Not sure how he is really coping.
He was there at her beginning (birthed her) and end. Must be a very emotional thing.
I have my moments.
Tears come and go- not a big sob (unlike Candi, where I was more of a mess).
It will be a little while before the sense normalcy returns.
(Rather, a new normalcy without pets.)
5.4.12
Jueves Santo
Today looks like it is the day.
Holy Thursday is the day of the Last Supper, where Christ bid farewell.
An appropriate day as any.
Appt at 4:30.
Gonna be lonely around here.
Holy Thursday is the day of the Last Supper, where Christ bid farewell.
An appropriate day as any.
Appt at 4:30.
Gonna be lonely around here.
4.4.12
Wednesday
A bit of sunburn from working in the yard all day yesterday (top of head).
Front is cleaned up and edged and path clean of mulch.
Area around back deck is done.
Indoor projects today- painting.
Sadly, Eva is on her last days.
A bit of a break down yesterday, but better today.
Front is cleaned up and edged and path clean of mulch.
Area around back deck is done.
Indoor projects today- painting.
Sadly, Eva is on her last days.
A bit of a break down yesterday, but better today.
3.4.12
Tuesday, day 4
Mowed yesterday, and then some painting.
Debating inside or outside projects today.
So many weeds- need to get that done.
David still not done (even really started) with things he said he'd do, so painting is stalled. Still enough little pain jobs to keep me busy.
Mom might come up today.
Guess it will be a yard work day.
Debating inside or outside projects today.
So many weeds- need to get that done.
David still not done (even really started) with things he said he'd do, so painting is stalled. Still enough little pain jobs to keep me busy.
Mom might come up today.
Guess it will be a yard work day.
1.4.12
Sunday, Day 2 of break
Second part of hall painted yesterday.
Dark (wall going into new dining/ library area), and a bit more green than anticipated. Looks good, but now lighter color looks a bit off. Planning to paint back wall the "medium" shade, which will hopefully add continuity to the space.
A little round with David- the bedroom is not cleaned out.
Trying to decide if this is the "line" or not, as he has had plenty of time to get it done.
Playing both sides in my head.
Back to gym this morning for a double workout, as skipped yesterday.
Feel better (yesterday, I was definitely dragging), but a bit too much going on in my head.
Soggy outside, so inside projects today (painting).
Dark (wall going into new dining/ library area), and a bit more green than anticipated. Looks good, but now lighter color looks a bit off. Planning to paint back wall the "medium" shade, which will hopefully add continuity to the space.
A little round with David- the bedroom is not cleaned out.
Trying to decide if this is the "line" or not, as he has had plenty of time to get it done.
Playing both sides in my head.
Back to gym this morning for a double workout, as skipped yesterday.
Feel better (yesterday, I was definitely dragging), but a bit too much going on in my head.
Soggy outside, so inside projects today (painting).
31.3.12
Spring Break
Saturday- first day of break.
Go back next Tuesday.
Cold and a bit rainy actually, too bad the weather is not as nice as it has been.
Probably slept a good eight hours, nothing close to what I was getting during the week- 6, maybe 7.
No gym today. Taking the day off.
Feel like I have been running at full steam for a while and just need a little break.
Work is work.
Social Studies position might be available at CSMS and I'll apply for it. Does not mean that I will get it.
Where does that leave Spanish? Who knows. I just have to get out of the Department.
Mainly, the act of applying is to just make a point.
My personal days were approved, so I have a day in April and May.
Curriculum meeting the Friday after break.
Projects on the agenda for break.
We shall see how much gets accomplished.
Not having a wad of cash hinders the momentum. (Will she send another check?)
Meeting with Patty went OK.
I was purposely late so David would have to field any questions, but of course Patty waited until I arrived to ask what happened with the potential placement a couple of weeks ago.
David lied to me about called the boy's case worker- at least, he did not say he did when Patty asked.
We'll see if he steps up to get the things done this week that he said he would get done. Thus far, I'm not seeing it.
Day of reckoning coming?
Go back next Tuesday.
Cold and a bit rainy actually, too bad the weather is not as nice as it has been.
