Autumn Aggravation

Whatever this mood is, it has not been good.
Irritation in many realms.
The internal path I'm on is very rocky.
Tired both physically and emotionally.
Continual disappointments.

Questioning many things....
Maybe I'm through with teaching- the student apathy is horrendous, ditto for some parents.  My tolerance is limited.  The student is not cutting-it, making the decision a long time ago to just not do anything or made the conscious decision to be problematic.  A parent phone call yesterday in which she supported her child's apathy was ridiculous, and I replied in kind.
Returning to Freeport was not a mistake, but perhaps a misjudgment concerning time and money which is creating a lot of stress.

Maybe I'm not suitable to be a parent- Trey's behavioral issues are continuing.  He just does not get it. Perhaps he is too young to understand, or I am not being accommodating to his age, or he is making the decision to just disregard the expectations.  Today, being sick and tired of his lack of respect and responsibility, I've pulled him out of the rest of piano and cancelled his Y activities for the second fall session.

Maybe I've hit my limit with David- He's known about this 25th reunion for months and last night he was complaining about the weekend schedule.  In the end, without argument, I said I would go on my own.  Also, I've ended my role in the house-hunting.  If David really wants to move, he'll find a house.  If he wants to fix up this house, I leave it to him to make the plans.  Additionally, I've stopped asking him about him getting a new car.  I worry that his car will break-down on the road, but it will be a life-lesson for him.  He moves like a turtle when it comes to making decisions and getting things done, and then pulls something last-minute, complaining and complaining.  Perhaps I've just lost my empathy.

Maybe I just fool myself with mirages and replays, ignoring the truths before me.
Perhaps I'm just thinking too much.
Perhaps this vent is just to create more internal drama.
I'm in a bad patch.