5.1.14

05 January

Big freeze starts today, going to the -30s, -40s, maybe even -50.  Anticipating no school tomorrow, and perhaps Tuesday as well.  Ridiculous to be waiting for an official call.

Reflecting on day 2: New beginning: turn this shit around.
A bit overreaching; not realistic.
This is better: Do things that make you happy.

Day 3: Decide on one positive habit you’d like to implement in your life. Whether seemingly mundane (like flossing) or perhaps life-altering (exercising every day), think of something you’d like to add to your life that will be beneficial. Then, think about the steps you’ll take to get there, and how you’ll keep yourself accountable.

I have a slew of habits that have gone by the wayside.  Not sure where to start, but need to start somewhere: Flossing.  Easily something that can be done, but not always done. 

Day 4: Via negativia; today, pick a habit that you’d like to eliminate from your life. Bad habits are like armpits, we all have ‘em and they all stink. Whether cutting soda out of your life, or putting a stop to your porn addiction; either way, as with yesterday, think about the steps you’ll take in order to put the kibosh on that negative habit. And again, also think about how you’ll keep yourself accountable to that goal.

Picked up a few bad habits...  Have been working on the smoking since June, and now down to one a day.  Not perfect, but comfortable.  Give up soda and drink more water.  Done it before, can do it again.

Day 5: Write a letter to a loved one. Chances are high that there is someone in your life that you’d like to say something important to. Maybe it’s a wife, a parent, a grandparent you never really got to say goodbye to…take the time today to write that out. It can be positive, negative, or anywhere in between. The beauty of this letter is that you aren’t sending it in the mail, you’re simply “voicing” something that needs to be said. Should you choose to share it later, that’s okay, but you don’t have to. Doing this can be a great way to heal anger that’s been pent up inside, or to release a pressure valve of sadness we may have been harboring over something lost.

David,
I thank you for the many experiences we have shared and continue to share, but sadly, I am not very happy anymore.  I see the unhappiness in you as well.  I can point the blame at you, and you can point it at me; a pointless exercise and there is nothing to be gained from it.
Sadly, we are going to continue to do this dance, missing out on experiences if we went solo, but we feel "safe" with what we have, so that is what it will be.  At least for now.  And I am OK with that.
Jason

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