Probably slept a good eight hours, nothing close to what I was getting during the week- 6, maybe 7.
No gym today. Taking the day off.
Feel like I have been running at full steam for a while and just need a little break.
Work is work.
Social Studies position might be available at CSMS and I'll apply for it. Does not mean that I will get it.
Where does that leave Spanish? Who knows. I just have to get out of the Department.
Mainly, the act of applying is to just make a point.
My personal days were approved, so I have a day in April and May.
Curriculum meeting the Friday after break.
Projects on the agenda for break.
We shall see how much gets accomplished.
Not having a wad of cash hinders the momentum. (Will she send another check?)
Meeting with Patty went OK.
I was purposely late so David would have to field any questions, but of course Patty waited until I arrived to ask what happened with the potential placement a couple of weeks ago.
David lied to me about called the boy's case worker- at least, he did not say he did when Patty asked.
We'll see if he steps up to get the things done this week that he said he would get done. Thus far, I'm not seeing it.
Day of reckoning coming?
24.3.12
Spring in bloom
Yard looks amazing with so many blooms....
Serviceberry trees, plum, cherry, pear and the bulbs. Magnolias very soon and apples as well.
Looks like the blueberries, raspberries, currants, strawberries, grape and kiwi (?) survived the winter. Thus far, I believe the acai did not.
Deciding on what else to order- maybe gooseberry, and more fruit trees.
Weeding is obviously on the agenda, and yard will need to be mowed.
Maybe get the fountain going as well.
Otherwise, project slowdown during the week- no progress.
Patty sent notice for an inspection. I am going to throw it into David's court.
He needs to pick a date when he is going to be ready. I'm tired of being disappointed because he he does not follow through in a timely manner. Maybe if he picks the date, he will step up and get things done.
It's only been a year- really, when is he going to get it together (on this project)?
Of course, he could call it off, but then where does that leave "us"?
How much/ many of my desires in life must be stifled?
Final week of school before break.
Not quite sure how to play it- plans done, but somewhat loose.
Also submitted for two personal days- late in the year, so not quite sure if I will get them.
Would be nice to have a couple of three-day weekends to get things done before school is over.
Recent day for "final day" is May 29th for students. Not sure if Board approved yet.
Serviceberry trees, plum, cherry, pear and the bulbs. Magnolias very soon and apples as well.
Looks like the blueberries, raspberries, currants, strawberries, grape and kiwi (?) survived the winter. Thus far, I believe the acai did not.
Deciding on what else to order- maybe gooseberry, and more fruit trees.
Weeding is obviously on the agenda, and yard will need to be mowed.
Maybe get the fountain going as well.
Otherwise, project slowdown during the week- no progress.
Patty sent notice for an inspection. I am going to throw it into David's court.
He needs to pick a date when he is going to be ready. I'm tired of being disappointed because he he does not follow through in a timely manner. Maybe if he picks the date, he will step up and get things done.
It's only been a year- really, when is he going to get it together (on this project)?
Of course, he could call it off, but then where does that leave "us"?
How much/ many of my desires in life must be stifled?
Final week of school before break.
Not quite sure how to play it- plans done, but somewhat loose.
Also submitted for two personal days- late in the year, so not quite sure if I will get them.
Would be nice to have a couple of three-day weekends to get things done before school is over.
Recent day for "final day" is May 29th for students. Not sure if Board approved yet.
21.3.12
Heatwave!
Wednesday, 21 March and still in the 80s.
Reprieve tomorrow in the 70s, and then cooler for a couple of days, but nothing near the norm for this time of year.
Tidal Basin Cherries blooming, blood root, even some tulips.
Crocus done and daffodils still going. Red buds will start very soon.
10 days until spring break.
If my current emotional state is any indication of what will come next week, it is going to be crazy.
Reprieve tomorrow in the 70s, and then cooler for a couple of days, but nothing near the norm for this time of year.
Tidal Basin Cherries blooming, blood root, even some tulips.
Crocus done and daffodils still going. Red buds will start very soon.
10 days until spring break.
If my current emotional state is any indication of what will come next week, it is going to be crazy.
18.3.12
New Approach
Yesterday.... like pulling teeth to get school work done.
Smoked like a fiend- pack.
That is pretty much all that was accomplished.
Today, projects:
Painting the hall and bedrooms (first and master).
I'm hoping to get it done in a few days.
Trying a different approach with David. We shall see how it work.
Smoked like a fiend- pack.
That is pretty much all that was accomplished.
Today, projects:
Painting the hall and bedrooms (first and master).
I'm hoping to get it done in a few days.
Trying a different approach with David. We shall see how it work.
17.3.12
Heatwave
Third week of March and we're in the upper 70s, even 80.
Got a whiff of humidity and the smell of mulch this morning, reminding me of Monroe.
Temps to continue next week and then return to something close to normal.
Crocus and daffodils blooming in the back already.
The week was what it was.
At work, I spoke to Ms. Hawkins about what I've been feeling about work. Was not as direct as predicted, but she seemed to understand. My intention was to ask for a reference, but could not do it. Still, mood still wains, cancelling club meetings, Spain 2013 and declining the summer Spanish class- just not feeling it anymore.
Still a bit on edge at home, but being somewhat ignorant.
If I want things done, I can not wait for David, I just need to do it. Either he will get on board or not.
I feel somewhat on the brink; Once again, he is not following through in a timely manner, and I tired of it.
Right now, too soon to tell what will be accomplished this weekend.
Did nothing yesterday after work, but I should have at least gotten some work done.
So today will be work this morning, followed by projects to catch up. (Perhaps he will follow my lead, or not- or will lead to argument.)
I do feel so much better after the gym, but again, could just be ignorance.
Got a whiff of humidity and the smell of mulch this morning, reminding me of Monroe.
Temps to continue next week and then return to something close to normal.
Crocus and daffodils blooming in the back already.
The week was what it was.
At work, I spoke to Ms. Hawkins about what I've been feeling about work. Was not as direct as predicted, but she seemed to understand. My intention was to ask for a reference, but could not do it. Still, mood still wains, cancelling club meetings, Spain 2013 and declining the summer Spanish class- just not feeling it anymore.
Still a bit on edge at home, but being somewhat ignorant.
If I want things done, I can not wait for David, I just need to do it. Either he will get on board or not.
I feel somewhat on the brink; Once again, he is not following through in a timely manner, and I tired of it.
Right now, too soon to tell what will be accomplished this weekend.
Did nothing yesterday after work, but I should have at least gotten some work done.
So today will be work this morning, followed by projects to catch up. (Perhaps he will follow my lead, or not- or will lead to argument.)
I do feel so much better after the gym, but again, could just be ignorance.
11.3.12
Disappointed
We had a meet-and-greet yesterday with a possible placement, Anthony, 8yrs old, 2nd grade, Caucasian. A couple of issues, but generally OK.
David is not on board, and I am thinking that he never will.
Excuse after excuse and no movement on things that he said he would take care of.
I believe it is the last page of the chapter.
David is not on board, and I am thinking that he never will.
Excuse after excuse and no movement on things that he said he would take care of.
I believe it is the last page of the chapter.
4.3.12
Another 12 hour "nap"
Went to be around 6 yesterday, up around midnight and then back to bed until around 6 this morning.
Shower (since did not take one yesterday- absolute lazy day) and then gym.
Feeling better overall, but something is "off"- can't put my finger on it.
Shower (since did not take one yesterday- absolute lazy day) and then gym.
Feeling better overall, but something is "off"- can't put my finger on it.
3.3.12
Countdown
Stayed up way too late last night (grading) and went to bed without setting the alarm. Nine hours of sleep, no gym, and procrastinating a bit.
No TTD list ready.
Maybe I'll take a nap.
Countdown has begun. I think we're at 12 weeks (more or less) until school is out.
Next week is ISAT, then week of quarter exams. Including Spring Break, I think 12 weeks is correct.
I asked for approximate last day- last week of May, but not official as of yet.
Excited for the end to come, but feel a bit bad at the same time for being so "summer forward."
ISAT schedule is nuts.
I am not proctoring, rather I am "relief" and I have to cover classes that I have no interest in doing.
Not going to see my 2nd hour (sub) and my 3rd hour is not meeting at all. Crazy.
Another curriculum meeting this Friday.
Spain 2013?
Thus far, little interest. I will set one up and we'll see.
After talking to students, requests for Barcelona and the beach, so I am thinking Barcelona-Madrid- the south.
It can go either way; I'm not all that invested.
Had New Leaf construction around for kitchen estimate. Looking at 50G, which is probably accurate, but is high comparative to the value of the house. Needs to be done.
Not that we have the money right now (who knows if Aunt Jean is going to send another check, which we should be be anticipating anyway).
New handyman estimate for other projects, just to get the momentum started again.
Late winter snow storm hit yesterday afternoon. Pretty, but very cold. Heavy, wet snow, and now frozen over.
Narcissus bulbs already crowning in the warm spot in back near the deck.
Will be warm again next week.
Just gotta get through it.
No TTD list ready.
Maybe I'll take a nap.
Countdown has begun. I think we're at 12 weeks (more or less) until school is out.
Next week is ISAT, then week of quarter exams. Including Spring Break, I think 12 weeks is correct.
I asked for approximate last day- last week of May, but not official as of yet.
Excited for the end to come, but feel a bit bad at the same time for being so "summer forward."
ISAT schedule is nuts.
I am not proctoring, rather I am "relief" and I have to cover classes that I have no interest in doing.
Not going to see my 2nd hour (sub) and my 3rd hour is not meeting at all. Crazy.
Another curriculum meeting this Friday.
Spain 2013?
Thus far, little interest. I will set one up and we'll see.
After talking to students, requests for Barcelona and the beach, so I am thinking Barcelona-Madrid- the south.
It can go either way; I'm not all that invested.
Had New Leaf construction around for kitchen estimate. Looking at 50G, which is probably accurate, but is high comparative to the value of the house. Needs to be done.
Not that we have the money right now (who knows if Aunt Jean is going to send another check, which we should be be anticipating anyway).
New handyman estimate for other projects, just to get the momentum started again.
Late winter snow storm hit yesterday afternoon. Pretty, but very cold. Heavy, wet snow, and now frozen over.
Narcissus bulbs already crowning in the warm spot in back near the deck.
Will be warm again next week.
Just gotta get through it.
26.2.12
Sunday
Yesterday felt like Sunday, whereas today feels like something else. Not quite a Monday, but not a Sunday.
Friday (snow day), I did not get much accomplished. Really a lazy day.
Yesterday, being like a Sunday, ran my bi-weekly errands and finished lessons up.
Today, cleaning and projects on the agenda.
I am hoping to get the ceiling painted in the hall and work on the bedroom- cleaning out and organizing.
Friday (snow day), I did not get much accomplished. Really a lazy day.
Yesterday, being like a Sunday, ran my bi-weekly errands and finished lessons up.
Today, cleaning and projects on the agenda.
I am hoping to get the ceiling painted in the hall and work on the bedroom- cleaning out and organizing.
24.2.12
Snow Day
Of course, after I return from the gym this morning, David tells me that there is no school.
Local news was on at Snap, with the announcement that Dakota and Orangeville cancelled classes before 5:45 when I got into the shower.
Would have stayed at the gym longer if I had known; only did elliptical.
So now 8:15 and have made my list of TTDs, not wanting to waste the day (although have pretty much been procrastinating for an hour) and attempting to get focused to get things done.
Not sure where to start, but will start.
Local news was on at Snap, with the announcement that Dakota and Orangeville cancelled classes before 5:45 when I got into the shower.
Would have stayed at the gym longer if I had known; only did elliptical.
So now 8:15 and have made my list of TTDs, not wanting to waste the day (although have pretty much been procrastinating for an hour) and attempting to get focused to get things done.
Not sure where to start, but will start.
18.2.12
Long Weekend
The 16th was the anniversary of Grandma's death.
Going to see Mom on Sunday.
Bob coming today to pick up Grandma's bookcase to repair & refinish. Looks nice in the hall. Hopefully, it will be back more sooner than later.
Three day weekend.
Friday was 1/2 day, so finished a lot of work at school in the afternoon and not much to do in that area over the weekend. Just lessons.
ISAT testing in a couple of weeks, which is going to screw up the schedule (again).... will we finish the textbook?
I'm thinking that we probably will, fast-tracking the last sections.
As for work.....
Just not quite sure what to do.
Chest x-ray on Monday.
Had some issues previously and went to the doctor last Saturday.
Still having some discomfort (in leg), but who knows- could just be getting "old".
Gym schedule pretty good this week.
Not going today, but will next two days.
Taking a day off is not bad, but two days, as I have been over the weekends, is probably not the best thing to do.
Finally seeing some muscle shape, not just "puffy", but still dealing with "no abs" issue.
How the hell do people get defined abs?
Otherwise...
Going to attempt to tackle projects around here.
Wish me luck.
Going to see Mom on Sunday.
Bob coming today to pick up Grandma's bookcase to repair & refinish. Looks nice in the hall. Hopefully, it will be back more sooner than later.
Three day weekend.
Friday was 1/2 day, so finished a lot of work at school in the afternoon and not much to do in that area over the weekend. Just lessons.
ISAT testing in a couple of weeks, which is going to screw up the schedule (again).... will we finish the textbook?
I'm thinking that we probably will, fast-tracking the last sections.
As for work.....
Just not quite sure what to do.
Chest x-ray on Monday.
Had some issues previously and went to the doctor last Saturday.
Still having some discomfort (in leg), but who knows- could just be getting "old".
Gym schedule pretty good this week.
Not going today, but will next two days.
Taking a day off is not bad, but two days, as I have been over the weekends, is probably not the best thing to do.
Finally seeing some muscle shape, not just "puffy", but still dealing with "no abs" issue.
How the hell do people get defined abs?
Otherwise...
Going to attempt to tackle projects around here.
Wish me luck.
11.2.12
Freezing Saturday
Frigid; a definite return of winter.
Along with a dusting of snow yesterday afternoon.
Brrrr!
Doctor appt this morning- it is about that time, but was having some pain/ chest pain issues on Monday.
Cardiogram was OK, blood work running, and have Rx for other outpatient services, but need to get pre-authorization from insurance before so it will be a while.
Dr. Lee is gone, so saw a Dr. Maloney, who was OK.
Next appt in 8 weeks or so.
Eva vet appt on Thursday (breathing concerns).
Went through with the dental surgery (yesterday) and problem was infections due to lack of dental cleaning. Six teeth removed.
It was a 50-50 thing; potential for not waking up after the surgery due to her age/ condition.
Been 24 hours and she seem OK. Not great, but OK. It will be a couple of days for the swelling to go down and then hopefully she will be able to breath normally.
Work is work is work (and that is all I am going to say).
Grading and lessons to do.
OK with gym this week, but not great.
No movement on projects STILL.
Getting tired of the stall and need to figure something out.
House is a mess (dirty).
Along with a dusting of snow yesterday afternoon.
Brrrr!
Doctor appt this morning- it is about that time, but was having some pain/ chest pain issues on Monday.
Cardiogram was OK, blood work running, and have Rx for other outpatient services, but need to get pre-authorization from insurance before so it will be a while.
Dr. Lee is gone, so saw a Dr. Maloney, who was OK.
Next appt in 8 weeks or so.
Eva vet appt on Thursday (breathing concerns).
Went through with the dental surgery (yesterday) and problem was infections due to lack of dental cleaning. Six teeth removed.
It was a 50-50 thing; potential for not waking up after the surgery due to her age/ condition.
Been 24 hours and she seem OK. Not great, but OK. It will be a couple of days for the swelling to go down and then hopefully she will be able to breath normally.
Work is work is work (and that is all I am going to say).
Grading and lessons to do.
OK with gym this week, but not great.
No movement on projects STILL.
Getting tired of the stall and need to figure something out.
House is a mess (dirty).
5.2.12
4.2.12
February
Weather is nuts.
40's pretty much all week during the day, so other than a handful of "winter" weather days, it has pretty much been a non-winter winter season.
Where is all of the snow of the "record-breaking snow fall" as previously predicted?
Maybe we'll get hit in March or April. Funny if it happens over spring break.
Mood continues the ups and downs.
Slept 12 hours; crashed around 7:30.
Getting 6-7 hours during the week is taking its toll.
Dragging ass a bit today. No gym.
Work is work is work.
Not sure how it is going to pan out, yet I am not feeling the need to get resume and portfolio together.
I should.
Maybe procrastination has moved on to indifference.
No movement on the house front.
We've got to get moving or things are just not going to get done.
David likes things a particular way, so I do not feel that I can just do it (cleaning out bedroom).
Things to do.
40's pretty much all week during the day, so other than a handful of "winter" weather days, it has pretty much been a non-winter winter season.
Where is all of the snow of the "record-breaking snow fall" as previously predicted?
Maybe we'll get hit in March or April. Funny if it happens over spring break.
Mood continues the ups and downs.
Slept 12 hours; crashed around 7:30.
Getting 6-7 hours during the week is taking its toll.
Dragging ass a bit today. No gym.
Work is work is work.
Not sure how it is going to pan out, yet I am not feeling the need to get resume and portfolio together.
I should.
Maybe procrastination has moved on to indifference.
No movement on the house front.
We've got to get moving or things are just not going to get done.
David likes things a particular way, so I do not feel that I can just do it (cleaning out bedroom).
Things to do.
28.1.12
Weekend
Feeling somewhat better.
Double workout at gym today, so feeling good in that arena. A definite difference compared to last weekend, when I skipped it both days. Plan is to do it again tomorrow. Now if I can just get through enough during the week, I'll be all set.
Work is work is work.
Definitely a struggle here. The whole dynamic has changed. Have not figured it all out, but not happy.
But not unhappy enough to work on resume and portfolio. Need a bit of fire under the ass, I guess- I want to be ready if something pops up.
At the curriculum planning meeting, Martha put in a jab and I kept my mouth shut. Of course, my mind is churning. I should have spoke up.
Projects around the house in a stall.
Need to push a bit harder.
Would like to get that bedroom done so we can take in another foster child. Maybe David is procrastinating a bit because he does not want to do it again. He has not said anything, but perhaps that is the case.
Double workout at gym today, so feeling good in that arena. A definite difference compared to last weekend, when I skipped it both days. Plan is to do it again tomorrow. Now if I can just get through enough during the week, I'll be all set.
Work is work is work.
Definitely a struggle here. The whole dynamic has changed. Have not figured it all out, but not happy.
But not unhappy enough to work on resume and portfolio. Need a bit of fire under the ass, I guess- I want to be ready if something pops up.
At the curriculum planning meeting, Martha put in a jab and I kept my mouth shut. Of course, my mind is churning. I should have spoke up.
Projects around the house in a stall.
Need to push a bit harder.
Would like to get that bedroom done so we can take in another foster child. Maybe David is procrastinating a bit because he does not want to do it again. He has not said anything, but perhaps that is the case.
22.1.12
Sunday
Whatever this mood is, it needs to quit.
Either I am way stuck in the in-between or I'm moving towards the deep end.
No gym in two days.... I'm sure that it part of it.
This weather probably does not help either (cold, cold, cold).
Finished lesson plans yesterday morning, with plans to get other things done.... but no. Lazy, lazy and vegged on the sofa. Did not shower until 5. Fell asleep on the sofa around 9, crawled into be around 3 and slept until almost 9.
Today.... things to do.
Gotta snap out of it!
Either I am way stuck in the in-between or I'm moving towards the deep end.
No gym in two days.... I'm sure that it part of it.
This weather probably does not help either (cold, cold, cold).
Finished lesson plans yesterday morning, with plans to get other things done.... but no. Lazy, lazy and vegged on the sofa. Did not shower until 5. Fell asleep on the sofa around 9, crawled into be around 3 and slept until almost 9.
Today.... things to do.
Gotta snap out of it!
21.1.12
21 Saturday
A bit off today.....
No gym.
Trying to get things done, but focus is not quite there.
A couple of emails from Patty about placements.
Perhaps I am a bit sad because we're still not taking kids. There are kids out there that need a place to be and we're on the list, but declining placements (because we can't/ won't/ procrastinate getting things done around here). So where are these kids going- better or worse? I guess I feel that we have an obligation, we "signed up", but not holding up our part of the bargain.
No gym.
Trying to get things done, but focus is not quite there.
A couple of emails from Patty about placements.
Perhaps I am a bit sad because we're still not taking kids. There are kids out there that need a place to be and we're on the list, but declining placements (because we can't/ won't/ procrastinate getting things done around here). So where are these kids going- better or worse? I guess I feel that we have an obligation, we "signed up", but not holding up our part of the bargain.
20.1.12
1/2 snow day
School closed at noon- was out the door by 12:20.
Hour and 1/2 drive home. A moment of white-out and white-knuckle driving due to passing truck that was scary, but got home.
Still snowing a bit. Calling for 3-6 inches.
Hour and 1/2 drive home. A moment of white-out and white-knuckle driving due to passing truck that was scary, but got home.
Still snowing a bit. Calling for 3-6 inches.
16.1.12
Monday, MLK
Happy to have today off.
Still have a slew of grading and prep work to do for work.
Double work out at gym today.
Had to push through second part- but finished it, and feel a sense of accomplishment (mind over matter achievement).
Slowing getting through the "puffy" stage and feeling a bit of hardness in the muscles.
Abs still soft. Not sure what to do for that.
Workouts this week are going to be a bit rough.
Cleaned the house yesterday. Need to get this done on a regular basis- not this bi-weekly (sometimes tri) crap. Way too much dust.
Half of the formal exams are graded. Need to finish those up and then the essays.
Want to get the unit maps done, and then get to the plans for the week.
I need to get a good set going- something for the portfolio.
Nancy coming over later today to help me get organized and work some things out.
Busy day.
Still have a slew of grading and prep work to do for work.
Double work out at gym today.
Had to push through second part- but finished it, and feel a sense of accomplishment (mind over matter achievement).
Slowing getting through the "puffy" stage and feeling a bit of hardness in the muscles.
Abs still soft. Not sure what to do for that.
Workouts this week are going to be a bit rough.
Cleaned the house yesterday. Need to get this done on a regular basis- not this bi-weekly (sometimes tri) crap. Way too much dust.
Half of the formal exams are graded. Need to finish those up and then the essays.
Want to get the unit maps done, and then get to the plans for the week.
I need to get a good set going- something for the portfolio.
Nancy coming over later today to help me get organized and work some things out.
Busy day.
15.1.12
15 Jan
Feeling a bit better today.....
Gym this morning, after taking yesterday off (first time in a month). At first, somewhat not into it, but did move into it after beginning the workout. Into the 5th week, so half-way through the program. Seeing some progress, particularly in the shoulders, but lacking in mid-section (still flabby there). Goal is to be shirtless by summer- and look good.
Procrastination is, and always seems to be, an issue. Too much time on Facebook for sure- the hours WASTED there.
Cleaning house today. School work follows (end of quarter), still need to finish grading exams and post grades and then organize next unit for both sections. Want to have a good guide to be able to put in my portfolio.
Yes, this is probably my last year at FSD, at least that is the plan. Too tired and cranky, if not just "burned-out". At the very least, I would like something closer. If any/ all teaching jobs are going to be like this, at least I won't be spending so much money on driving. We shall see.
Gym this morning, after taking yesterday off (first time in a month). At first, somewhat not into it, but did move into it after beginning the workout. Into the 5th week, so half-way through the program. Seeing some progress, particularly in the shoulders, but lacking in mid-section (still flabby there). Goal is to be shirtless by summer- and look good.
Procrastination is, and always seems to be, an issue. Too much time on Facebook for sure- the hours WASTED there.
Cleaning house today. School work follows (end of quarter), still need to finish grading exams and post grades and then organize next unit for both sections. Want to have a good guide to be able to put in my portfolio.
Yes, this is probably my last year at FSD, at least that is the plan. Too tired and cranky, if not just "burned-out". At the very least, I would like something closer. If any/ all teaching jobs are going to be like this, at least I won't be spending so much money on driving. We shall see.
14.1.12
14 Jan
After sleeping a good 8 hours......
Feeling like I'm still "riding the line".
Something is up.
Feeling like I'm still "riding the line".
Something is up.
13.1.12
Friday 13
Second week back from winter break. Quarter exams finished. Time to start anew.
Way in the "in-between" mood, maybe even a bit past.
Not sure how it is going to turn out.
Bizarre dream last Sunday.....
Hit kid with car; drove-over.
Very unsettling, still.
Tried not to be confrontational at work this week, as recommended by David (weekly horoscope), but harboring those feelings did some damage.
Busy weekend- lots to do.
Three days (MLK Monday).
Way in the "in-between" mood, maybe even a bit past.
Not sure how it is going to turn out.
Bizarre dream last Sunday.....
Hit kid with car; drove-over.
Very unsettling, still.
Tried not to be confrontational at work this week, as recommended by David (weekly horoscope), but harboring those feelings did some damage.
Busy weekend- lots to do.
Three days (MLK Monday).
7.1.12
Back to work
Slept nearly 11 hours last night- crashed on the sofa and up before 6. Definitely needed it; been a rough week.
First of all, I think I've hit "burn out" at work.
I find myself a bit mean with students, really unsympathetic with those that have not demonstrated any desire or work ethic. They want to raise their grade and I am not offering anything; "study for the test", and that is about it. I remind them that they have half the year to turn their grade around, but sadly, most of those asking will not. In class, I am generally going through the motions- not really enthusiastic; doing what I have to do and that is about it.
I am also having rounds with Martha. After submitting my curriculum plan, we are now supposed to meet for a half-day to organize a K-12 plan. If there is no grade school plan nor high school plan, I know this meeting will not be productive, so I've opted out (because there are no plans). Now the meeting is mandatory and I am still kicking and screaming. If I have to go, I guess I'll have to. Won't be a happy day.
I've begun a new resume and organizing portfolio materials.
Second, David and I are on edge.
I'm sure part of it is a carry-over from work. Pretty much in a bad mood, tired, cranky when I return home.
There is also the issue of the house projects. Been a long time and still hanging around the finish line. Bathrooms not 100% yet (still waiting for Nate, electrician, plumber).
But then there is something else. He is looking for recognition, and I am not giving it. I can, and I know I should, but I'm not. What is that about?
Finally, I'm feeling a bit tired of life.
It is the combination of work and David, but then also my own reflections upon my life.
What is happiness, really?
What do I want to do?
Why am I such a procrastinator?
What is the feeling of being "complete"?
How many regrets/ failures am I just going to accept?
Mind is churning, obviously.
Going to be an interesting time.
First of all, I think I've hit "burn out" at work.
I find myself a bit mean with students, really unsympathetic with those that have not demonstrated any desire or work ethic. They want to raise their grade and I am not offering anything; "study for the test", and that is about it. I remind them that they have half the year to turn their grade around, but sadly, most of those asking will not. In class, I am generally going through the motions- not really enthusiastic; doing what I have to do and that is about it.
I am also having rounds with Martha. After submitting my curriculum plan, we are now supposed to meet for a half-day to organize a K-12 plan. If there is no grade school plan nor high school plan, I know this meeting will not be productive, so I've opted out (because there are no plans). Now the meeting is mandatory and I am still kicking and screaming. If I have to go, I guess I'll have to. Won't be a happy day.
I've begun a new resume and organizing portfolio materials.
Second, David and I are on edge.
I'm sure part of it is a carry-over from work. Pretty much in a bad mood, tired, cranky when I return home.
There is also the issue of the house projects. Been a long time and still hanging around the finish line. Bathrooms not 100% yet (still waiting for Nate, electrician, plumber).
But then there is something else. He is looking for recognition, and I am not giving it. I can, and I know I should, but I'm not. What is that about?
Finally, I'm feeling a bit tired of life.
It is the combination of work and David, but then also my own reflections upon my life.
What is happiness, really?
What do I want to do?
Why am I such a procrastinator?
What is the feeling of being "complete"?
How many regrets/ failures am I just going to accept?
Mind is churning, obviously.
Going to be an interesting time.
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